BER Months Na! Pasko Na!
So ayun na nga! Today is the 1st day of the month of September! At isa lang po ang ibig sabihin nyan! It's Christmas Countdown Time!
It has always been a tradition here in our country na pagpatak pa lng ng unang araw ng September ay umpisa na rin ng countdown for Christmas day, making us, Filipinos, who celebrates Christmas the longest. And it's not only excludes to us here in the Philippines but to all Filipinos across the globe.
Almost everyone gets excited everytime na pumapasok na tayo sa mga -ber months since it signifies the start of Christmas celebration. Andyan yung may mga magsasabit na ng mga Christmas lights, mag aayos na ng mga Christmas tree. Magsisimula na din ang ibang establishments sa paggawa ng mga kanya-kanyang Christmas Village, although yung iba eh saka lng mag-start after Halloween which is pili lng since nagsisimula pa lng naman talagang iconsider ng mga Pinoy ang Halloween as a special event. Magsisimula na din ang ibang shops sa pagbebenta ng mga Christmas decors.
At isang tao lng ang walang sawang nagpapa alala sa'tin for the past few days sa pagsapit ng araw na ito. It's none other than our main man, **JOSE MARI CHAN!**
For these past few months, my news feed on my FB account is being bombarded with different memes of Jose Mari Chan. Nakakatawa lang kasi despite the current situation that we are in ay hindi pa rin nakakalimutan ng mga Pinoy ang magpatawa. They chose to be silly still and enjoy, and have fun kaysa magpaka-stress na dulot ng pandemic na ito. And since I have mentioned about how silly Filipinos are when it comes to JMC's memes, let me share some of it to you.
These are just some of the memes that are being shared on Facebook and other SNS. Nakakaaliw pag nakikita mo na sa news feed ang mga ganitong klaseng meme lalo na sa mga gantong sitwasyon.
Christmas would always be the most awaited occasion here in our country, yung parang eto yung araw na dapat tayong magsaya at magpasalamat especially to us Christians since we consider Christmas as the time that our savior Jesus Christ was born.
Kaya mula sa aking pamilya, malugod ko po kayong binabati ng Maligayang Pasko!
PS: I would like to apologize kung taglish yung article,nakakapagod kasing mag-English hehehe,pasensya na po ππ
My Favorite Thing About Facebook
I have been having a hard time thinking for topics when it comes to writing articles, which sometimes lead me to be inactive for a couple of days. It sometimes stresses me out since the bot would only visit me if I published articles every day and me being unable to write one on a daily basis means no tips for me on a daily basis as well.
So, I decided to ask for help. And who should I run to when it comes to this kind of topics if not GOOGLE. Yes, I tried asking Google what topic to write for today. And luckily, it gave me a list of topics.
There are a total of 50 topics on the said list and the topics are somewhat interesting, although, some are quite challenging. I chose the easiest I guess and that's what I'll be writing today.
"What is my favorite thing about Facebook?"
I have been a user of Facebook way back 2010, year when Friendster was still a thing. I had a Friendster account prior to Facebook, and it is my main social media account. I only signed up on Facebook because of it's main thing back then: **FARMVILLE**! Farmville made Facebook popular back then, alongside other games like PET SOCIETY, MAFIA GAMES, and a lot more. Technically, Facebook was a "gaming" site before. Eventually, as time goes by, Facebook became popular leaving Friendster behind which led to its 'closure'.
Facebook had also been updated through the years. New features are also being added everytime it underwent updates. And this lead me to my favorite thing about Facebook ( Games on this site was my original favorite thing about Facebook until it was removed).
So, my favorite thing about Facebook right now is its ***MEMORIES*** feature.
When Facebook was updated and it now shows us the memories that we had on Facebook, I got so excited. Why? Because it reminds us of all the events that we had shared on our account. I like how it reminds us on a daily basis and would go back far back to those years that had passed.
It reminds us of all the dramas that we had posted on Facebook, pictures we had uploaded, memes that we had shared, family gatherings, and other stuffs. It is somewhat kind of nostalgic everytime that we tried to reminisce all those moments that we had, either it be bad or good. Sometimes, I can't help but smile and asked myself, 'Was that memory that long already?' Especially, if the memory that is being shared where photos of my kids when they were still young. It brings back a lot of memories and emotions on those pictures or events that are being reminded us of.
Facebook is not just actually a simple app. It is somewhat connected to our life since a lot of our memories are being shared here. It helps us remember all thkse memories that we might have forgotten. I am just grateful that Facebook has this option that's why it's my favorite thing.
How about you? What's your favorite thing about Facebook?
And Then We Moved...
Since I am already into it, let me share with you how our life was when we were still in Leyte.
I was around 4 or 5 years old when we moved from Camarines Sur to Leyte. There I met my two half-siblings(my mother was married two times before she met my father) and my grandparents. My Ate Rona was actually the first perdon who welcomed. I remember her running towards us and hugging us with a smile plastered on her face, while my grandparents and my uncle was not, although they still welcomed us, I can still feel the animosity in them. My Kuya Jun-jun was just the typical pa-cool guy, not caring about the world, just doing his thing. There was an occassion a few days after our arrival, although Im not sure if it was my birthday or my younger brother's but all I know is that it was somewhat grand, since there was lechon. I thought I'm going to be living a much better life here. But I was wrong. It was only my ate who really cared for us, my kuya,nah, he sometimes pretend we doesnt exist.
Living with our grandparents was quite difficult, so my mother decided to move out. She found a house that can be rented on a near barangay called Malidong-lidong(trust me,that's the name of the baranggay). It was just a nearby barangay, also near the school (by the way, our grandparents house is just beside our school) so going to school was not a problem. We experienced a lot of difficulties in that house. It is where my mother hit me in the eye with a santol fruit. It is also there where I first saw my mother and father argue,causing my mother to leave and taking my youngest brother with her. It is also in that house that someone almost break in in the middle of the night. During our stay there, almost all of our dogs died, so we would end up throwing our dogs in the Malitbog river (sorry, we were supposed to bury them but my mother would insist for us to just throw it). It is also in that house that my mother left us under a friend's guidance to look for our father whom we haven't heard for more than a month. It is also during our stay there that my ate Rona left and work abroad. A lot of bad stuffs happened there so my father advised my mother to go back to our grandparents so we did.
Again, the same scenario while we were still staying with my grandparents. My mother and her parents along with his younger sibling would argue. Good thing, there was a vacant place just in front of my grandparents house. It was an old "karinderya" with a stockroom in it. The owner allowed us to stay there for free. And so we moved again.
The 'house' was quite spacious. It has a wide space that we used as the living room/dining area. There is a separate kitchen since it was a karinderya after all. There is also another room which we used as our sleeping area although we eventually moved to the living room to sleep since it was scary there at night.LOL! The only downside of the 'house' was it doesn't have any toilet. So we would use the toilet of our neighbors since toilets are usually separated from the house, which got clogged one time when I was using it, so we ended up using an arinola or a urinal.
We didn't stayed there for long because it was not very convenient. So my mother looked for another place,and luckily she found one,also in the same barangay. It was not that far from our grandparents house still, and was an empty lot,so they constructed a house made of wood, bamboo and nipa(I thought it was ours so I was so happy, but I just recently learned that we were just caretaker of the said lot). That's the house were me and my mother saw the manananggal. It is also in this house that we experienced having our electric line disconnected, our gas stove run out of gas, leaving us with no food all at the same time. I don't know if my father is not sending us enough money or my mother is just not good at handling our finances. And that's the last housed I have stayed since it is on that house that my parents had an intense fight, which ended with their separation.
We left that place with a heavy heart, leaving our mother behind all by herself as we moved to a much farther place, in Ilocos.
My stay in Leyte holds the most memories that I had as a child. I might have experience a lot of hardship in life there but it still has a special place in my heart. I was actually supposed to go back there when I was still working in Manila if this pandemic didn't happen. I am actually crying while writing this and the other article that I had just published.
Let me just cry myself to sleep just this once ππ
Jaljayo yeorubeun!π΄π΄π΄
The Love I Never Had...
βGrandparents are the best kind of grownups.β
*There's no doubt that grandparents are awesome. When you were a kid, they were most likely the people you went to for an endless amount of love and to be totally spoiled. They gave you candy and let you get away with so much more than your parents would. They are also the wise ones you go to for advice, since they've seen so much more of the world than you.*Β
A lot of people have shared how they were loved by their grandparents, talking about how their grandparents would gave them everything that they asked even though their parents won't agree to it, or how their grandparents would give them money secretly. Well, I guess, all those things are true if I'm just going to take my in-laws as an example. My in-laws adores their grandchildren. They always make sure that they would buy something for them every time that they would go out, they would often buy them stuffs that they don't really need. They would also tolerate them and defend them from us every time that we would scold them, though I don't really like it since it could become a habit. I can really feel their love as grandparents. How I wish I was able to experience that kind of love.
Growing up, all I ever felt from my grandparents on my mother side was annoyance. I never felt any affection from them towards us. All those years that we have stayed with them, I can't even remember a time where they have kissed us or just even hugged us. All I have felt from them was annoyance. I felt like they never cared for us even just a little bit. I just remembered, I didn't even saw them smile at us. Most of the time, they would glare at us, or worst, yell at us. The only time that they would treat us nice would be if my father is around which would only last for 5days, since that's the longest vacation they had.
At first I thought, they are just like that since I would sometimes see them scolding one of my cousin who would visit them so I tried to be more understanding towards them but I guess I was wrong.
One time, my cousins from Ilocos (we were still in Leyte during this time) came to spend their vacation with us. I never saw them smiled brightly not until that day. I felt slight pain in my heart but I disregarded it, because I thought that they were just being extra nice since it's their first time visiting them. But after a few days, it had become obvious to me the fact that our grandparents never liked us. They were being extra attentive to them but they would still yell at us in front of them. My cousin even asked me one time if our grandparents don't like us since they are treating us differently. I felt hurt because of that, and I don't know what answer I gave her. I was jealous every time they would hugged and kissed them. Everytime they would asked them what they would like for lunch or dinner or snack, which we never experienced. As days passed, when it was time for my cousins to go back, I saw them cry. It was painful seeing them like that, knowing that I would never see them that way to us. That day, the pain that I felt caused me to hate them. I know it was not right but I can't stop the hatred growing inside me. The feeling of being unfair and being mistreated created that hate for them that up until now I can still feel the hate. They both died a couple of years already but I never felt any sadness in my heart.
I never felt personaly the love of my grandparents on my father's side since my grandfather died when my father was still young while my grandmother died due to cancer a few years before we moved to Ilocos. But I can still remember when my father would told us how proud she was when she learned that she finally had granddaughters since my cousins on my father's side were all boys. According to my father, she would tell all her amigas about us and would show our picture to everyone. It could have been great if I was able to meet her. Maybe, she could have filled the gap that was caused by my other grandparents.
I can't help but felt jealous every time a friend or someone I know would post on social media about the love their getting from their grandparents, that I would sometimes pray to meet my other grandmother, even just in my dreams. I want to feel the grandparents 'tender loving care',although it's unrealistic but I still would like that to happen.
My Forbidden Love
I met him when I started my practice teaching, a requirement for all graduating Education students. He was 18 years old then and a 3rd year student on the school where I am going to stay for my practice teaching. I was staying in their house since the school is in a remote barangay in our municipality and going home everyday would be quite a hassle.
I didn't paid any attention of him on the first two weeks of my stay, although we went to the same school everyday and stayed in the same house. It was I guess my third week when I noticed him since he started talking to me then. He would even walk with me to school and carry my stuffs. I then came to know him more. He and his family were actually from Baguio City, though her mom was from Ilocos. When his father died, his mother ended up supporting them all by herself, hence the reason why he was still in high school despite his age. Through out the years, his mother was started experiencing difficulties providing for their needs that's why they decided to go back to his mother's hometown.
He was also quite popular at school because of his looks. Girls would often swoon over him everytime he would pass by or if he would come see me everytime classes ends since we would go home together along with his youngest sister.
At night, while I am busy preparing my lesson plan for the following day, he would sit beside me and watch what I am doing before striking a conversation that would usually distracts me from finishing my work. That's when I learned that he had a crush on one of the substitute teacher which happened to be a friend of mine. He even asked me if I could help him court her in which I disagreed since having a relationship with a teacher is prohibited and I am not sure if my friend would be okay with that.
I told my friend about him and how he felt towards her and how he asked for my help in courting her. It was a good thing that I didn't agreed on helping him since my friend actually had a boyfriend already. And she doesn't want to compromise her chances on getting a permanent position on the school. So, I told him what she said, but he didn't seem to care since he said that he would still court her.
As days passed by, I started to have feelings for him since he had always been taking care of me while I was staying with them. I dared not tell him about my feelings because first, I am still technically his teacher,and second, he still has feelings for my friend. Until one day, while I was preparing my lesson plan,with him sitting on my side,he suddenly kissed me. I got shocked that I pushed him and ran to the room where I am staying. My heart was beating fast, i was so confused. I don't know why he did that. It was a good thing that we are the only one in the house since his mother and grandmother went to a wake while his sister was already asleep. I stayed in my room for a while and when I felt that I was already calm, I went out to see if he was around,luckily, he was not so I grabbed all my things and went back to my room. I was already distracted so finishing my lesson plan won't be possible. So I went to bed right after while trying to understand what happened.
The following day, he was not talking to me, not even sparing a single glance at me, as if I was invisible. I was annoyed since I felt like I did something wrong to him when in fact he was the one who suddenly kissed me. I just shrugged off his indifference and went to school by myself. We weren't talking at school as well. It was only after eating dinner that he decided to talk to me. He apologized for his action and said that he did it out of impulse. I told him that it was okay, but what he said next shocked me. He said he like me, although he also said that he still liked my friend. I didn't answer for I don't know what to say. I just went to bed and sleep still confused.
The following days, everything changed. He became extra attentive and became extra sweet which really confused me since he said that he still like my friend. Days passed, when he suddenly asked me to be his girlfriend. I asked him why,which he answered that he no longer like my friend and that he was already in love with me. I was shocked since I didn't expect it. I was hesitant at first since I know it's not right, but I also realized that I also liked him so I decided to give us a chance. He told his mother about us,but his mom didn't approved our relationship. She told us that it wasn't right but he insisted that being inlove is never wrong, so we decided to keep it a secret.
We kept our relationship and pretended while everyone was around but like what they always said, we can't keep any secrets,it will eventually be discovered. My aunt discovered about us and she got mad at me, telling me that I should know better but since I was blinded by love, I can't recognized right from wrong. We kept our relationship despite the circumstances that we had around us,but eventually, I grew tired of our situation. It was already getting toxic, so I decided to end our forbidden love. He was devastated and pleaded to change my mind, but I am doinh what is right. Our love will never be right. Loving him, my COUSIN, was the biggest mistake I have ever commited.
Kung Maibabalik Ko Lang
It has been days since the last time I wrote an article since I can't seem to find any topic to write. I actually thought that since there are a lot of challenges here on read.cash that I can use as a topic, it would be easy for me to right one, however, I was wrong. The Question **and Single** topic is not appropriate for me since I am not single anymore, while the **Buwan ng Wika** challenge is not easy at all. At first, I thought its just a piece of cake but it's not. It maybe a piece of cake but a big one though. I actually don't have any plans on doing the Buwan ng Wika challenge,not until right now, while I am putting my youngest and my niece to sleep, the title suddenly popped up and triggered me to right something right now. So, without much further ado (naks,emcee lang?LOL), let me begin my entry.
PS: I have a feeling that this article would be a Tagalized version of my Would You Rather article.
Sa mga nakalipas na araw, sa mga nangyayari sa buhay ko, hindi ko maiwasang hindi mapaisip, kung hindi ba ako nabuntis ng maaga sa edad na bente uno, naging mas maganda kaya ang buhay ko? Naging mas masaya kaya ako?
Araw ng pasko ng makumpirma kong buntis ako. Hindi ko alam kung ano ang nararamdaman ko ng mga oras na yun kasi hindi kasama sa mga plano ko ang pagbubuntis ng maaga. Kakapasa ko pa lng bilang isang ganap na guro noon, at ang pagtuturo ang syang tuon ng attensyon ko upang matulungan ko ang mga kapatid ko sa pag-aaral. Naisip kong palaglag ang bata pero nakonsensya ko kaya wala akong ibang ginawa kundi sabihin sa tatay ng bata ang kalagayan ko na malugod naman nyang pinanindigan. Natakot akong ipagtapat sa tiyahin ko ang kalagayan ko dahil alam kong nabigo ko sila pero wala akong magagawa kundi aminin sa kanila. Agad kaming ikinasal kasi bilang isang guro, hindi kami maaaring mangturo na buntis na walang asawa.
Sa totoo lang,hindi naging maayos ang sitwasyon naming mag-asawa. Hindi din magkasundo ang aming mga pamilya, na muntik ng humantong sa hiwalayan namin. Pati asawa ko,hindi na rin naging maayos ang pakikitungo nya sakin. Naging mahirap para sa kin ang lahat. Unti-unti naayos din kmi, pero hindi ang mga pamilya namin.
Hindi rin naging madali ang buhay namin,hanggang ngayon. Nakikitira pa din kami sa bahay ng mga biyenan ko, kasama ang mga kapatid ng asawa ko. Mahirap, magulo, nakakapagod. Nakakapagod, kasi nakikitira lng kami at hindi ko hawak ang desisyon sa bahay. Nakakapagod, kasi mas madami yung pagkakataong nag-aaway kaming mag-asawa kahit sa mga simpleng bagay.
Nagsisisi ba ko? Oo, sobra-sobrang pagsisisi ang nararamdaman ko ngayon. Masaya din naman ako kasi nandiyan yung mga anak ko pero mas matimbang yung pakiramdam na sana hindi ganto ang buhay ko, sana mas responsable yung naging asawa ko, sana hindi kami naging marupok, yung mga ganong bagay ba.
Minsan iniisip ko, kung naging mas maingat ba kami noon, hindi siguro yung asawa ko ngayon ang asawa ko. Siguro hindi yung mga anak ko ngayon ang magiging anak ko, alam nyo yun, yung mga ganun. Kaya nga, kung papipiliin akong bumalik sa nakaraan o pumunta sa hinaharap, hindi akong mag aatubiling bumalik sa nakaraan. Kasi gusto kong itama lahat ng maling desisyon ko sa buhay, kasi alam ko ako mismo ang may gawa kung anumang sitwasyon o buhay mayroon ako ngayon. Wala akong pwedeng sisihin kundi sarili ko lang, hindi naman ibang tao ang nagdesisyon para sa kin eh, kundi ako.
Alam ko, nasa akin din ang solusyon kung paano ko maayos ang buhay ko at ng pamilya ko. Kaya ko namang mapagbuti ang buhay namin eh, pero siyempre hindi ko din naman maiwasang isipin yun,kasi lahat naman tayo eh, hindi lang ako ang nagkamali sa mga desisyon natin sa buhay, at alam ko, karamihan din satin iniisip kung anong klaseng buhay mayroon tayo kung hindi lang dahil sa maling desisyong iyon. Wala naman sigurong masama kung paminsan minsan ay isipin natin yung mga "Paano kaya" sa buhay natin.
Me and My Scary Stories Pt.2
Since I am waiting for my inlaws as they get their 2nd dose, let me just continue with my stories.
The Dream
This happened when I was still in high school. My neighbor,who was older than me, goes to the same school as me. So we would always be riding the same shuttle that we use to go to school. One day, I borrowed her nail cutter,which she said that it was her mother's so I need to return it to her. I just said yes,but being a careless person that I am, I misplaced it. She had been asking me her nail cutter so I told her that I lost it. She got mad sayig that her mother would get mad at her as well. I just shrugged it since she can just buy another one. A few days after that,her mother died. My conscience was eating me since I was not able to return her nail cutter and I did not even apologize. My friends even teased me that her ghost might come after me, since I lost something that the dead owned. But I just laughed it off. But one night, I dreamed about her. In my dream, I found myself standing on the waiting shed at the back of our school, where an irrigation canal is situated. I walk towards the big tree there and that's where I saw her, standing in the middle of the water, reaching out her hand to me,asking for her nail cutter. It was funny at first, but then I remembered that she was dead, I tried to scream but no voice came out, and when I was able to find my voice, she screamed back at me telling me that she's not dead until she was flowing with the water. I woke up covered with sweat. Since it was just a dream, I did not think about it. But I kep dreaming the same dream for a few nights. I told my aunt about the dream and she told me to go to her wake and apologize. So I did what I was told, since I'm getting anxious that the next time she would appear wouldn't be in a dream anymore. I also bought a nail cutter that looks exactly the same as the one I lost. I went there and placed the nail cutter on top of her coffin, and apologized. I also apologized to her daughter for being so inconsiderate,thankfulky she forgave me. After that, she never appeared on my dream anymore.
Sleep Demon
When I was still in high school, I usually sleep by myself on my uncle's house,since he and my aunt would sleep on my cousin's house right beside theirs. I don't have any difficulties sleeping there by myself. But one night, as I was sleeping, I had felt different. I felt like I can't breath,and that someone is pressing down my body, I tried moving my body but I can't. I remember what my aunt usually tell me that if I am experiencing such thing, I need to move my toes, any of it. So I tried but to no avail. I tried screaming but I can't. So I tried opening my eyes, which I eventually regretted. For I saw what was causing all this. My eyes met red glowing eyes, his body was all black that I can't even figure out if he was covered in hair or what. It was grinning, an evil grin at that. I shut my eyes, since it was so scary to look at the creature. Without me knowing, I started chanting **In Jesus Name** a couple of times. After a few minutes and continuous chanting, I eventually felt the heavy feeling was gradually become lighter. I was able to breath properly until I felt like the demon was no longer there. I mustered all my courage to open my eyes. I felt so relieved when I saw that the demon is gone. I climbed out of bed and went downstairs to drink. I looked at the clock and saw that it was 3:30 am, which was said to be the hour of evil. I was not able to fall asleep after that.
The Presence
This happened when I lived with my friend while we were teaching together. It was actually my last night in their house,since I resigned to prepare for my board exam. My friend was on the other side of the bed while I was the one on the side beside the wall. I was busy texting with my boyfriend when I felt a certain pressence beside me. I thought my friend was just moving closer to me so I just shrugged it off. After a few minutes, I could feel that I was being pushed towards the wall,which confused me. I tried to pushed back since I'm almost facing the wall but it didn't stopped pushing me. That's when I felt cold, I can feel cold sweat on my forehead. I know then that it was not my friend. As the presence kept on pushing me, I decided that I need to get up,so I counted to three. Once I was able to get up, I glanced at my friend and what I saw shocked me. There was a huge gap between me and my friend. I got chills all over so I woke up my friend and told her what happened. We both went to the restroom to pee. I was able to sleep right away. I was lauging so hard when I learned that my friend wasn't able to sleep after that. I was told that it might be tbeir dead sister bidding goodbye to me. But why was it trying to kill me? I don't know.
Lost
This happened way back 2017. 2days before my grandmother-in-law died,my eldest suddenly got sick. There was a lump on her right jaw,so we thought it was just mumps. But their is something else that we notice. Everytime that she would lay down, she won't be able to get up, so I would always help her, though she would experience terrible pain everytime we would get her up. I was so scared that time, because if that was just mumps, why would she be in so much pain getting up? So we decided to visit a faith healer. When we were on the faith healer's house, the faith healer said right away upon seeing my daughter that she was cursed by an entity since she smelled a stench smell from her and even asked us if we can smell it but we can't smell. When she take a closer look on her, she told us what happened. According to the faith healer, my daughter accidentally kicked this entity while she was trying to climbed a tree. The entity got mad and cursed my daughter instead. My daughter was only 6y/o then so she doesn't know anything about this. She described to us where the tree exactly was, sending chills over me since she was able to tell us where it was. We were advised to asked forgiveness from this entity, by sprinkling rice grains on the tree. And so, we went home. On our way home,it suddenly rained so hard. The driver, who was a relative, was unable to find our way home. We were running in circles on a certain barangay, we would enter an alley and would always get out on the same road over and over again. I was so scared since it was only me, my eldest and my youngest who was a few months old then, the driver and his wife. It was as if something is preventing us from going home. I was already praying the Apostle's Creed while holding both my daughters. Suddenly, a motorcycle passed by. We followed the tricycle driver. While we were following the motorcycle, the rain stopped. That's when we saw the way to our barangay. I was so relieved when we were able to get home. And as soon as we arrived, I grabbed a handful of rice grains and went to the said tree. I felt goosbumps all over me right after I sprinkled the rice grains and asked for forgiveness. It goes on for 3 days, and after the third day, a yellowish liquid was coming out of the swelling part of my daughter. She was in pain when we tried squishing out all those liquid. But as soon as it was all removed, my daughter became better and recovered eventually.
The Shadow
These just happened recently. It was around 12mn, when I had an urge to pee so I went downstairs. When I went back, just as I turn off the lights on the stairs, I saw someone approaching me, I thought my husband was also going downstairs so I move to the side, after a few seconds, I just realized that there is no one.
Those are just some of the scary stuffs that I have experienced through out the years. There might still some that I can't remember but these are the scariest I guess. I hope you enjoyed reading it ππ
My Scary Stories
Following my previous article, **Horror & Me,** and feeling my artistic brain to be functioning right now, I am again writing another article today.
I grew up believing in paranormal beings, entities that we can't see, and other evil creatures. It had always been our parents and elders way to scare us if we're getting naughty and not listening to them. I grew up believing and respecting them as well.
With these being said, I would like to share with you my own stories about paranormal stuffs.
Manananggal
We were still in Leyte when this happened. We were already sound asleep then when I feel so thirsty. I went out of our room but I was shocked when my Mom pulled me back inside. I was supposed to scream when she covered my mouth and told me to be quiet. That's when I heard this loud flapping sound,flying above our house. I already know what was that, so I got so scared that I could almost felt my bladder would burst of pee. After a few moments, we were no longer hearing the flapping sound so my mom decided to go out and check it,and since I felt the urge to pee I followed here. Going to the toilet is scary since our toilet was outside with no roof, so my mom told me to just pee on the floor near the window on our kitchen. Our floor was made of bamboo, so there are spaces in between, so water can freely flow. Just when I was about to finish, we hear again that flapping sound. The wall on our kitchen sink was also made out of bamboo, so we were able to peek into the spaces in between the bamboo slits. And to our horror, the manananggal was also looking inside. My mom,shocked in horror, hold my hand and we both crawled back to our room. I was not able to sleep that night.
Black and Red Lady
My sister was in Grade 6 that time. During those year, NEAT was an exam that every graduation pupils need to take before entering highschool. So, they are required to go to school every Saturday and Sunday for their review session. It was a gloomy, Sunday afternoon. It was not raining but the sky is so dark. Me and my sister went to our school that time, I was accompanying her because my mom and my younger siblings went out and I don't want to stay at home by myself. I was busy playing in the playground in front of their classroom waiting for them to finish. Around 3pm, their teacher dismissed them and advised them to clean before going home. After the teacher left, I went inside the classroom when I noticed one of my sister's classmate looking so pale. So I approached her to asked her if she's wrong, she started pointing outside. She was trying to speak but no words where coming out of her mind. I got scared so I called on my sister and her classmates. They approached her and asked her the same thing. That's when she collapsed. We all panicked since the teacher already left. One of my sister's classmate went out to call the boys, when they came in, they asked us what happened, so we told them. One of them looked at were she was pointing before she collapsed. We all got chills with what he said after, "***There is a black and a red lady outside."*** We believed him right away since we know the history of our school, being a cemetery before, and he had a third eye that's why he was able to see them,but we can't. We were all so terrified upon hearing his words. The boys tried to carry the girl who collapsed, but they weren't able to do so. So they tried waking her up,and luckily we were able to wake her but she started screaming,telling us that they want to take her. We were so scared that some of my sister's classmate started crying. I want to cry to but I was so scared that tears won't even come out. The boy who had a third eye decided to talk to them and asked them why they want to take her. According to him, they want to take her because they are going t give her as an offering to the evil spirit on the big accacia tree in the middle of our school ground. We got so scared that we decided to run towards the gate. Luckily,the teacher came back as she forgot something. She was shocked when she saw us running and asked us what happened. Just as we were telling her what happened, the girl collapsed again. The teacher brought the girl to church and have her blessed. The following day, priests were invited to bless our school because of that incident. The girl stayed in the church for a couple of days before returning to school. It was a scary afternoon,indeed.
Will be posting part two of my scary stories in my next article. ππ
Horror and Me...
I had been inactive for a couple of days now since I feel like I am losing my motivation and interest in writing. And during those times, I had been watching random videos on facebook and on youtube. And that's when I came across ***Loey Lane***'s channel.
Loey Lane is a vlogger who focuses on everything paranormal and spooky. Here is an example of one of her videos that she uploaded on Youtube last December.
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=0Z0LKrKmKx4
Since I enjoy watching anything scary and spooky, I got hooked with her videos. She posted a lot of videos that has something to do with paranormal stuffs or videos that seems to be so mysterious. She also sometimes post stuffs about murder cases and the like which is somewhat the same as **Bailey Sarian** who is also famous with her **Murder and Makeup** concept on her youtube channel. This kind of stuffs really entices my interest that I would spend most of my time searching for these kind of videos. I would sometimes sleep late because of this that I would sometime scare myself, making me imagine things would suddenly appear in front of me.
I don't know how or when I started liking horror stuffs. I remember when I was a child, I dreaded watching horror movies. I remember being traumatized while watching one, which gave me sleepless nights. One Filipino movie,that really scared the shit out of me was,"**PATAYIN SA SINDAK SI BARBARA**," starring **Daw Zulueta and Lorna Tolentino.**
I remember waking up a couple of times just to check my surroundings. I would close my eyes but would open up after a few seconds, hoping that it's already morning. That was the longest night of my childhood life I guess. I also recalled watching **CHUCKIE,** but I couldn't remember if I got scared or what, so maybe **Patayin sa Sindak** was the reason why I enjoyed watching horror movies? I don't know.
Although I love watching horror movies, I never liked horror houses.
I would be so excited the thought of getting inside a horror house but once I'm inside, I would instantly regret getting in. I remember when we went on a field trip to Star City, and decided to enter this horror house there. We were so excited at first,but I certainly regretted getting in. I felt like it was an endless tunnel and wishing to find the exit. I can still remember clinging to a guy whom I don't know when we were inside. It was so embarrassing since I clung unto him till we reach the end. Hahaha. I never saw thank him though since I ran to my friends who were also trying to calm themselves after that scary place. LOL! I never been to any haunted house after that.
My interest in horror movies and other paranormal events had never falter, even now that I have kids. It is something I guess that will never change, whether it's real or not, as long as it entices my curiosity, I would always be interested in it. ππ
PS: This article was also drafted way back March but I was not able to finish it, so the introduction was written that way and I don't have any intention to change it as a respect to my old self who drafted it,though I changed the title. π
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Is The World Changing?(interact with me)
Itβs been said that nothing is permanent in this world but change. True enough, everyone undergoes change daily, from birth to death. Our daily life changes from day to day, making it unpredictable for something to happen.
Our world has completely changed last year, from massive wildfires to destructive volcano eruptions, to a virus that killed how many million of people around the world.
This year, when everyone is hoping for a better change, the news of a new strand of corona virus erupted,making it impossible for everyone to feel better. It brought fear to people living in the UK as it is were this new strand was found.
But what made me say that the world is indeed changing? Usually, from the month of December until the first week of March, it had always been the coldest months. However, here in our province, we were only able to experience this during the first 2weeks of January. And the following days and weeks had been humid,though, the heat was still manageable.
I wrote this article weeks before I misplaced my phone so I was not able to finish it. I want to finish this though but I don't know how to end it or I'm just lazy to think, so I guess I'll just leave it as it is. It's not worth publishing but maybe, we can make it an interactive article,you can comment down the changes that you have observed in our sorroundings, and I'll upvote your comments as a way of celebrating the anniversary of BCH. I don't have much to spare since I just came back and the bot hasn't visited me that often,so I hope a few cents would be appreciated. Kamsahamnida!ππ
Selective Support System
Anyeong!
Weather is better today than the past few days,although we are still staying inside our house. While scrolling through Facebook, I came across this post which I really agree with.
Seeing this, I remember a post that I have shared a few days ago. Here's my post:
Whether we like it or not, supporting only those who show success is such a negative trait for most of us Filipinos. Like when Margielyn Didal came back from Tokyo after her game, she did not get the same welcome with Hidilyn Diaz. There was no live coverage or what. Well, I do understand that Hidilyn gave us the honor of getting the first Gold medal in the said event,but Didal was able to get into the top 10 which is already a good start since this is her first time. It makes me sad to think that Brazilians are supporting Didal despite the fact that she's from a competing country, making her trending on twitter as well and calling her a legend. I never saw any post from fellow Filipinos about support for her, we were not even congratulating her for a job well done. Are we not proud of her for that she was able to represent our country on this prestigious competition?
This kind of attitude actually not only applies to sports, it actually is a reality in every individual.
You will only be recognized and supported once you become successful. They wouldn't care of you if you are just a nobody, but believe me, once you become a somebody, they can't wait to kiss your ass. You will eventually be recognized by your relatives once you become successful, relatives that wouldn't even spare a glance on you when you were still a nobody. They'll be the one to approach you first and would even boast their relationship with you.
It's just so disappointing thinking how they treat you when you were a nobody to how they drastically change once you've become successfull. The hipocricy of these relatives to feel like you've been close with each other from the start making you uncomfortable.
Can't we just be proud of each and everyone? Can't we just support each other whatever achievements we received? It would be a big help to those who are struggling if we could just show support to everyone, in whatever aspects or situation that we are in, either it sports, or any kind of competition that we are facing. Wouldn't be a better place to live in? Do you agree with me?
Support me!Char!π€£π€£ I hope this article makes sense.LOL!
PS: I'm so lazy to check this article of any pliagarized content.Mianhae ππ as long as the bot consider this original, then it is π
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The Choice is Yours ; Would you Rather?
Anyeong!
It's been a couple of days I guessed since the last time I published an article. Been so lazy since the weather was also gloomy due to typhoone Fabian. It's about time I guess to complete this "**would you rather**" challenge.
However, I'll just be answering I guess one question. I actually saw this on a post facebook a couple of years ago. It only asked to choose between two doors,which have this question.
"What door would you choose?"
Or
So,basically,the question would be ,"Would you rather go back 10 years ago with all the knowledge that you have right now or go to the future with 15million dollars?"
And my answer then and now would still be the same. And that's the red door.
Why? I do love my family, especially my kids, but I don't want to be an hypocrite. If I would really be given the chance, I would like to go back 10 years ago. There are a lot of mistakes and wrong decisions that I have made in the past and I would like to go back and change that. I would like to see how my life would change for I know that I'll be experiencing a 180Β° turn of events.
Some would think that choosing the yellow door would be the better option since I have kids. And securing there future with the 15million dollars is wortg a shot but what if life is more expensive in the future than now? Then the 15million dollars won't be enough.
If you are fond of Korean dramas, you will definitely be familiar with the drama,"Go Back Couple", wherein the couple go back to the time when they are still in college and they haven't met. They tried their best to make sure that they're path would meet,but unluckily, I guess it was destiny that brought them together. So if that would be the case, then I might still be able to meet my husband,and since I know the events in my life I could be able to change some decisions but still have my kids with me but that is not a guarantee still but its worth a shot.
I may sound crazy but I would really grab that chance if there is.
How about you? What would be your choice?
Childhood Memories
This article is my entry to @bmjc98 's When I was a Kid challenge. You might find some of my dark secrets here. ππ https://read.cash/@bmjc98/getting-to-know-you-more-challenge-when-i-was-a-kid-6c5daa12
Lived in a military base camp
I was born and raised in the military camp base of my father who was a soldier before. I didn't remember much about my life in the camp since I was still young back then, the only significant memory that I had was the alien on the star that I have mentioned in my article Strange Memories. https://read.cash/@jekai_88/strange-memories-b325c6bd
Moved from house to house
When me and my eldest sister was old enough to go to school, our parents decided that it's about time for us to leave the camp since there's no nearby school there,that's when we moved to our mother's hometown, in Leyte. We didn't have our own house so I remember us moving from one house to another. We moved I guessed for five times before we settled in to the house where we stayed before they separated so we moved again to a different place. So I guess, moving had always been a part of my life.
Stole ice candy
This is one of those dark secrets that I am saying. We were in one of the houses where we stayed when I was still in grade 3. Our neighbor is selling ice candy and during those times, we don't have enough money to buy us ice candy since our mom is always out doing things we don't know. One day, they all went out and we discover that there was a hole on their kitchen door. So, the hungry kids we were, my siblings decided to do the dirty deed. One of us stayed as a look out while me and my ate snuck in and got 4 ice candy,one for each of us. That was the first and last time we did that though.
"Make out"
Another dark secret of mine. We were playing with our friends when one of my male friend asked me to accompany him upstairs. He was staying with us, along with her sister and mother,then since my mom went to see my father in the base camp. We were talking when he asked me for us to kissed. We sometimes see her mom and her boyfriend kiss in our sala everytime the boyfriend visits. He was curious and so did I. So we tried to kiss but we don't know what to do. We tried it a couple of times until we both laughed after since we don't know a thing since we were still young back then. We just decided to go back playing with our friends and never talked about it.
Played under the moon
As a kid, we always loved playing under the moon especially if there is blackout. We would play a lot of games like hide and seek,tag, or just sit down and listen to stories from some young ladies in our neighbor.
Almost got bitten by a centipede
We were already sleeping at that time when I feel something crawling on my arms. At first, I thought it was just nothing so I just shrugged it off and went back to sleep. But the creepy crawling won't go away that's when I decided to get up and check it. And there it was crawling on my arms. I screamed while brushing it off me, waking up everyone. When my mom saw the centipede crawling away,she stomped on it. It's a good thing that she was able to kill it since I won't be able to sleeo if I won't see it dead.
Hit by a santol fruit in the eye
My mom had always had a bad temper. She would always get angry for small things and hit us. But this one time, I don't recall what makes her mad, I was standing outside when suddenly I saw her throwing a santol fruit towards me. I didn't expect her to hit me but she did, and that's literally a bull's eye since I ws hit in my right eye. I felt dizzy but I don't know hoe I was able to go back inside our house and crouched under the chair,holding my painful eye. I thought I was going blind then. Thankfully, I did not.
Didn't paid but denied it
It was my first time going on a field trip when we moved in Ilocos. We went to a science fair, so the school rented jeepneys so we can go together. Being the ignorant me, since it is my first time ever, I did not pay my fare. Why? I only have 50 pesos as a pocket money and the fare was 30pesos rountrip. I don't know what roundtrip is and I thought thatI won't have enough money to pay the fare since I assumed that it would cost me 60pesos. So instead, when they asked me if I already paid, I said yes,thinking that I'll just pay for it when we get back home. They were suspecting me for not paying but I still insisted I did. I was so nervous the whole time since I know I did something bad,but I need to be firm. It was only when we were going home that I learned that the fare was for both going tl the far and back. I was so ashamed to pay so I just didn't. Although, they still suspect me that I didn't pay the following day. So I admitted the truth but I lied that I lost my purse then that's why.
Farted!
This happened while we were reviewing for the NEAT test for grade 6 pupils. I don't know but I was not able to control it,so I just farted. But the worst part was, I was using my reviewer and I was using it to fan my thigh unconsciously, causing it to have everyones attention towards me. How I wished so hard that time that the earth would open up and it me.
These are just some of the memories I have as a child. Trust me, I also have lots of good memories as well growing up, but they're almost the same as the rest of you so I just shared some of these unexpected experiences that I have. Reason why I did? Just because. ππ
Malnutrisyon Patuloy na Labanan, First 1000 days Tutukan
Ang unang 1000 na araw ni baby mula sa pagbubuntis ng ina hanggang sa ikalawang taong gulang nito ay itinuturing na "golden opportunity" kung saan mahalaga na mabigyan ng tamang nutrisyon ang mag-ina para masiguro and tama at malusog na paglaki ni baby.
Bilag isang first time mom, ang pagpapassuso kay baby and pinakaimportanteng bahagi ng aking pagiging ina. Naniniwala akong ito ang pinakamainam na simula para sa nutrisyon ni baby dahil ang gatas ng ina ang siyang itinuturing na pinakamainam na pagkain para kay baby sa kanyang unang anim na buwan. At dahil nanggagaling sa aking katawan ang pagkain ni baby, kinakailangan ko ding kumain ng mga masusustansyang pagkain upang masiguro kong sapat and nutrisyong nakukuha ni baby. Ang pagiging malinis sa katawan ay nakakatulomg din upang mas maengganyo ang aking anak sa pagsuso sa akin.
Hindi madali and pagpapasuso at hindi rin lahat ay nabibigyan ng pagkakataon o nabiyayaan ng kakayahang makapagprodduce ng gatass kaya't labis ang aking kasiyahan dahil nabiyayaan ako ng ganitong pagkakataon. Dahil sa aking pagpapasuso, nakaksiguro akog sapat ang nutrisyong nakukuha ni baby, at makakatulong din ito upang maiwasan ang kanyang malnutrisyon kaya hindi ko ipagkakait ang "golden opportunity" na ito kay baby
The article above is my entry for the City of Vigan's Nutrition Month celebration for this year. Following the theme as my title indicates, this year's theme focuses on combating malnutrition through the First 1000 Day Program. This entry is based on my own experience as I had been an advocate of breastfeeding. I have breastfed both my eldest and my youngest and I can fully attest that breastfeeding a child indeed fight malnutrition. This article will be delivered by a first time mom. So,, wish us both luck.
Ciao!
Never Have I Ever: Challenge Unlocked
Anyeong!
"**Never Have I Ever**" - I recalled playing this during one of our drinking sessions when I was still working at Quezon City way back 2013. We played this game with our trainer. It is quite fun since we get to know some "dirty" stuffs from one another,especially that there was a penalty for whoever answered the question with "**I Have**".
After being on hiatus for quite a while, it is somewhat fun to realize that this game is here on read.cash. It is a big help for me since I have this topic to write. Using this random generator, I have came up with these 10 Never Have I Ever questions. https://randomwordgenerator.com/never-have-i-ever-question.php
Let's start!
Never have I ever gone
skinny dipping
NEVER! I don't think there is any chance for me to do this even if I wanted to. But I guess this is included in my things to do before I die. I want to experience how it feels.
Never have I ever been to a
movie on the first day of release
NEVER. Although, I love watching movies, I only experience going to a movie theater I guess twice but never on the first day, I just don't feel the need to watch the movie on the first day. I'm fine watching it on TV though or through a pirated cp or site.LOL!
Never have I ever watched Star Wars
NEVER. I never feel interested in the movie.
Never have I ever snuck into
a concert.
NEVER. We tried getting on the backstage,though, and it was not successful.LOL!
Never have I ever created a
Youtube video
NEVER. I don't have the courage on embarrasing myself in front of millions of people around the world.LOL!
Never have I ever watched
the Grammy Awards
NEVER. My interest in the Grammy Awards has the same amount of interest that I have with Star Wars.LOL!
Never have I ever been to a
professional hockey game
NEVER. The only sports I guess that I have been to was the games played during school intramurals and sports fest. Although, I would really love to watch live professional basketball games.
Never have I ever pretended
to know someone I didn't
NEVER. Wouldn't be so awkward? I don't do awkward. Charot!
Never have I ever walked around
with a stain in my shirt I
didn't realized was there.
NEVER. I always make sure that my shirt or my pants are clean when I'm going out. I know someone who did though.LOL. She happened to ride a jeepney with her crush,and she wants to get his attention. She started applying rollete perfume on her shirt,but what she didn't know was it was not a perfume she grabbed inside her bag,but a lipstick! She only realized it when she arrived at school.LOL!I just couldn't imagine how embarassing that was.
Never have I ever laughed so
hard I peed my pants a little.
NEVER. I can't seem to remember that I have experienced this. I cry though when I laugh so hard.
Well, that's it for me!
Ciao!
Getting Back On Track
Well,yeah, I'm back!
I am finally back! After a long hiatus, I have finally found the courage to continue whatever I have started.
It had been 5months since I stopped whatever goal that I have started. It was way back in March when I lost my phone. Losing it was not actually a big deal since I can just replace it. But what really bothered me was all the things that had something to do with my cryptos was in that phone,from my wallets to its seed phrase,from accounts and its password. I was so disappointed in myself for being so careless and scatter-brain. All those earnings and investments just disappeared because of my fault.
I was so down and depressed for what happened. I was blaming myself for being so stupid,since I did not followed the advise of almost everyone about saving seed phrases and passwords. I was so confident in myself that I don't need to do such things since I'm not going to lose my phone. But I guess this is what really life is,full of surprises.
However,just when I already accepted that I lost everything, my youngest daughter found my phone! She found it under my closet! I was shocked when she showed me my phone which was fully drained. I was so happy and relieved for what I thought was lost had already been found.
But I guess, I was too hard on myself, that after all that self-blaming, I lost my drive. I felt so demotivated to continue everything. I started withdrawing all my earnings. I stopped writing articles, posting on noise.cash, and monitoring my Binance account. I stopped everything even ny goals were set aside. The only goal I guess that I was able to fulfill was learning how to ride a bicycle.LOL! Aside from that, I had been wasting my time scrolling on my Facebook account. I tried getting back on my feet but I was unsuccessful because I always end up on my Facebook account watching DIY and hacks that I'm not sure if they really works.
But what made me change my mind? How did I find the courage of starting again? Well, it's my kids. Life is still difficult,still unemployed,depending on my inlaws. I am once again unable to provide for my kids' needs and wants. My eldest's birthday is just around the corner and I haven't saved anything yet for her birthday. I asked myself, "Is this it?Is this all I can do?". After asking myself these questions, I know that I am more than this, my kids deserves more than this. So, I mustered up all my courage. And here I am, back where I started.
A lot had happened in the past months, I have wasted a lot of time, but I guess, it's not yet too late to continue what I have started. I may have experienced a long hiccup on the road but what matters is that I'm back on track and I'm ready to continue this journey.
Fighting!γ½(^γ^)γγ½(^γ^)γ
My Books Hold Many Stories...
*"My book holds many stories,*
*wrapped tightly in itself*
*And yet it never makes a noise*
*it waits upon my shelf*
*Until I come and take it;*
*then soon my book and I*
*Are sailing on a fairy sea*
*or floating in the sky."*
***- Annette Wynne***
Losing my phone was difficult. It was difficult since I almost spend all my time using it. From the time I open my eyes, I use my phone to check on the time since we no longer use wall clock nor physical alarm clocks. I also use my phone while drinking coffee since I use it on checking the price of BCH. I am also using it on claiming daily rewards. And most especially, I am using it because of noise.cash.
Aside from BCH-related stuffs, I am also using my phone for school stuffs. It is where my fellow parents and teachers communicates with each other especially if there are important updates. So it was really difficult for me when I lose it.
It was difficult, yes, at first. But after a day or two, I feel like its not that bad if I don't have a phone, a smartphone to be exact.
Aside from the times that I am earning BCH, I realize that my phone was only for entertainment purposes. There are a lot more things to do outside the "phone" life.
It was only during that time that I glanced at my books, and it is really shocking to see that I have lots of pocketbooks, since I'm an avid fan of Filipino pocketbooks, especially from Precious Pages. Their stories makes me feel like I am the heroin and it is my story that I am reading. It brings back the "kilig" moments during college days, making me feel like a teenager again. I accumulated a lot of pocketbooks when I was still working in the metro. It was the time when e-book was not still a trend, a time when Wattpad is not yet popular. I have the complete series of the ***"Stallion Boys"*** by Sonia Francesca and Sofia. I also has other series written by Sofia Francesca like ***"Calle Pogi"*** and ***"Skylanders"***. I also have a few books from ***"Kristine"*** series written by the late Martha Cecilia. I also have some written by Arielle when she was still part of Precious Pages.
Aside from pocketbooks, I also have books which was originally from Wattpad like ***"My Facebook Boyfriend For Real"***, ***"Campus Royalties"***, ***"She's Dating the Gangster"***, and my favorite ***"Diary ng Panget"***, though I prefer the original version of "Diary ng Panget" on wattpad.
Aside from these, I also have a few horror books like ***"Philippine Ghost Stories"*** and ***"Bangungot"***, though I haven't tried to read them yet, it's not that I'm scared or what but I just don't find it interesting (yeah, I don't find it interesting, that's the real reason, promise).
I also have the most of the books of one of my favorite Filipino author, **Bob Ong.** From "***ABNKKBSNPLAko?!"***, "***Bakit Baliktad Magbasa Ang Mga Pinoy?"***, ***Ang Paboritong Libro ni Hudas*** (which I am currently reading), ***Stainless Longganisa, Ang Alamat ng Gubat, Lumayo Ka Nga Sa Akin, Kapitan Sino***, to the last book that I have purchased, ***"Ang Mga Kaibigan Ni Mama Susan"***. Bob Ong have a few more books that I haven't purchased but maybe I could complete his books someday.
Reading books had always been my favorite past time when I was still studying and losing my phone made me realize that haven't read any books ever since I had a smartphone. Flipping the pages of these books was quite nostalgic since it brings back memories when smartphones was not yet invented and was not yet a thing. It somewhat made me realize that we shouldn't be dependent to smartphones. It has a lot of perks and benefits but we must always remember that our world must not revolve around it. I am still sad and upset that I lost my phone but it somewhat help me be connected to the real world.
How I Lost ALL my BCH Earnings
It has been a while since I posted an article. I have quite a few drafts about different topics which I guess is still waiting to be remembered. And if these articles were humans, I guess they'll be shouting back at me, telling me to finish them all and let them be unleashed on this platform, ready to be criticized by everyone who will encounter them. But finishing them might take a while since I am once again on the state where I couldn't find any motivation to do due to an event that made me write this article.
While I am trying hard to reach my goals and finish all the challenges that I have given myself, I guess destiny is trying to sabotage it. Just a few days ago, I lost my phone. I can't seem to find it anywhere. Well, it's not supposed to be a big deal since I can just purchase a new one, and sync all my wallets and accounts on the new one. It could be as easy as that since I know all the passwords for my account. Downloading the apps is also easy. Everything is supposed to be easy. But it's not.
My phone that was lost has the sim card that I have been using for almost 10 years now. That phone number is what I have used on all my wallets, like GCash and Coins.ph. But it's not that difficult to retrieve since Globe Telecom offers a service wherein one can request the same phone number for their new sim card. So accessing these two wallets are not the problem.
The biggest problem that I have right now is to access my Bitcoin.com wallet, where ALL my BCH earnings are in. I was so complacent that I did not save any of the seed phrase for all the wallets that I have in there. Not even a single one from those five wallets. So, that only means one thing. I have lost all my BCH earnings that I have accumulated since January. I know its not that much but its a hard-earned one making me so upset that its now gone for good.
I don't even know how I could start since I don't have the money to buy a new phone. LOL. Destiny, I guess, is really playing games on me. But that's life, it's never fair. And never will.
Why So Sweet?
I had been a member of this community eversince I started my read.cash journey 3 months ago but this would be my first article related to this. And I just want to share my journey with you.
It was in 2019 when I discovered that I have diabetes. I just started working as a customer service representative in Pasay in May 2019. And as part of its requirements was to undergo medical exam. I was complacent enough that my result will come out okay and will get through the said requirements. But 2 weeks after, I was called out by our language trainer along with some of my co-trainees and is advised to visit the clinic since there is something wrong with my medical exam. I was confused and shocked at the same time because I did not expect that something will go wrong.
Upon visiting the clinic, the doctor told me that there was an abnormal increase in the amount of glucose in my urine and I need to do a repear UA to verify it if it's just a temporary issue or if their diagnosis is correct. I got nervous that I might have diabetes but I thought it migjt be because of the free juice that the company is offerring and I haven't drank enough water since I started working there so I stopped drinking juice and started drinking more water hoping that it's not what it is.
2days after, I went to the partner clinic to repeat UA, and after a day I guess, I was again called by the clinic that the amount of glucose in my urine was still above normal and was advised to visit an internal doctor. I did not really expected that especially that I don't have enough money to visit one since I just started working but I don't have a choice since I need a fit to work from the said specialist. So I went to see one and that's when it was confirmed that I really have diabetes. I was advised to undergo more laboratory tests so that the doctor would know what medicine to give. But I didn't do any of those and just went home after getting ny ftt to work certificate.
I went home sad since I never imagined myself to have diabetes and I don't want taking any maintenance or whatever. So I decided to cut off rice and to not eat sweets, drink softdrinks or any carbonated drinks. I would only eat once a day and that would be Skyflakes biscuit. Sometimes I would eat tortang talong or eggplant dipped in egg and fried. I also stopped eating bread and I am also drinking lots and lots of water. I lose weight in just half a month since I cut off eating rice and eating less. When I started working, I weighed 60kilos but with just a month, I lose 10kilos which is somewhat a good thing since I was having a hard time losing weight since I gave birth with my youngest.
During my time working in Pasay, I was able to maintain my sugar level which was around 150. I maintained that sugar level until I stopped working and went back to my hometown in Vigan.
Once I was back in Vigan, I became too complacent and forgot that I have a sugar level to maintain so I started eating rice again, sweets, and everything that I was supposed to refrain from. I gained back my weight to 60kilos again and guess what, my sugar level skyrocketed to 300.
I was shocked that it got doubled but what do I expect, I abused myself and disregarded the fact that I have diabetes. Instead of continuing what I started when I was still working, I reverted back to my old ways. So I can't blame anyone but myself.
But it won't end here. That's why I have decided that I need to start living healthy once again. My new journey has just started and I know that beating diabetes is never easy but if are serious with something, it is possible.
PS: I'll try to keep everyone updated about my new journey πππ
BCH and the Government:Is it possible?
It has been more than a month since I started my BCH journey, when #Club1BCH was created. The community had been always there inspiring everyone with it's core members' journey. They had published articles on how they had achieved their goals and on how they keep improving or updating these goals, challenging themselves to be much better. They had also published articles on how they spread BCH awareness in their own ways, by promoting BCH through customized shirts, cups, calendars, and cards, by distributing leaflets, by accepting BCH payments on their stores, by sharing it on their social media accounts, and a lot more. All these ideas are really great, and are indeed great ways on spreading BCH awareness in our community.
I, myself, however haven't thought about any unique way of spreading BCH awareness in our community. I have already shared my BCH journey though on Facebook the other day and I'm not sure if that was effective for me since there were only two of my friends who have inquired about it, and I haven't heard from them since then. However, just this afternoon, as I was cleaning our front yard, something came up, an idea that seems so impossible to achieve and that's the reason why I am writing this article since my idea is somewhat next to impossible,why not just share it with you so we can all imagine it together.LOL!
**WHAT IF THE GOVERNMENT ADOPT BCH?**
If we're going to think of it, if the government, the Philippine government, would use BCH as funds, there are a lot of benefits that would come from it. BCH has a lot of perks that other cryptocurrencies lack. Let me list down some of the reason why our government should use and invest in BCH.
Let's just take the LGUs as an example. Every LGUs has an emergency fund. If the LGUs would buy BCH using these emergency funds, and we all know that emergency funds are only used for emergencies, and BCH, though its value sometimes goes down, we all know that it always bounce back, the LGUs can gain profit from it once it pumps. It would become an additional fund for the said LGU. Meaning to say, more people could be helped in times of emergencies.
Another benefit would be when it comes to financial aids given by LGUs to its constituents. There are a lot of people who are asking for financial assistance from the government. So instead of using cash, all they just need to do is to send BCH directly to their wallet, which could also allow the receiver to gain profit from what was sent to them. It could be a faster transaction as well since usually, getting this financial aid from the government takes time to be approved, but since BCH is an always available fund, it would become easier to get the said approval. And since BCH has the fastest transaction with lowest transaction fee, receiving financial aid would never be a hassle anymore. And this scenario would then be the reason to require all government and non-government establishments to accept BCH as their mode of payment, like hospitals, schools, supermarkets, etc.
There are still a lot of benefits that we could get if we are going to use BCH. However, for every benefits, there are always a downside to it. And there are three aspects that could affect the success of using BCH as the main fund of our country. First would be poverty. If BCH is going to be used as the main fund, everyone is then would need a smartphone since everything would be processed electronically, which is very impossible to happen since not every Filipinos can afford to buy smartphones. If and only if, every Filipinos would be able to get their own smartphones, we are going to come up with the second one, which is poor internet connection. Philippines is known to be one of the countries which has poor internet connection, making it difficult to process any online transactions. And the third one, and the biggest problem that we are facing, **CORRUPTION.** We all know how corrupt some of the government officials are. There is a very big, fat chance that corrupt politicians will take advantage of this. Who would know how much profit the government is getting every time BCH pumps is if these corrupt politicians would not disclose it to the public.
If we're going to think about it, BCH has a great potential if it becomes part of the government system. The Filipinos would benefit a lot from this, if and only if this could happen which I think is quite impossible yet but who knows, these might be the solution that we are looking for.
How about you? What do you think about this? Could it be possible? Tell me your thoughts on the comments section below. I'll be more than happy to hear your thoughts as well πππ
Killing the Demon
*Click*! Her body trembles as she heard the door of their house opening. She moved her kids closer to her trying her very best to cover them with her body, awaiting the demon to come to where they are.
It had always been like this for how many years now. Fear had always been with her for these long years. Every night, as the night grows deeper, the demon always visits them, hurting them and bringing pain that she doesn't even know if time could heal it.
The demon had always been like this, inflicting pain towards them, for reasons she doesn't know. The demon would always scare the hell of out her. She wants to leave but she can't. She got nowhere to go. Her family had left her because of the demon, for she chose to be with the demon, blinded by its fake face of an angel. She doesn't know it, for if she only knew, she wouldn't be here where she is right now. She wants to escape from this dark presence but she can't for she have kids to protect, kids that she had always loved so dearly more than her life.
She would always wish for the demon to be lost, for it to leave them alone. But the demon is a part of her that she can't escape. She would sometimes blame herself for bringing this demon in her life, but what else can she do. She's weak and scared, and no one is there to help her, to save her.
Her strain of thoughts were interrupted when she saw the demon, smirking at them. She tried her best to cover the kids. And as the demon moves closer to them, the kids starts to tremble within her, making her frantic. She doesn't want the demon to be near them. But her effort was uselesa, as the demon is stronger than her. The demon was able to get the smaller one and started beating the child in front of her. The pain in her has doubled everytime the child scream out of pain. She can't take it anymore. She moved the other kids aside, and like a raging bull, she charged at the demon who was caught off guard and fell down releasing the child. She picked up the child and hugged her. But she didn't saw the demon grabbing her hair and dragging her outside of the room. It was painful, she wanted to scream but she didn't because she knows that it'll scare the kids more. As the demon dragged her, all she heard were the painful screams of the kids. As soon as they reached the living room, the demon threw her,hitting her body to a chair. Her back ached with pain, and before she know it, the demon started stomping on her. She covered her head, trying to endure the pain.
The stomping suddenly stopped along with a loud crash. As she looked up, she saw one of the children throwing a vase towards the demon. It infuriates him and charged the child. He grabbed on the child and started choking him. Seeing how the child is turning pale, she got scared and something in her snapped. Without even thinking, she picked up one of the broken pieces of the vase and moved towards the demon. Before the demon could even look towards her, she stabbed the demon on his neck and she didn't stopped until blood flows down his neck. She lost control and decided to stabbed him more and more and more and more. The painful moaning of the demon seemed to satisfy her that she can't seem to stop. She only came to her senses when the child hugged her, begging her to stop. She looked on the demon, lying on the floor, covered with blood, lifeless. The demon is dead. She killed the demon. She can't help herself to cry, she cried for they are finally free, free from the cruel hands of the demon.
Double Birthday Challenge
Just 15 days from now, and we're almost done with the second month of 2021. Since last month, a lot of projects, goals, or challenges had been created by fellow authors and #Club1BCH is on top of that. I was decided to be part of the said community. So far, I am still far from achieving that but it's fine, I will eventually get there for sure. Aside from that, we also have the $1 challenge, which I haven't started yet but I guess eventually I don't have a choice but to do it. Why? Well, just by reading this article's title, I have my own challenge to do.
@Ryryry143 's post on noise.cash brought me to this. Here's the post:
He is planning to save his earnings on noise.cash for her Mother's birthday which is 2 months from now. And that gave me an idea. You can call me copycat or what.LOL. But yeah, I decided to save as well my earnings for my daughter's birthday.
My daughters are celebrating their birthdays consecutively as my eldest, Emver is celebrating her birthday on the 31st of August while my youngest, Emerie, is celebrating her birthday on the 4th of September. It is a struggle sometimes everytime we celebrate their birthdays, since there's only less than a month of gap. You might be asking why we still try our best to celebrate their birthday every year. It is because, growing up, I never experienced celebrating my birthday, not sure when I was little though since I don't have memories of it.LOL. So, I want my kids to experienced what I haven't. And so far, we were able to celebrate their birthdays with lots of food, party treats, cakes, and balloons, thanks to my inlaws' help. Although, they don't shoulder all the expenses, since me and my husband had both work during these past year. However, this year might be a bit different since we don't have work anymore. I don't want to rely everything to my inlaws, that's why I am doing this challenge.
I had already created a wallet for each of my daughters, and I had already transferred my earnings from noise.cash to each of them.
I might be transferring some from my #Club1BCH but I guess it will just be the profit I will gain everytime that BCH pumps. I had actually swapped it to USDT so I won't be worrying about the amount decreasing. The profit wallet will also go to my daughters' wallet since it is my profit from #Club1BCH. Starting right now, whatever I earn from noise.cash and read.cash will be transferred equally to each wallet. I am also planning to transfer my profit from binance once I learned how to withdraw USDT there or I'll just withdraw my profit via BCH if I'm not able to learn how to.
I know this might delay me achieving my 1BCH goal but who cares, it's for my children anyway. And just like what @PVMihalache always tell me, there's no rushing in this. And just like what I said on my previous article, if I won't make it this year, I still have the succeeding years to come. So wish me luck guys, and I'll keep you updated on the result of this challenge.
Be safe and stay safe always fellaz! Peace!
Life
Life... it is not about how well you handle it by yourself, but it is about trusting God to be the driver of your life. It is all about on how you trust in Him, on how you asks Him when you need help, and on how He gives you His grace in order for you to have this determination when facing troubles and fears. And as you go on forward, you wear this hope that at the end of the day, you'll going to be victorious for you have already surrendered your life to Him.
Life... it is not about how good you really are in playing this so called life, but it is on how God made you focused on all the things you need to do. Doing it rightly, nicely, perfectly - if this word really exists. It is not on how good, how fast you are in running when enemies attack you, but it is on how you trust in God that whatever may happen, He is there to guide you, to fight for you, and to make you possessed bravery so that you can face them all. It's not really on how good you are in public speaking, but it is on how you deliver and make it happened. It is not about on how professional you are in dealing different people with different personalities, attitudes, tantrum, beliefs, and etc., but it is on how you put yourself on their feet, giving the best that you can in understanding them, for they are our brothers and sisters, and by loving them,, we are pleasing God above. It's not only on how well you can see your life with such an assurance that you can live happily, and have this healthy living, but it is on how you pray to God. Pray solemnly to God, that without Him in your life you are nothing, like a dust blowing by the wind not knowing where to go. It's not only the convenience, but also with this what-so-called risk-taking. It's not about your capacity to continue this living but it is all about on the plans made by God in your life from the very beginning. It's not about those trends, but it's all about you to assure it to yourself.
And above all else, Life... the true meaning of life is that...Good things comes from adversity. And always remember that we've been put to life, put into this earthly life so that we can be able to prepare ourselves for our eternal life. Remember that our life is just temporary. Without God, we were never be the same again. If we encounter now the love of God, open your heart and spirit, and keep on praising Him. Lastly, if we have God now in our lives, do the things that can please Him. For we are here for the fulfilment of His purpose and to prepare us to eternity
February the 14th
βLove doesnβt make the world go round. Love is what makes the ride worthwhile.β β Franklin P. Jones
Just 2 days left, and Valentine's day is here. It is the most anticipated day for most couples, if not all as it is the time where they put extra effort when it comes to showing their affection to each other. Bouquets of flowers, chocolates, various events, teddy bears, and other stuffs will surely flood social media posts on this day. It is also considered as the "bitter" day for bitter people, people who just experience heartaches. They're favorite line? "*swear words* , magbrebreak din kayo!"(you'll break up eventually).π€£π€£π€£
We are always celebrating Valentine's day every year but do we know the origin of it?
`The origin of Valentine's day goes beyond the year 496 AD from the Romans. The Romans had a festival called Lupercalia in the middle of February - officially the start of their springtime. The celebration has an event wherein men would pick a name of a woman on a box and the two would become a pair for the duration of the said festiva and sometimes, the pair would end up marrying each other. Later on, the church wanted to turn this festival into a Christian celebration and decided to use it to remember St Valentine too. Gradually, St Valentine's name started to be used by people to express their feelings to those they loved.`
`But who is Saint Valentine and what is the reasn why he was chosen to be the patron saint of the said celebration?`
`There are a lot of story about who Saint Valentine is but the most popular one is Saint Valentine being a Roman priest in the third century A.D. During this time, the emperor banned marriage since according to him, married men are weaker warriors than those who are not, however, Saint Valentine felt that it was unfair for these men, so he decided to conduct marriages in secret. He would roam around wearing a ring with a cupid symbol on it, so that people will recognize him. He would also passed on cards with message about love on it. Eventually, the emperor learned about it and had Valentine arrested. While on jail, he fell in love with the jailer's daughter. Before his execution, he gave out a card to the said lady with these words written on it: From your Valentine. From then on, Saint Valentine was considered as the saint of love and romance.`
Celebration of Valentine's day when it was first celebrated was simple. There was nothing much to it, no fancy dinners, no chocolates, etc., just the presence of both men and women. It just shows that Valentine's day is not just about the material things that is important, it is the love and understanding of two people with each other. The material things was just added as people started being materialistic. Some couples' Valentine won't be complete without these, while some just celebrate it with a few gestures, like hugs and kisses, and a few words of endearment.
A lot of changes had happened as time goes on on how people celebrate Valentine's day all over the world. Especially now that we are experiencing this pandemic. But we can't change the fact that people would always be as affectionate as they can on this day. Some might still celebrate it the same way they are celebrating it every year, some may just stick to celebrate it in the simplest ways. Whatever and however to celebrate this day, always remember the main reason why we are celebrating Valentine's day. For us to show our love and affection to that special someone.
PS: Let me just share this post to you, I just find it so funny. Only Filipinos could understand this π€£π€£π€£
My 1BCH Goal Update
So, it has been a month since I started holding my BCH, thanks to #Club1BCH community. When #Club1BCH started, it inspired me to join in reaching 1 BCH this year. I want to challenge myself, though it's quite difficult since I am a full time mom and this is my only source of income. However, I am not the only mother in the said community and they are still able to achieve such goals. This served as an inspiration and motivation for me to start my own.
I started holding my BCH earnings a week after the said community started. At first, all I know is to just kept it in my coins.ph account, which I was still using then. However, I felt like there's not much going on with my BCH so I decided to check on the others through their articles,and that's when I realized I need to do something as well to it aside from just keeping it in my wallet.
So, I decided to download Bitcoin.com and use it for holding. And since some author's had different BCH wallets inside their Bitclin.com account, I decided to create multiple account as well. I have a wallet for noise.cash, I wanted to know how much I am earning from the said platform, because to be honest, eversince I started using it, I really don't know how much I have already earned from this platform, though I know its' not that much since I am somewhat lazy when it comes to making a noise there. I created a couple more but I was just trying to copy what others are doing, but I guess it was not working for me. So, I eventually deleted 4 wallets that I had after transferring a few amounts from it to my coins.ph account. I also had the Cub1BCH wallet for my read.cash earnings. Rusty was not that generous to me last month so I don't have that much but this month is quite different as rusty seems to notice me once again which I am thankful enough. So far, I was able to earn more in the first 11 days of February and I am hoping that it will continue to be like this.
Aside from using Bitcoin.com, I also started Spot Trading which I had also shared here through an article. It was just the minimum amount since I am not yet ready to lose more than the minimum. For the first few tries, I was able to close my orders and I was also able t gain a dollar and some cents, however, BCH suddenly dumps causing me to lose a few dollars from it. But just like they said, when it dumps, it will pump right back and it really did. So far, I am starting to gain back a few losses.
I am also into different claiming sites like Faucetcypto, wherein my earnings here is what I am sending to my Detoken account. I also copied this with other authors since I really don't know that much about these stuffs. So far, I only have $0.12 on my Detoken which is not enough to do hedge or other stuffs but it will increase eventually. I am also into mining like Exabit and Bitbinary which were recommended by my niece and nephew. It's BTC-based since I am trying to diversify my portfolio now, which the others are doing too. I also have faucet for Litecoin and Doge. I also have an account with pipeflare and globalhive. Most of these are being used by the others as well so I know that they are tried and tested website.
Another thing that I am currently into right now is participating with airdrops. There are a lot of airdrops here and there that we can take advantage of. Most of these has nothing to do with BCH but I still participated since I can convert them to BCH once I have already received it in my wallet which could help achieve my goal.
Suming up all the BCH that I have, I'm still way far on achieving my goal, however, it doesn't affect me that much. Why? Because I have enought time to reach my goal, I don't need to rush things. Just like what they say, everyone has their own time. The rest might have achieved their goals way faster than me but that doesn't mean that I can't achieve mine. If I can't make it this year then I still have the following years to come. What's important is that I never gave up. Speed is not always the answer, its the experience you gain along the way. So, to those who feels like their still a long way to go from achieving their goal, don't feel so burdened about it, we will get there eventually. Just trust in the power of our dreams. We'll all be a 1BCH achiever! Or 2BCH, or even more.
***PS: I was supposed to add photos, however, I am receiving an error message while doing so so I just decided not to. And my apologies for the quality of this article, I'm just so sleepy but I wanted to write an article today so I'm just fighting my sleepiness.LOL***
BCH-inspired Articles : Tip-thirsty Authors?
It has been 3months since I started my journey here in read.cash(yay, happy monthsary to me!LOL). When I first started writing, I don't have a clue about BCH since I started my crypto currency journey with Bitcoin and all I really want is to earn, however, thanks to most of the authors that I am subscribed to for always writing articles about BCH and , I was able to understand more about what BCH is, different ways to earn more BCH and other cryptos outside this platform, and gain more than what we earn here buy holding our BCH.
I am actually grateful when #Club1BCH was created since it gives us the opportunity to create our goals together and achieve these goals together as well. Authors who are part of the said community are spreading awareness about BCH here and on noise.cash by making noise and publishing articles about BCH which is very beneficial to us beginners. And today was not a different day since most of the council of the said community wrote articles about their achievements and other stuffs about BCH, just like @Jane who wrote the article Bitcoin Cash : The Coin of the People, The Real Bitcoin, which is all about how different the two currencies are and how BCH is way much better than BTC. As I was going through the comments section, a lengthy post of a certain fellow caught my attention. His comment was kinda offensive with its approach and its contents as well. And there are three parts of his comment. https://read.cash/@Jane/bitcoin-cash-the-coin-of-the-people-the-real-bitcoin-5c3d0119
First one, he disagrees that BCH is the real Bitcoin, and though BCH is much more efficient than BTC, he strongly disagree with the fact that BTC is still the crypto that dominates the market, so why should we call BCH as the real bitcoin and that it shouldn't have been named as such. Well, his opinion is highly respected since we are all entitled with his or her opinion since he is partly correct with his argument, however, the article is clearly stating how BCH is far much better than BTC. BTC might have been around for 12years now, but it didn't served its purpose to be a peer-to-peer system because of how slow it needs to be transferred and how high its transaction fees are which is not really helpful to people.
Second argument is that he points out the reason why authors kept on writing stuffs about BCH in this platform. He might be correct with the fact that everyone here know what BCH is. But the question here is that, does everyone know the capability of BCH as a crypto currency? Just like I have mentioned when I first started here, the only thing I know about BCH is it is a crypto currency and it is what read.cash use to tip its users. And because of authors who keeps on writing about BCH, its capability, and other stuffs, I am getting the bigger picture of BCH. And its also the same thing with the rest, especially those who just started their journey here. Not everyone knows what to do with BCH. And that's why these articles are here, to help them be aware of BCH, to let them understand what BCH can do. And aside from awareness, other authors' journey and experiences with BCH helps others. It inspires and motivates us, allowing us to create our own goals and achieve it as well.
And lastly, the final argument is, which really upset me a bit is, when he said that and I qoute,"Not sure about you, but 95% of users who wrote these articles are just after the tips of the big guys here, they don't really care about BCH" end qoute. Well, these authors like @Eirolfeam2 @Eybyoung @PVMihalache @bmjc98 @eommaZel @tired_momma @Laurenceuuuu @Ryryry143 are writing these articles, not just for upvotes, but because it is their passion, it is their interest. And they had already dedicated themselves towards the success of BCH and to help others become successful as they are. They are sharing these articles because they want to, not because of upvotes or tips( though maybe around 35% for the upvotes too πππ).
As a part of the #Club1BCH, it is upsetting to read such comments towards other author, it seems like they are trying to hinder us in spreading the said awareness. He might be right that everyone here already know what BCH is but that doesn't mean that we can no longer write and published articles about it. Read.cash is created for us to write WHATEVER topic we want, and if we want to write every article about BCH, we are allowed to do so. No one has the right to question us about it, and just like I said, it is our freedom to do so. If you don't want to read it, no one is forcing you to do so as well.
So, are BCH-inspired articles written by tip-thirsty writers? Absolutely, NO. These articles are for entertainment purposes only.Char.
Let's try to maintain this platform's healthy environment when it comes to writing,alright?Okay!ππ
***(This article might appear to be a rant but yeah, it is, sort of.LOL)***
Unleashed
*(2nd poem entry)*
The sound of chains resonates in my ears
As berating opinions drown the voices inside,
Unfathomed mysteries, blurred predestinations, and fears
The impenetrable wall in sight, what lies there behind?
I tried spreading my now weak wings
But the net awaiting to ensnare lies ahead
I forced myseld through hoping to ease my sufferings
But I ended up being controlled, carried away and dead.
The world dictating who I am supposed to be
And the strings connected to my very soul and destiny
Sends a surge of uncertainty of who I should be
And questions, crushes my entire identity.
Realization struck when I merged into the crowd
As the world does its best to make me forget
Identity was not lost, and I did stand out
So I engaged in a mighty battle and aiming the target.
And so I undid the manipulation and regained consciousness
Not doing my own thing, but doing the right thing on my own
No more world that is moulding me into something else
All that's left is moulding me to be able to stand alone.
The Revenge
Every time she looked around, she always saw those faces covered with masks. She kept on closing her eyes, but she couldn't do because of the darkness silently eating her soul. She was living in an idle world insensible with the truth. She was being followed by those huge flashing eyes. She was truly numb with their intimidating looks. How can she live in a world full of worthless people who were created just to make other people's live miserable? How long could she keep her silence inside her pocket? And how could she kill the madness of evil inside her? Could she be able to hold it? Or would be she only unseal the bond and let the darkness cover everything?
She had a daily routine: waking up so early in the morning around 4 o'clock; eating her breakfast and preparing for school for an hour; having a ride in a bus; and lastly meddling around with her dreams while sitting on her chair the whole day long. However, her life wasn't as tedious as you thought because her name was always being involved with different matters in their class. One said, she was the girl at the backyard eating grasses every full moon. Others said, she was the lady in white with a very long hair in the Balete tree. A girl once said, she was the woman with a pair of huge, black feathered wings flying around the city to look for a prey at night. A boy also said that she was the woman in his dreams with well sharpened teeth and with reddish bloody eyes. She was everything! She was the darkness they always talked about.
She didn't care what those beastie brutes were saying. She was particular of who she was and not on who she wasn't. She didn't have a friend or any single one. She didn't need it, because these people around her were just pain in the ass and were always be unreal and fake because even their friends, they backstabbed them and even their best of friends ruined their names to people whenever they weren't around. What sense would it be for having a friend like of those kinds of people? There wouldn't be!
She had a friend, but so far away from her. She only had that single friend because of the fact that less friends means lesser enemies. And she had proved it, many times.
The words of the thugs have evolved. Words turned to actions and the pain was worsened. The dry season became so soggy every time she entered their room. The plain rice on her meal was filled with nasty brownish thing whenever lunch is served. Her ironed white clothes became so russet before she walked out from their school. Her newly bought bag was being flashed out in the toilet. And that was the time a single tear fell from her eyes, however, she didn't cry a bunch because she was still numb. She continued her life and they also continued their cruelty towards her. Worst part was her very long hair was cut into small pieces until she had no hair to comb. Her flawless skin was bruised by blades. Her tongue was cut into two and her life became more miserable. no one dared to talked about it. No one had dared to make an action. No one had dared to care. This time, the expected tears that the beasts were waiting for just happened. She let out a sob which became a cry and suddenly became a shed of tears that turned into a weep. Her home wasn't there to comfort her because of the absence of companion. She was living in her own and she was living without anyone.
It was a rainy season, she was holding an umbrella on her right hand, but she had turned the wrong path. The devil inside of her was being awakened. She had left her minds and her hands spoke for misery. She finished the life of a young worthy life. Blood was there, everywhere. She left the blood streaming down the road cursing the hell that made her life into death.
Her body wasn't found. Her culprit was still missing. No one dared to talk about it. No one had dared to make an action. No one had dared to care.
But, mystery happened when there was one who died soaking from water. A person died with plain rice and nasty brownish thing on her mouth. Another died with her uniform bathed with a russet mud. One was found dead in the toilet with a bag in the bowl. A boy died with his hair scattered on the floor. One passed away with hundreds of bruised on his body. Lastly, a girl was found hanging with her mouth open revealing her half-cut tongue. And the remaining in the class became crazy and lunatics saying that they've seen a girl at the backyard eating grasses every full moons, a lady in white with a very long hair in the Balete tree, a woman with a pair of huge, black feathered wings flying around the city and a woman with well sharpened teeth and with reddish bloody eyes.
No one had dared to talk about it. No one dared to make an action. No one had dared to care. And that was the revenge of the so-called girl at the backyard eating grasses every full moons, the lady in white with a very long hair in the Balete tree, the woman with a pair of huge, black feathered wings flying around the city and the woman with well sharpened teeth and with reddish bloody eyes.
The mystery was still a mystery, but the bullying remained constant yielding to an inexplicable revenge. She had unfolded the mystery, but no one ever found it. She had left the blood still on the road and could never be washed out. She had finished an obscurity that became a mystery.
She was the girl in misery who lived with nothing but melancoly.
Standing Alone
*(This is my first attempt at writing a poem so feel free to critic. LOL)*
I saw myself in the middle of the crowd
Go sideways or fall down, they get and straighten me up
Disappearance took over leaving no sound
Now Iβm standing here, no one to back me up.
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Trapped in a maze of distorted reflections
Beneath the dark abyss, my spirit thrives for light
The me that is standing, living and breathings here right now
Sends my life wavering and running out of delight.
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I lost myself which crumbled loudly to the ground
But before I am completely crushed by this vast world someday
I remembered the tears and allowed to resound
To think back on what did I really lose that day.
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I will surely hold it in my hand somewhere in the future
As it ablaze and lights my empty heart
Pressing that handful of courage against my heart
And through it, be able to survive another day.
The Angel of Death
Right before her eyes, a dark angel has risen from the underworld. He is ready to take her with him. In fact, he'll be happy to do the honors.
She's lying on her bed as she is looking at the white ceiling of her untidy room. A week ago, she was already planning on taking her own life. From hanging to shooting herself and other bloody ways, none of these satisfied her. It was not long after when a peaceful alternative of killing herself came into her irrational mind, overdosing herself with expired medicine tablets and refusing to take in food and water.
She already stopped looking for the light. No matter how much she tried, she couldn't find it. Her hope died. Her dreams were shattered. She gave up. It was too easy for her to do that. It was very simple because she has no reason to continue living. The triumphant smile of the angel of death is already visible.
Too bad that she isn't like the others who make suicide letters. She was too weak to even hold a pen and to lazy to publish it in her blog.
Who would imagine that she actually has the courage to do something as tragic as this? A 21 year-old girl can't possibly commit an act that is against the word of God.
Suddenly, she felt something, or rather someone, has touched her. It is her mom. Aside from herself, her mom is always the first one to rescue her. And she still is, even until now. It will take more than persuasion for her mom to convince her to stop this ridiculous I-can't-take-this-any-longer-that-I-wanna-die moment. She turned to look at her mom. Tears fall from her eyes. Her face looks so red compared to a tomato. She's trying to figure out what is her only daughter's going through right now. She never saw her like this before. In fact, whenever she's having a rough time, she just keeps it all to herself. She won't divulge anything. She doesn't open up to her family or to anybody. They will just know that she's not feeling well whenever they hear her crying inside her room. They were oblivious of her debacle. She has no idea why she grew up to be a loner.
If only the girl will finish it now. As the clock continues ticking, it becomes less possible. The dark angel is starting to look wary.
Then, the girl's father has arrived to comfort her. And for the first time, he shed real tears. Those were more than enough. His voice was pitchy when he spoke to her. He fearlessly pointed out that he would rather be the first one to die than his daughter.
He never displayed vulnerability by crying. But today, there's an exception. She was moved so much by his gesture and words. She never thought his father would be as loving as he is right now. Her mom keeps on telling her that she will now allow her daughter to be left alone when God will finally take them away with Him during the day of judgment.
All the touching words of her parents and her mother's religious lecture make the angel of death worried as hell.
A light, as bright as the stars at night, begins to show up to her.
Next thing she knows, her older brother and her Tita were also in the room. Finally, they sealed it up.
She could already see clearly...the sun.. It is still shining brightly in spite of the fact that it is about to set. She is feeling better.
A she let her heart to listen, her mom is silently praying for her. She feels like she is currently living a new life. She was reborn with a new spirit.
The evil grin of the dark angel totally faded away. He was devastated that in the battle of good and evil, his side lost again. And this happened just when they were about to win.
There is no denying, the good is powerful enough to prevail.
And no matter how strong the influence of evil had on her, with the fire in her heart and the light of her spirit, she managed to survived through the worst time of her life.
@jekai_88
