what changed?

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Most people, especially the youth wanted to grow up so fast. Well, not all, but there are really a lot of people who wants that without thinking how hard adulting can be. As for me, I never really wanted to grow up. Actually, if possible, I would gladly remain young forever. A youth full of energy and positivity. A youth who is carefree and without any worries. It might be nice to be like that, yeah?

But I guess, growth is something that we cannot stop and it's just like an unwanted visitor who will come uninvited without you knowing or realizing it.

For quite a while now, I have been trying to go back at writing and I can't seem to know how or where to start. Writing is something that was so easy for me before since this has become my outlet to clear my head by letting go of my overflowing thoughts but I am really having a hard time right now to let all these thoughts go. So I wonder what changed?

To get some inspirations on how I can write again, I tried re-reading all my previous works wherein I think I did a great job delivering the message which I wanted to tell and that just feels so nostalgic and at the same time, that made me question too what really has changed.

Going back to my old posts, it reminded me of how positive of a person I am and how creative my mind is for being able to relate simple things or situations into something that can be encouraging.

Meant to make mistakes was something I wrote after I accidentally wrote a wrong word on my reviewer. Imagine, I was just trying to review, then I wrote one word wrong, and then thoughts suddenly flows like a river about how we are meant to make mistakes, how we can learn from our mistakes, and how we should avoid making mistakes that we will regret in the long run.

The Last Piece Syndrome was something I was able to write after regretting why I didn't eat the last piece of pizza. I can't even imagine how I was able to relate that last piece of pizza into opportunities which we should grab.

And remember the Kdrama series Squid Game? I was also able to turn the desperation of the players in there into something motivational! Once again, where's that old self now?

I've been asking myself over and over again what changed and I have no other answer, theories rather, about what have changed aside from it is probably growth, adulting perhaps. Or that's just what I wanted to think? LOL. But deep inside, I know that my own laziness was partly responsible for making me stop writing for a while.

On my defense, I really think it's growth too. Because as we grow older, our responsibilities grow too and managing your time well over juggling all the stuffs you have to do would not be easy as we wanted it to be.

But then, after reading few motivational writings of mine, that somehow helped me too and without me knowing it, my own works became my own motivation. And if there's one thing that I realized after reflecting on my own words is that I don't have to rush everything. And just like before, I will write again to not let myself get drowned by these flooding thoughts of mine.

Just like how ideas naturally flow before, I will not force myself anymore to write something which my mind couldn't think of at the moment. When the time came wherein I will be able to relate a simple situation as something more again, then I won't let that opportunity go and I will write it out immediately.

For my final thoughts, I can't really answer myself exactly what changed for I don't know the answer for it either. But what I realized is that I don't need to know what it is, I guess, I just have to go with it because as I've said, change is inevitable. It is something that we cannot stop. I won't even try stopping it. What I will do is to go with it, embrace it, and see where this change will bring me.

For the record, I still really think that it is still me. My always positive self. The only difference is that I wasn't able to share it to others through writing just like before. Hopefully, may this be another start of being able to write something out of simple things again.

If you are still reading this up to this moment, welcome to my flooded thoughts! And thank you for even trying to understand this one even if I cannot understand it myself.

Consider this one a warm up before I can finally go back. This is just me letting my mind and my fingers work together and to be honest, letting all these thoughts out was really comforting.

I will definitely be back with a better content than this!

One last thing, this is not really related but since I am just letting my thoughts out, allow me to share this one. Did you know, before I started writing here, probably more or less than two years ago, I really don't have confidence and I feel like I am not talented. But this platform allows me to discover that I am not what I think I am. That just because I am not good at singing nor dancing doesn't mean that I am not talented. There are more talents than just singing or dancing and on my case, I believe I do have a gift in writing. So let's see on the following days on how I am going to use this gift.

I will be forever thankful and grateful for this platform.

Anyway, it's good to be back! Thanks for reaching this far. Let's all catch up on the comment section!

:))

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Hello there, Presss! Finallyyy! Anong nakain mo at napa-sulat ka again? Hihihi. Napaka-busy mo din naman kasi sa org kaya nabawasana nang bongga ang time for blogging. Hawaan mo na din si Car ng kasipagan ~ wink

Anyways, adulting? Growing older? I never dream of that too. What I want is to get what I want, dreams to be specific. But in accordance to achieve those, I must grow, physically and in all the aspects. So ayun, wala ding choice because it's inevitable naman kasi. Well, go with the flow na lang din us.

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1 year ago

haha, nagpapatamaran kasi kaming dalawa huhu, buti nga at nasapian nako ng kasipagan sa wakas haha

grabe ang changes, kung pwede lang idelay hahaha chz. pero ayon, we don't have a choice but to make sure that we are growing the right way. Because we can't stop growth, but we are in control on who we want to be and what we want to do.

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1 year ago

Welcome back po! I think no need to know the reason why something change, hindi naman po kasi natin talaga mapipigilan yun. Basta ang mahalaga po ngayon ay bumalik na kayo dito at bumalik na ang will nyo to write again.

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1 year ago

there's always the will, yung time talaga ang wala e hahaha chz, tamad lang talaga ko

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1 year ago

Same, time din po talaga yung hindrance sakin to do a lot of things eh. Hahhaha ganun po ba.

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1 year ago

kind of! grabe kasi responsibilities sa acads, org, and at home. feeling ko nga minsan may superpowers ako kaya ako nakakasurvive chz haha

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1 year ago

Opo eh sabay sabay yung mga gawain.

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1 year ago

hectic everyday! but by the grace of God, nasusurvive naman. :))

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1 year ago

I can relate to this lods, I suspect, if you can't find the answer, I'm sure it is just you are exhausted from work and the pressures that comes along with. Just hang in there and I know your very capable of creating good contents.

On my blogging journey on this platform, I always laugh everytime I visit my first article and how bad I was before. Good thing now, maybe my work is more understandable unlike before. So there's growth in it also.

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1 year ago

still not working tho! haha. graduating (sana grumaduate) hahaha chz. I took a break for too long so this feels new again but yeah, hope to be back!

and I can say that all of us have improved over time! I'm just so glad that this platform allowed us to experience growth here. :))

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1 year ago

Yes lods, without this platform, maybe I wouldn't know that I can make an article. Haha in regards to comeback, wala nalang akung kwenta na nawala ng five months lods. Hehe

Tsaka, kaya yan lod! You'll graduate next year, claim it already. Hehe

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1 year ago

tagal ko din nawala e hahaha, pasilip silip lang.

haha yeah, ggraduate lolo! internship nalang naman

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1 year ago

Aie oo nga pala, kala ko si imargcltrst to lods. Haha si m and m pala. Kumusta kana pala lods, hehe aie masaya naman internship, wag lang isipin yung pagud, for experience ang mindset talaga dapat.

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1 year ago

loh ayoko na, akala naman pala iba hahaha chz. wala pa naman internship kaya diko muna iisipin. diko pa alam saan magaapply e hahaha

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1 year ago

Haha, eto naman, ang bilis mag tampo. Haha tama yan, habang wala pa, enjoy muna ang sarili at mag ipon na la-cash lods. Hehe

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1 year ago

pwede ba palamunin nalang forever hahaha chz

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1 year ago

Just like me before, gustong guato ko ng lumaki agad coz gusto ko na ding umalis sa poder ng mga mother because I hated them back then. I am so immature and so selfish, my thinking I mean. Pero ayun nga nagbabago din talaga ang lahat ee. Madaming marerealize. And now that I am old, gusto ko nalang ulit bumalik sa pagkabata aigooo.

Anyways, anuna marygoround. Masyado kang nawili sa pag aaral di kana nadalsw here haha. Tuloy tuloy na kaya itey? Hahaha

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1 year ago

Hindi sa pag-aaral na-busy 'yan, Ate. Sa org HAHAHA

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1 year ago

Hahaha ayswussss, ginusto nya yan ee hahaha

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1 year ago

HAHAHAHA ayan nailaglag ako hahaha pero bleh, may napublished ulit ako last night. sapian pa nawa ako ng maraming kasipagan hahaha

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1 year ago

ay old ka na te? HAHAHAHA chz

pero nawa ay tuloy tuloy na! amy prepared drafts naman ako here, diko nga lang matapos huhu, kagulo kasi ng isip ko hahaha

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1 year ago

Old na, kulang pa sa dilig 🥺 HAHAHAHAHA

AYsuwssss, wag kasi madami ang iniisip abah. Kaya nagugulo ee haha

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1 year ago

feeling ko kasi talaga ate busy person ako hahaha pero true nga, magsusulat nako, matiwala ka for the nth time hahaha

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1 year ago

Hahahaha tingin ko after 2 years kana ulti makaka pub nito hahaha.

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1 year ago

grabe naman ate, eto na nga, patawarin mo na ko hahaha

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1 year ago

Omg! I clicked so fast when I read the notification that you posted. It has been a while, Mary. I can say that nothing has changed in how you deliver your thoughts. It is simple and easy to understand.

Just like you, I am also trying to penetrate back into writing. Although, I have now focused more on my studies. I am slowly trying to get back to what has become my passion, writing.

Welcome back! ❤️

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1 year ago

it's been too long! been busy with acads too! but got busier with org. LOL cheers to going back to writing, one step at a time. :))

let's do this!!

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1 year ago

I am waiting the season 2 of Squid Game my friend. One of the best series I've watched. Full of thrill.

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1 year ago

waiting too! I remember almost not breathing on the intense scenes while watching it.

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1 year ago