Entangled 2 (pent-up emotions)

October 24, 2021

Part 2

so why are you holding my hands?
like it's the most precious thing for you
why do you still kiss me passionately?
is it lust? bitterness? vengeance? pity? or grieve?

I will not include love nor affection
we sure forgot about that word the moment we hurt each other
so what's this gesture you're making?
don't make me confuse because my inside are already fighting

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-Demi-

The movie was a huge hit. After Issa passed away , the movie surge up. It was incidentally a perfect timing although the death of the main actress saddened the community. But the movie was a masterpiece and Producer Felix did everything he can to make it happen.

I didn't went to the movie premier but I did watch it at the editing. Felix only knew that I was at the editing booth after they finish making final decisions with the cuts and takes and the scenes.

You made me come here just to see that Issa is fit to star in your movie. You slapped it into my face. She is really good kudos to your great guidance. If that's what you want to hear, then I 'll say it to you. But it will be no gain for me so let's forget about compliments.

While walking out of the booth I was tapping my phone to tell the driver that we'll be going when an arm grabbed me and took me to a room.

"What the he--". I planned to hit the culprit only to find out that it was Felix. He kissed me and I can't utter a single word.

"Director, you came!"he said while hugging me tightly that a little air knocked the shit out of me.

"Hah! What? So that you can say it to my face that you made the right decision to make her your lead? Well Mr. Producer congratulations, she nailed it and kudos to you. Is that what you want to hear from me? " yeah I finally said what you want to hear from me. Happy? I laughed with the mockery.

"Director why are you not coming to our home? Do you hate me that much? What did I do wrong? Can't I be forgiven? What do you want me to do? Do I need to also pay you so that you can come to me too?" Felix said while hugging me and keeping me at ease for I kept on taking his hand off of me.

Slap!

"Is that all?" I said looking at him appalled but still cold...hah! you just got me there.

"I didn't mean it that w--" shut it.

" I need to go." I was holding the door knob, stopping on my tracks.. "Be happy now, Felix, you just crushed me BIG TIME, we're even now"

"Don't, " he said holding my wrist and turn me to him and he hugged me again. "please stop shutting me out, don't do this to me Demi" and he's crying.

It's my first time hearing my name came out from his mouth. And why is he crying? Isn't he happy that we are even now. He just stabbed me with a big knife that I can never pull out of me. So what's with the crying?

"I like you a lot, Felix, to the point that I will take all the blame you'll gave to me. I have all the resources I need, money is one of them. I used to buy you before to put you in prison and that was the gravest mistake I ever did. So why are you crying? Are you that happy to see me getting hurt by your words? Are these tears of joy? "

" I like you Demi and I'm sorry for blaming you. Please don't shut me out. I beg of you." he kept on crying.

"I don't know Producer, goodbye" and I walked out of that room, go straight to the car and drove away from that place.

There's no more tears coming out from my eyes. I should feel relieved so what's with these entangled feelings. Why does it still suffice.

Weeks passed without communicating. I gave up. My love for him will stay but we just kept on hurting each other. I miss him and I want to embrace him. But I don't know what to do to fill these emptiness inside me. I don't know if he wants me anymore

"Director, are you busy, can you come watch a movie with me?

I hope you can come at xx-xx-xxxxxxxx

I will be waiting."

He messaged me. Yes I still love him and I want to see him too.

You held me by the hand, showing me how happy and excited you are to see me. You are wearing those fashion eyeglasses as part of your outfit and a big coat so that no one will recognize you. Just what are you thinking of bringing me in the cinema with lots of these people around? tsk! Moron!.

"Let's go, the movie will start in a few minutes, let's take our seats" he said excitedly and grab me by the hand.

"What movie we'll be watching that we need to be in pubic like these" I said covering my neck with the scarf he gave.

"My movie"

I didn't expect that.

You can watched your movie alone

or with someone else.

So,

why me?

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Fin!