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12 years of Emptiness! When my Dad passed away, I felt like one part of my soul died with him too! I thought time will heal everything, I will get back to life. Yes, things changed, I healed. Now I can talk about him which I couldn't even a few years ago. But the part inside my soul still feels empty. And I know very sure, that would not going to fill with anything else for the rest of my life.
img https://unsplash.com/photos/T9THJMIIMPM *I usually don't talk about my Dad with anyone, not even my Mom or husband. But I became a little comfortable talking about it online a few years ago. This is how much time I needed to go with this fact. I still feel numb/emotionless when talking about him. And feeling the same while writing this. A deep dark pain still pokes my heart, I still can't hold my tears while thinking about him.* This empty feeling is something that I can't accommodate with but I had to. It's hard to explain how I feel. People say it's been 12 years now, you should get over the emotion. Because even if some of my family members talk about him (he was a good man so people talk good about him); I still cry and it makes things awkward. I also thought that over time I would act differently but it's not happening. The emptiness is still inside, my feelings are almost the same. One thing that I could say certainly brought peace inside me and that is my *Motherhood*. But that never filled the emptiness. I thought the joy of parenting will take over every other feeling. But days pass by and I'm getting to feel more how incorrect I was. Faith also helped me to come in a position to let go of the sadness of my grief. I started to develop as a person to honor my grief and begin to work through it. I was never been worried about my dad's punishment or the afterlife (as per my belief because I know he is in a good position. I'm worried about my earthly life, how could I survive, how could I get over the emptiness and all. I'm not too stressed about it but these 12 years felt like something is missing in my life. And I know probably I will continue to feel the same for the rest of my life.
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I'm so sorry about the loss of your dad. Losing a loved one isn't easy and requires a lot of time to completely heal. I lost both parents and it really hurt.
I'm sorry to hear about your parents. It's really tough to deal with the emotions. I hope we can find peace. Have a good day.
It will be forever missing sis. We lived with the pain. The pain will never goes away. That is what I feel when my father passed away too.
That's why you can relate with my feeling. I hope both of us will find peace in life.
I really pray for that. That is all we need.
I believe time can't heal our wounds we are the one who eventually learns to avoide those things which makes us numb. It is totally impossible to forget someone whom you loves the most but we have no control on anything so we must accept the things our creator is giving us. Stay strong Sis for not only yourself but also for those people who needs you.
I agree with you, over the time we learn to hide the pain. I accept what god decided but the pain never goes away. Thanks for your kind words. I'm keeping your words in mind. Have a good day.
It is hard to let go of some people we lose, especially our loved ones. It takes time.
It hurts so much to think or speak about those we lose. is hard to let go because we love them. especially our loved ones that we had or shared strong memories with. It takes time.
Truly, it still feels painful to talk about the person we have lost. Thanks for your warming words.
Sorry for your lost sis 😥 God has a purpose for everything and I prayed as years flies so fast you will become totally healed by that wounds you carried until now. I know it's hard for you but keep going in your life, everything's gonna be okay 😊 payting! There are many people who needs you today so Labannnnnnnnn. By the way nice meeting you here in read.cash 🥰
It so sad reading about the death of your dad, I totally understand how you feel, particularly when a person is in a joyous mood and someone just raises the issue. It hurts, but there is nothing we can do. Pleased to meet you though
Yeah, there's not6we can do but pray for his peace as well as ours. Thanks for your understanding.
hi, I can empathize and sympathize with you. Since my father's day, things was never be the same. It took me 2years of healing yet up to now I'm missing him the same. One day we will have a beautiful reunion with the. We will always remember their memories.