What boredom brought me coz of my pregnancy

November last year when we found out that I am pregnant, when I felt that I have always heartburn and feel acidic every morning that made me look for hot soup in order to ease what ever I feel. Me and my husband been looking forward to have a baby, especially me since I am not getting any younger. This gift of life from God is really a blessing, although we are not financially stable yet since we just only started and we not yet meet our target emergency fund since I know that I will be on forced leave once I got pregnant plus the fact that my mom is currently in recovery stage due to mild stroke. But still I am glad and thankful that God gave us what we have prayed for.

After I declared my pregnancy to my company I was forced to stop working, it's one of the biggest adjustment for me so far since I used to work and used to earn my own money. Before once I already set aside some portion of our money into our savings, did the grocery and paid our utilities I will not bother myself anymore to compute or budget the remaining money since I know that after few days we will be having our salary. Before when buying grocery I will not look for the cheapest brand or will torn between buying our needs and wants. And I will not bother myself to questioned my husband if he will buy something that is not necessity. But now that I am totally dependent to my husband everything changed. There are times that I feel ashamed to my husband since he need to shoulder all our expenses including laboratories and vitamins that I needed (coz our savings already dried up) I am glad that the God gave me a responsible, understanding and kind husband (which I never thought that he would be 😁 coz he used to be mabarkada before).

In order to help my husband or lessen our expenses I look for some way to earn extra, actually that's why I am here in read cash 🤣🤣🤣 but unfortunately maybe this is not really for me, but atleast I have a platform where I can bring up my thoughts 😁. I even planned to apply to be a virtual assistant but unfortunately my laptop is not in good condition anymore (well what do I expect I purchased it back in 2013 😂) plus the fact that I need an stable connection and a quiet environment. I even planned to sell cooked viand and other cooked food but our location is not good for my target market. Last February I end up selling prepaid load and ice candy to take advantage of summer season, and I am glad that I was able to pay our electric bills out of my profit from selling those ice candies. I have been dreaming and wanting to have a small business of a sari sari store or a mini grocery someday coz I do not have a plan to stay in a company until I got old, and I want to be a hands on mom to our little one, I want to be on her/his side in every step to see how he/she will grow.

Although I still have to wait for 2 months before I see our little one, I felt that the motherhood started to change my perspective in life. Being a plain housewife for almost 5 months now, I started wanting to stay at is and looking forward to take good care of our little one. I hope and I pray that God will always keep our family always safe, strong and healthy.