I think this is the best platform for me to say what I feel. In this site, no one knows who I and my gil won't read this. I'm so in love with her but we don't have any intimate relationship. We're just friends because that's what she wanted. She told me that we must study first and I need to wait for her until we graduate but guess what? I found out in my 2nd year of waiting that she's already in a relationship for almost 3 months and she didn't tell me. It's like I was waiting for nothing. I told her why she didn't tell me and she ran to me crying when they broke up. I was literally to desperate that time saying that "why not me?" If I was her boyfriend then I won't make her cry. She told me that she's sorry. She ask me if I can still wait for her and Yes I wait again. Then for the second time, I lose again. She told me that she still love her ex and waiting for their comeback. Last night I told her to stop messaging me and I cut off my connection with her. I think it's the best way to move on from her and think of myself. Wish me happiness.