Three months ago, I registered in PeakD without knowing how to start. As a clueless newbie, I was not enlightened about whawasis appropriate or not. I remember temporarily becoming inactive on writing through that platform when they told me that I was ineligible for the OCD (a common curation program) in the blockchain. Honestly, I cried in buckets when I received that news, and I can't help comparing myself to others as I won't get the privilege they get.

I wrote an article about it a week ago after I watched one of the episodes of Today's Webtoon (a Korean drama). I was a crybaby typing it to pour all my resentments to myself. Not blaming the community, but I'm blaming myself. I'm skeptical if I would release it as I don't want to be more bothered. I articulate it since I feel like it would be worse if I just kept it inside my mind.

Every time I remember those times, I can't help to cry alone. I hide it from my family, and I shed tears for a shallow reason. I just wrote it to alleviate the pain inside my heart, but I don't know how long will it unfold to my drafts. Since my heart is into blogging, I just keep going. I take my hiatus because I feel like isolation from the environment that creating me negativity will just make me pity more/

And as you see in the title, I will keep going no matter what. One of my wishes on my birthday a few days ago was to take away all the negativities inside myself. I almost forgot the line; "If you love what you are doing, money will always follow." So here I am, making a comeback after my downfall.

Writing three times or more a week.

I'm just an ordinary first-year college student, so I don't expect that I would write every day. However, someone delegated me to increase my Resource Credits. Suppose I were not just swinging away from sadness. In that case, I think my consistency in writing articles and interacting with other authors while I was on vacation would be successful. Until now, I still live with regrets.

Reading More Books

Since I want to manage all the ideas I can write, I read books every night. I have four pending books to read on my shelf, so it means that I can gain more ideas on what I will write. Most of my thoughts will be published in Self Improvement and Emotions and Feelings. Reading will not only help me to discover endless topics but also improve my vocabulary.

Reading More Articles

I need to read more articles to boost my interaction on that platform. The thing I like about the community is that you can read a lot of blogs from different parts of the world. Not only in Hive Blockchain but also here. Well, there's nothing new in interacting here as I am already used to it. How about you?

Staying as a form of survival

As I already accepted that I won't get much recognition, I'll just use this chance to improve and excel more in my writing career. Some might say it ist easy to speak to move on just because you also experienced the same. Sorry, but I am not romanticizing victimhood chic from now on. I will write a blog about that in the upcoming days.

Follow 50 authors goal (for a month)

Starting from now on, I decided to follow 50 authors in just a month. In average, I need to follow 2 authors. I think I would like their contents as I want to get inspiration. Of course, I won't just follow to spam. I just want to increase my prevalence and make friends like others. I never compared myself to others since I'm aware that I'm still beginning and learning. But maybe soon, I will get the financial reward I like to achieve.

Thank you for reading. If you don't yet my username in PeakD, here it is. Thank you in advance for visiting. Should I publish the article I'm talking about, or not? What do you think? I'm afraid to shed tears again while editing it. Tired ofn crying silently because of shallow reasons, haha. If you want to tell me something I need to know, let me hear it in the comment section.

By the way, thank you to those authors who reblog and comment through my blogs. Maybe it's not yet my time.