Grief is like demon's gentle kiss, it feels worse. Once it touches you the lingering sensation will never fade away no matter how hard you try to ignore it. It will consume you from the inside and no one can barely see it until it soaked you totally. You can never say no it's pain, no pause, no timeout. You can fabricate on the outside but never in the inside. You'll feel being a total stranger in your own body. There's different phase of grief,and each will break you slowly. You cannot move on easily, no it's not like that. There's no timeline to tell when it's over, and hole that once digged needs a good amount of time to be fill again. But often we refuse to take the process just to show we're strong, not knowing it will caused us more pain. Don't be afraid, take your time. Heal yourself. 💛