Yes, it's true, I'm scared 😨

A life of pain it's not an easy one,because you don't really know what to expect day in and day out. However, as the years go by, you learn how to deal with this kind of situations, and by that statement, it is trully possible to have a good quality of life.

So, what's wrong with me?

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For the past 15 days, I have had the worst days of my life since the day I was diagnosed and the day my father died.

I have low blood pressure (75/51), dizziness, headaches, chest pain, numbness in my left arm, palpitations, and total weakness from top to bottom. I also have a white spot on my left cheek, which I didn't have before. So naturally, I went to the doctor. One free because I don't have money to pay for a specialist; anyway, they seemed more concerned about what birth control I am using, or suspected pregnancy. I am not pregnant (I am single and have been for the last 4 years). Again, this was more interesting than my symptoms. However, they told me to do some blood tests to see my hemoglobin levels, etc., and an EKG to check my heart.

The next day I had the Lab Test done and the day after did the EKG, of course, I had to fund the money first to do that, and know I'm broke. With the lab test, the nurse growled at me, and the EKG....

Once again, the doctor was more concerned about the marks the machine would leave on my chest and recommended that I talk to my partner and let him now that "it was the machine, not another man." She didn't tell me anything, just that the EKG was normal. But, I still have chest pain, palpitations, low blood pressure, and the lab said I have a high white blood cell and platelet count suggesting a viral process (that's what they were saying).

I don't want to go back to the ambulatory, and I don't want to keep feeling this bad. I honestly don't know what to do anymore, because I don't have the means to check myself into a clinic, have all the tests in the world done to me and find out as quickly as possible what's wrong. And I don't want to be a burden for my mom and my sister, who have been worried sick not knowing what's wrong with me., because my symptoms suggest that something is really wrong with me.

People I'm scared, really really scared....

PS: I don't post a picture of me because my cellphone died (on top of it all)