@kli4d 25 June 2021

Haphazard chatter - I

**10 am** It's raining here while writing the first sentence of this paragraph. It feels like this weather can manipulate your mood; from being productive to being a couch potato. I don't feel like writing now and I just want to lay on my bed and sleep all day. However, I can't do that because my mother's mouth will go to rapping mode. I have no choice but to pretend that I am doing something within the vicinity of her sight. Right now I am making her believe that I am fixing the sofa even tho there's nothing wrong with it hahaha. Anyways, I'm thinking of something that I want to do even tho I don't feel like doing anything. Magulo ba? Basta ganyan naman buhay ko, charot. I know you experience the same thing especially when you're procrastinating. You want to do something but laziness is stopping you. Like now, I want to binge-watch anime but the sloth in me is activated. By the way, can you suggest some movies, series, shows I can stream on Netflix? I just want to add it to my collection titled "Shows that my friends suggested but I didn't watch." 😆 Oh, I remembered that I listened to a podcast several weeks ago and in the middle of the discussion, he suddenly shared his tips and advice to complete the task that you want to finish even though you're demotivated. He said that even you don't feel like doing anything, force yourself to do it. For example, in my case, I don't have a plan to write an article today but I want to publish something. It is just that I don't have any ideas or motivation to start. Nevertheless, I open my browser, went to read. cash, and click the write button. It took me several minutes to think of a topic, and honestly, I feel pressured looking at my blank screen 😂. Thank thy brain for allowing me to use him for just several hours hahaha. Look at now, I just started from zero to 345-word counts. Wait, a question suddenly entered my mind, what drives us to keep writing on this platform? Lol, I should've included this question to the prompt of Miss Jonica hahaha. To be frank, I am writing on this platform to earn money, and I think that's the reason why you're here, too. Well, I made friends and I never expected that since I am a shy boy and I often avoid social interaction. But look at now, Clifford is now confidently showing who he is. Maybe I already shared some of my rants and personal life here and it's one of the reasons why I feel safe and comfortable with some of you. Trust me, this platform and my readers are more updated with my life compared to my family and personal friends. I also want to take this opportunity to accumulate more BCH till the price is cheap. I already have 0.4 BCH and I am planning to complete it next month or two. I am also inviting anyone to do the same while we are on our school break. Let's achieve it, wohooo! I temporarily stopped writing my article from this point as my mother asked for some help from me. I need to be an Ulirang Anak 2021! **1:25 pm** I helped my mother in delivering the goods from her online selling. The orders were flooding so we had to spend 3-4 hours sending them all 😪. We got home by 4 pm. I feel weary so I drink some coffee to hype myself up. Unfortunately, I have a high caffeine tolerance and the coffee consumed has no effects at all. I just decided to take a shower again to wake up my body and spirit. Even the water is cold, I need to endure it to make myself more alive 😆 After that, I tried to search the web for techniques on how to improve my English skills. I already posted on my noise.cash asking for advice on how to keep my fluency in this language because I noticed that my bilingual tongue is getting weaker. Most of the respondents suggest reading English novels and watch English movies without subtitles. **9:52 pm** I had a short talk with @carisdaneym2 to talk about something. I just need someone to listen, to release this burden I've been carrying for the past few days. An exhausted body + an overactive mind + confusion + sh°tty feelings = total disaster. I never felt this for a long time. It looks like I will have a new topic for my article 😂. Anong ginawa mo sa'kin at ba't ako nagkaganto? Sana bukas o makalawa, sa puso't isipan ay wala kana. charot. PS: I wrote this article in a form of a journal or something. I just realized that I want to see something from my old self; what did I do during this timeframe, what did I feel, etcetera. Expect something like this from me. Although not often, I just want to inform you. **You can read my recent articles...** **I don't kno****w** https://read.cash/@kli4d/i-dont-know-43c0a41d **Frustration and disappointment after a success: Lessons and Realization****s** https://read.cash/@kli4d/frustration-and-disappointment-after-a-success-lessons-and-realizations-a0419e6d **Want to make things happen? Manifest now.** https://read.cash/@kli4d/want-to-make-things-happen-manifest-now-c27be950