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"You'll be My First and My Last: Struggle!" (Part 4)

[#75 Published on: August 20, 2021] "It was a mistake," you said. But the cruel thing was, it felt like the mistake was mine, for trusting you." - David Levithan, The Lover's Dictionary Good day ladies and gents!👋 ***"Happy Friday, Fly-day!"*** Its weekend again, what are your plans for this night? or this coming Saturday/Sunday? Hmmm... Just be safe, okay? ;) So, where are we now? Well, today's piece will be the part 4 of our fictional story in titled, ***"You'll be My First and My Last."*** I know some of you here may seem a bit bored or out of interest reading the story, but I am not forcing anyone in here to really gave your attention in my piece tho. I just want to show to you that I am also capable of doing so. Without any further ado, here's the continuation of the story; ________________________ CONTINUATION: Alexa did changed. She went to the bar even without me, without asking any permission to me, just her, alone. Sometimes, she gets mad at me, even though I really don't know the reasons behind it. There were those times that I just felt that I was left out and really don't know of what's going on. So, all I do was just be in silence. One time, after my part time job, I went to Alexa's apartment to surprised her. There was this one neighbor of hers saying, *"Ahh, excuse me sir? I think Alexa was not there."* *"I saw her a while ago, so dressed-up, and toke a cab."* I just nod to her neighbor and said, *"Thank you for informing me."* *"You're welcome, sir."* She replied. I was then so worried, that's why I texted Alexa, but she didn't reply. She even ignored my calls. So, I decided to go back in my boarding house and prepared myself to go the bar where we first met. As a matter of fact, that was also our favorite bar to be hanged-out during our free time. So I grabbed a cab and went to the said bar. At the bar

I can't really see Alexa right away, because there were lots of people inside the bar. I kept searching for her. Suddenly, I heard something. It was like they were having an argument. I went in there and saw Alexa with a girl who kept on talking offensive words to her. *"You b*tch!"* I heard the girl saying that to her, so I go near to them. *"What did you just say?"* Alexa was very angry hearing those words. She suddenly slapped the girl on the face and so as the girl. They had a fight, so I came to the rescue. When I was about to end their fight, Alexa seems mad while looking at me. I asked the girl, and thoroughly knew that she was Troy's girlfriend. I did saw Troy in there that seems so uncomfortable. *"What really did happened in here?"* I asked because I was really curious about it. Troy's girlfriend answered with a loud voice, *"I saw your girlfriend kissing my boyfriend!"* After hearing it, I was a bit stuck. *"Wh...Wha..What?"* I asked while seems so confused. *"Yes! You heard it right Jake, I saw her kissing Troy."* *"Go, ask her, for you to find out!"* She said it with angriness while pointing out my girlfriend. I looked at Alexa and really asked her. *"Alex, is that true?"* Alex just gave me a mad stare. *"PLEASE! Answer me Alex, is it true!?"* I forcibly said that to her. She grabbed my hand saying, *"I'm sorry Jake, I was just drunk."* I get her hands off to mine. *"Why?"* *"Why did you do that?"* I asked her while I was in tears already. *"To Troy?Huh?"* *"You knew, that Troy is a close friend of mine!"* *"But why Alex, WHY?"* I added. I grabbed Alexa's hand and... *"D..Du..Dude!"* Troy said. *"I'll talked to you later Dude."* I answered. I forcibly toke Alexa back to her apartment, even she kept on saying, *"Get your hands off of me!"* At Alexa's apartment

*"So now, explain everything Alexa!"* *"Why did you do that? Huh?"* *"Give me such reasons for you to do that to me?"* *"You BETRAYED me!"* I was really mad while saying all of those to her. She answered, *"Betrayed?"* *"I intentionally do that Jake!"* *"I saw you in there and it seems that you're looking for me, so I did that to get your attention."* *"I...."* I stopped her in a moment. *"You, what!?"* I was so confused. *"Seriously Jake, you act like an innocent!"* She said. *"Let me ask you huh, Where are you when I was felt all alone Jake?"* *"Where are you when I felt so down?"* *"You said and promised me that you will never hurt me and made me cry Jake."* *"But what now, Huh?"* *"You're just always bragging about your personal problems to me, without even asking about mine!"* *"You know what, you're so selfish Jake!"* *"I have my own battles too Jake!"* *"I understand all your pains, your family problems and almost all about your personal matters, but I kept asking myself, "Why he didn't even care about me?"* *"So now tell me Jake, Tell me!"* She said all of those words while crying. While hearing those, I was just like a statue in front of her. All I said was that, *"Alex, I'm sorry!"* and I hugged her, but she refused not to.

She said, *"You know what Jake? I think we should just end this!"* *"Let's just broke up!"* *"I'm tired of all of this, you know!"* Tears kept falling down my face. *"No Alex, we can still make it work."* *"Let's talk about this thoroughly."* *"I don't want us to end just like this."* *"Please don't leave me Alex!"* I kept on hugging her but she forcibly get my hands off of her. *"Just leave Jake!"* *"Leave me alone!"* *"Get out!"* Even though, I really don't want to leave her but I just gave her the space that she needs at that time. While walking alone, soaking myself in the rain, I can't helped it but cry. I cried, thinking about all the those things that she said to me a while ago. It made me realized that maybe, I was really just blind to see Alexa's pains. That I was really focused on mine. That I was really selfish. At that time, I really just hoping that we could still make things worked out. ***"I am the one to be blame, after all."*** TO BE CONTINUE... ________________________ ***Want some more? Are you still interested?*** ________________________ Lead Image source: https://www.healthline.com/health/coping-with-break-up

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