So sad you're feeling that way but i guess we should try what @TrusuccessXpert techniques. It sounds great!

It sounds like your internal conversation is not speaking to you in a helpful manner. The most important conversation you'll ever have in life is with yourself. This internal dialogue, what you say in your mind, is directly linked to the unconscious, which is where most of your reality is built. If you can change your internal conversation to be more positive, your outer reality will also become more positive. Try sitting quietly in introspection, and forgive yourself for any negative worldview. Then, repeatedly say, "I am happy, loved, lucky, and abundant." This will start the process of mindset recovery.

Good luck!