Always my safe haven.

June 14, 2022

Happy Choose day Tuesday everybody,

Well, I admit my body's acting up weird these days but even I myself don't know the reason why I've been in pain. You know the feeling of coming from too much running and doing excessive exercise that you haven't done in a while and your body felt sore. That's what I'm feeling now. I kept recalling on what I did on in the weekends but all I thought was I am just looking out to the kids, and then Mum made me cook all throughout the scheduled meals(breakfast,lunch,dinner). Nothing excessive.

But then I also thought this pain will not occur for no reason. Maybe being close to the fan while working on the lappy, no? lying down with the son above me sleeping for hours, no? ahhhhhhh I don't know anymore, all I want is to eradicate this painful feeling right now. My back, arms and my thighs are really pumping painfully I even though I always sits at work. Anyone care to help me answering my questions? lol!!

But anyways that's not the topic, for I will be talking about the 30DoG challenge, I don't know if I can fulfill this for this month though.

When I was a kid, my favorite place would be Papz working area, he's a carpenter/electrician and also a gun maker. So whenever there's no one who needs help in doing their house, Papz would be in the underground basement just beside the house. I call it underground for he dug a hole as big as our room, it's also a measured square one(expect a polish measurement from a carpenter). Then he just placed a double ply board and put some grass on top of it and watered for quite a few days to make it look like a hidden escape way. He just made a little sliding door so it will went unnoticed if you enter it unlike if you use a door that can be only be open from the outside. You can imagine the basement from the Harry Potter and the Sorcerer's stone where a three head monster dog was guarding a little door to the underground dungeon.

When Papz would ask permission from Mum that he'll go work on the guns, the nosy me will go with him. And the smell of metal mixed with the ground soil will welcome you when you enter his workplace. I always love how cold it is like I am in an air conditioned room although I didn't experienced entering one before. I just sit there and listening to the radio Papz was playing and observe what he's doing. It's one of our bonding even though I always just bother him heheh.

That was my favorite place when I was a kid. Papz workplace.

It changed when I become a teenager. The more I am hooked into books in the schools library, the more also I am in love with my room, our room(with my two sisters). Even if we are sharing a room the three of us, Papz made us personal space like we have each study table with lamp and closet so that we won't argue on things like borrowing without the other knowing that the other borrowed it stuffs like that. Then came college where we are separated in rooms as my sister were already working. So I had the room all by myself, books scattered or sometimes in order whenever Mum would come arranged them, pens, tracing papers t-squares, triangles,school stuffs all around as I have the freedom to so.

Even now that I am already working and also a mother, my bedroom will always be my safe haven, my safe place and my best of friend. My room the only one who knew I cried for lousy stupid things or even those problems I can't tell the family so I vent it out by crying. My bedroom and my mirror are the sole witness of my weakness.

My room is like my son, they are my comfort. Nowadays, whenever I'm home even though I am tired, my son existence and whenever he wants cuddles always makes me smile. When you're a mom, your child's warmth calms you in any aspect amidst them smelling like soil from too much playing. I can always do this with my son in our room, since no ones bothering and disturbing our alone time.

I already said these before that no one can enter my room except my parents and my son only. My books and my wallpapers and other things are precious to me that even a small change can make me furious if no one explains to me beforehand who did such changes. Yes I'm no angel when it comes to my room

Even though small, my room also gives me access on my work and oh how I love working with my books beside me, lappy on my front with the open window giving me access to a free refreshing air from the nature outside.

My companion will always be my room and the parents needs to drag me out or shout my name or find ways to just let me out of my room, its actually one of their struggles honestly for I hardly go out of my room.

The advantage of having your own room, is you can arrange and move the bed whenever you like that suits your mood. I myself do that, change the bed position once month, to eradicate living creatures having their stay longer than mine if left unattended. I can also put some wallpapers whichever I like and place them anywhere in the wall, my room looks like a studio with lots of pictures in it.

The comfort my room gives me is enough for me to come home on a weekend. The soft mattress welcoming me in a tight hug as if telling me that, "Come and I'll give you your well deserved rest"

All images are from Pinterest.

And it's a wrap, glad I made it.

And now I am missing my room and my son badly, with these body pains I just want cuddles from my son. I just hope this would be gone soon.

Thank you for reading!
@mommykim