Humble (ST #1)

This article was inspired by the title of the song Humble made by Kendrick Lamar. I will just use it for my title but I will not expound technically the meaning and the term of the song. This is also the first title series and I will continue it if I got another idea.

Being a humble person were the usual thing that we always portray to others as our way to give them respect towards their mistakes or struggles in life. Humble have lots of synonyms such as meek, deferential and respectful. It most likely talks about the modesty that we portray through our friends or even to our relatives but some of them want us to be called “mayabang” in terms of Filipino.

We always do it for the sake of healthy interaction of the community but sometimes, it could trigger the toxic side of someone's perspective.

We always like to say “sana all” or “hope all” when they achieved something because they really deserve that spot since they worked hard for it. Regularly, if they were had something that we didn't reach like academic rank or grades that we wish to have, they were always trying hard to be humble at every things that we got. Instead of telling harsh words, they were telling nice words such as “Thank you” or giving a motivation if we were congratulated them at the things that they got. Personally, I experienced the toxic humbleness last year and I will never forgot those things that he told me back then.

Last grade (I was Grade 10), I became the most ranked individual in our class which is Rank 1. I will be honest to you because I realized that being on a higher level needs a higher expectation. I still become humble but I think the karma that I got were severe because I exposed too much.

Our grades were almost close enough and our grades were only at 0.25 gap. To be honest, I overwhelmed that I got the Top 1 of the class while my bestfriend were on Top 2 spot. She is smarter than me because she is hardworking, creative and nice compared to myself so I concluded that she deserved to be at the top spot.

I always sharing “bagsak posting” on Facebook and I didn't notice that I'm slowly became more fatal than those previous quarter. They said that I immaculately became more unfriendly and the academic ranking that I got were sometimes could change our own treatment at our environment.

Second quarter passed and I surprisingly got the top ten spot. All of my classmates were shocked and I became a hot topic on their group chat which I understood. I still got 90 so I don't need to worry about it. I know that they were not shown to me that they were regret at the fails that I got. They still give me a lot of support with no plasticity even though the outcome of being rude were still become a good karma.

To be honest, I'm not degrading others and I'm not saying them stupid or what but I felt that I'm silently insulting them upon of memes that I'm sharing. The top one of our class were both friends but I think the one doesn't deserve to be in that spot.

I could say that I'm insecure but if we will take a look at what he were doing being Jolibee on my teacher were not pleasing. If my ex-classmates read this article, they will agree but we must accept the last. In addition, he was more concerned about his grades and he told to my teachers if they can change his grades for him soar high. Still, it's an inadequate reason though.

I hate him before but that's the reason why I became more inspired to study hard. Fortunately, I got the top five spot and he was on the top six which was a big achievement to me. Due to that, we became close friends and even though he drag me down through his grades (pinapamukha niya kasi sa akin noon na kakabagsak posting mo, nagkatotoo and he say that bumawi na lang ako at the same time), I wholeheartedly accepted that and he became friendly compared before. We still talk to each other especially when I were sharing some memes.

It's now the last part of being humble thought that became more toxic so in closing, what are the things the we could conclude upon being an humble person.

1) Changing someone's perspective

Being sometimes humble can be good or bad to the receiver of your message. It's still depends to the vision of the person you prattle on.

It could be good for the others since he feels like you want to make him feel better on every struggles that he had or either bad since you want to make him feel that he can't do it and you were pretending that you care but in the inside, you were happy that you degrade him down. Please remove that mindset, readers.

2) Developing Insecurities

The more you will be humble to people, the more that it could be harmful and develop insecurities to someone's feelings.

For instance, the number of tips coming from the bot. You will post it on your noise.cash then they will say "sana all" about the tips that you got. Of course, they will be feel conscious about the tips that you have and I think the problem about their insecurities is their mindset. Just like what I said on my brief story, being humble at social media or in any means of communication could trigger someone's insecurities.

3) Being too much humble could break your limitation.

Apparently, this is like on my brief story which highlighted my too much humbleness about my grades. I always sharing to anyone that I could be down at 75 or any line of seven even though I'm doing great at school. Some of my friends telling me that I should stop sharing those non-sense memes thought but my mind couldn't stop. I didn't notice that I became toxic at the environment and you should also stop that if that's your case.

That's all for now. I wrote it at the time of midnight because I can't stop myself looking forward to share it with you. Looking forward at the next part of this series. Thank you for reading.