Hello stranger,
It took one night. Just one for me to realize I want you forever. Sure, the situation was a crappy one to say the least. You were working and I was forced to be there. I was caught off guard by how powerful your presence was. Thus putting on my armour. You were so kind and gentle to me, I wish I returned the same warmth you’ve provided for me. Every logical explanation fails to explain why I could be possibly feeling this way towards a stranger. All I know is you had a profound effect on me, and I will cherish that forever.
I’ve dated tons of men, but you have stayed in my heart despite the cold empty year that’s passed by as we never got a chance to cross paths again. I know you felt the same. I saw the surprise in your eyes, and how you puffed out your chest.
I wish you knew I was only acting out of fear and shame. I was such a mess, and you saw all of it. But even then, the warmth in your eyes grew as I admitted I was part of this huge mess. I felt something I never truly felt and accepted for once in my life which was: unconditional love. I know, I know; I could just be a delusional fool. For some reason though, I get the feeling you’re feeling the same.
I’m intimidated by all the power you were emulating and specifically the power you had over me. I wish I stared into your eyes longer, or had the courage to say something when you tried to prompt me. You acted all big and tough when you saw I put on a cold exterior, But once your guard was down—your real self care out: the soft, kind and pure soul that you are within this world of dark souls.
I know how much you had to offer. But I just don’t feel good enough for you. I know how much you already know about me, and yet you still come back.
Ah !! What an emotion !! No decision should be made on the basis of emotion, any decision has to be made with a lot of thought, if you make a decision one night, you will see that the mind will want to change the decision the next night.