Senior, graduating, internship, pressure.

It has been a while since I last visit here for the very reason that is stated on the title.

It's been 2 weeks since the academic year started and I am already on my senior year. Most people I know are so excited for this year to come, some can't wait to graduate, while me, on the other hand, was left in agony.

I know it's not just me. Maybe there's even someone out there who is experiencing the same pressure that I am feeling right now. I don't know. I just don't know where all this is going.

I don't know what to do after graduation, I don't even know where am I going to apply for internship. I just realized that I don't have any future plans. I'm just so used to being so carefree, to being so young that I didn't realized that I am growing up day by day.

The people around me are so happy that I'll finally soon to graduate and I just usually smile with their remarks. This is actually the first time that somehow, I'll be able to voice out all these thoughts in my head without filter or any pretentions.

I am kind of a spontaneous person, I don't mind doing things unplanned but this feels like this area of my life should be planned well and what's adding to my pressure is me being unable to create any plans. Seriously, I just don't know where this is going.

On second thought, should I still go with the flow this time? Lol

Now, this feels so dramatic. Ugh pressure.

Anyway, enough with those thoughts, I so missed writing here. Apologies cuz it's just my raw thoughts for now. Hehe

On a positive note, though I am feeling an intense pressure for this year, I am having a great, though busy semester so far.

Actually, I only have 15 units this semester but what's occupying most of my time are the student organizations which I am part of. Specifically, I am most busy on the college-based organization that is related to my course but I am really enjoying the work there even though it is stressful most of the time.

What's making me enjoy it even more is the change we brought to the organization wherein we were able to see its flaws internally last year so we made a way to fix it for this semester and our ways seems to be working so far.

Less rest for me but this is one of the things which I'm passionate about and that's what also keeps me motivated on what I do.

So excited to share some of the things which is happening to me right now and some of the things that happened before. Hopefully, I'll be able to find time to write those stories on the following days.

Glad for my uncertainties for I was able to write here today. Lol. My head is all clear now. I guess, I can now sleep peacefully. Hehe

#random

Just wanna share something before I end this. This is what I did this Sunday afternoon. Been craving for "kwek-kwek" for a while now, TikTok is to blame for this. And finally, I was able to find time to buy the ingredients and finally do it.

So yeah, cravings satisfied! The whole family enjoyed it too. It's just a little fail though since I wasn't able to achieve the circle shape but all in all, had a fun time making this and I was really satisfied with what I was able to make.

Aside from this, the kids requested me to buy fries earlier so I bought 1 kilogram of it, then I just air fried it tonight and we ate it while having our movie night. We watched 'Unforgettable' starring Sarah Geronimo and the movie was indeed worth the watch. A must watch if you still haven't do so.

Aside from the food trip, I was also able to bathe 3 of our dogs. That surely took me hours too but it's relaxing at the same time.

It's just so satisfying how I was able to rest, have some fun and be productive today.

Thanks for reading this even though I feel like it doesn't make sense. Hope y'all are doing great. :))