Rest in Peace, Nanay ❤️

This is what I mean when I said "There's a belief than we you feel happy today, something bad will happen tomorrow. And I am not manifesting that kind of belief." in my previous article.

Manifesting this kind of energy is not a great action at all. Imagine ruining your good day just because you are worried of what's coming tomorrow. Imagine being paranoid with something you aren't sure to happen.

But I guess we have no escape from this manifestation. Earlier today when my friend told me that Nanay Vacion has already joined our Creator this morning. I was so shocked because I've been so close to Nanay Vacion when I was little and we are neighbors but when I turned 9, we moved from a different house but only a little bit far from them. Since then, I wasn't able to visit her.

This shocking news made me think of that belief. Did I accidentally manifest it? But I know I didn't. I can't still believe it. After my friend told me about the incident, she invited me to offer prayers and songs for Nanay Vacion for the peacefulness of her soul. So we went there around 3pm today.

Actually, I just got home from the wake and I immediately get my laptop and write this article because I don't want to waste any single thought I have about her.

Hi Nanay. You are so beautiful in that picture. I hope you are now in peace. We offered songs and prayers to you. I hope your soul find where it truly belongs.

My friend once asked me before, "What do you prefer in your wake, more flowers or more people?" Without hesitation, I answered "flowers". Then she told me, "For me, I prefer more people. Why? because you can't buy people to visit you in your wake". Then it hit me. Yes! My family can't buy people to visit me but they can always buy flowers for me.

That's why, as long as I'm still alive, I wanted to leave unforgettable memories with everyone I love. I wanted them to visit me in my grave, I wanted to feel love even though I already leave earth. I wanted to be with them during my last days here. Yes! I wanted to feel special. I don't like being lonely but I'm fine being alone. It's two different words.

Anyways, around 6pm when our service arrived. After 20 minutes of ride, we reached our home. I immediately change clothes because of a superstitious belief that you need to change clothes because you have been in a wake. Some people don't do this beliefs but I think there's no harm in doing so. What do you think?

Nevertheless, I am really sad on what have happened to Nanay but on the other thoughts, I am still at peace knowing that she is already resting and there's no pain for her anymore. She is now with Tatay Euginio. They are now together.

To Nanay...

Thank you for the great memories we have together. I might be little that time, but our memories made it so big. Thank you for being my second parent whenever my parents is not around. I will never forget all the chocolates you have given to me whenever I carol in your house until I grow up. I will always cherish our memories together. 'til we meet again, Nanay. I love you. ❤️