Patching things up I have nearly forgotten how it felt like to be repairing clothes that are damaged. I used to sew things up and patch those that have holes in them. There was just a time that I got so fed up doing those small things and wasting time and resources. But life became dull without those small things. I loved doing those after all. I collected the clothes of my children that needs repairing. Besides, it would be more practical to simply repair them instead of…
What's with living a silent life? Living a silent life, not a quiet life. It's quite different. A quiet life for me is something which is peaceful and contented while a silent one implies a different thing. Or I may just be overanalyzing things. There were times in the past that I was also a little ambitious and also full of dreams and fantasies. When you are growing up and you are still on your youth, you get to imagine many things. So many things that sometimes, you overdo…
The feeling of just wasting the time So, have you ever felt that thing? That thing where you feel like you are just wasting your time on something and it is not worthwhile? And, have you ever felt that you were an impostor, that you are a fraud or someone who isn't real? Well, well, well, what to do? Those feelings are just so pathetic. I mean, you go on and on and then you suddenly feel insufficient... At the same time, you feel as if you were just wasting your time all…
Getting a lot but not consuming all Have you experienced being so hungry that you got a lot on your plate? But after a few mouthfuls you were full and wasn't able to consume everything? Photo Source `(Photo above also used as lead image)` https://unsplash.com/photos/6ZidnWu4h3w?utm_source=unsplash&utm_medium=referral&utm_content=creditShareLink I hate to admit but at so many times even if I have already experienced such, I always fill my plate with a lot of food just because…
And it still works... Crying our hearts out I believe is very beneficial for our sanity. Every once in a while, I cry so that I can vent things out. From the smallest matter to the greatest, anything that bothers me, I try to cry it out. There was a time that I really didn't want to make my eyes puffy. Hence, I took it for granted that crying could help us manage our lives. I didn't push through with crying once in while. I felt numb. I felt there was something lacking. I…
Stress is inevitable and we have to learn to live with it manageably. I didn't believe before that stress could either make us gain weight or lose weight excessively. I use to be very heavy. I was in a lot of stress and I would eat a lot and crave a lot. I always put on an unhappy face and I wasn't able to recognize the toll that it was giving me. Fortunately, I am feeling better now. My neighbor noticed that I lost a little weight as compared to my very overweight aura. I…
Just keep going despite what you're feeling. Have you ever felt so empty? Have you ever felt like there is no joy in your life? Have you ever felt like you have nothing worthy to achieve? Have you ever wished that you were still in your parents' side? For some reason, I am very thankful. I recently overcame a crisis in my life. But of course, overcoming that was successful, thanks to the help of family and friends. I am thankful for the following reasons: (a) that I…
Hide and Seek Why do we seek for the ones that are not with us? And we hide from those that are with us? What I mean is, sometimes, when we have it, we wish to get away with it. And when we don't have it, we tend to desire it more than ever. Life is so good yet it is so harsh. I don't wish to feel that it's harsh but given my circumstances, I am having difficulty with my decisions in life. But ideally, what I wanted to do is to really be serious in evaluating my choices and…
Enjoying the Day at Home Hi! Have you ever wished that you will somehow find yourself working at home instead of doing the normal thing? It happened to me that while I was wishing to work from home, the pandemic suddenly happened. I never wished for the virus to affect the world but in some way, it became the reason for me working at home. It is really sad to have this situation especially when we hear of loved ones losing their lives triggered by this virus. My heart goes…
What does bagoong make you do? What does bagoong make you do? Me? It makes me gather weeds near our area. I cook the weeds (veggies actually) then I use bagoong as my 'sawsawan.' It's delicious and very Pinoy food. Sometimes, I go to my sister-in-law just to taste her binagoongan vegetables. She makes good combination of bagoong, little vinegar, then the other condiments that she knows how to cook. Sometimes, they invite me to their house because they know how delicious I…
Memories My daughter repeatedly plays the song 'Memories' on YouTube. The version where many kids are singing, there are also those who are beatboxing, those who give second, third, fourth voice, and many more who give flavors to the song. I was also very amazed by the effect of the song when I first listened to it few years back. Until now I still really can't believe that I am able to enjoy lazy moments, listening to the song that my daughter repeatedly plays. "Now my…
Thankful I can't believe I am enjoying the day doing house chores. I usually frown upon these things and that I always think that I have better things to do but now I have joy doing house chores. I turned the music on then I washed our clothes even though I was beside the washing machine. I was handwashing. For some reason, I don't like anymore how the machine washes. But after rinsing, there, I used the spin dry to remove excess water before finally hanging the clothes to…
While you can, prepare While you are able to, do what you are able to. Do the necessary preparations, the necessary procedures, the necessary precautions. While you can, do all these. Do not wait for the last minute. During the last minute, not only the adrenaline will work but also all other parts of the body. Worse is when the heart and the butterflies in the stomach are involved. It will give us great stress and anxiety. When rushing things, we have the tendency of acting…
Give me wisdom, I'm lost Lost in my own self. Lost because I am ignorant. I don't know anything. It seems I am nothing without You, oh, Father. Give me wisdom, so I may know what to do. How to battle my situation. I know that you will give me protection because you are my Father. I am afraid. But why should I? You are with me, Father. You love me. I am precious in Your eyes. I thank You for answering my prayers. My heart has been so heavy. I was so afraid. I was so ignorant.…
Suffering the Consequences I did it! I did it! No one but me. It was me who did it! I did what I did and here I am suffering the consequences. I know the consequences but I still did it. I was so bold to do it. Now I am suffering so much. Not only me but my family and friends. I surrender my life to Him. He who has created everything. I will turn to Him and I will turn from my evil ways. So that I may be saved. This hell is so hard to bear. I don't know anymore my way out of…
Letter to ask for forgiveness Dear self of the present, *Image above is a free photo from Unsplash.* Writing to you is me, yourself from the past. It seems I have done a great mistake because right now, you are suffering. You are alone and you are fixing my mistakes, all alone. But you are not alone, The Father is with you until you finish every last problem here on earth. With Him you will be blessed even more. Acknowledge your mistakes, accept all shame you experience,…
I was used... Like when suddenly you go somewhere. Just suddenly you decided something against all odds. Only to be surprised by something. My heart was so heavy from all the unfavorable things that's happening to my life when suddenly I decided to go to church on a Saturday. We ended the first few moments singing songs. They provide mass for Saturday for those who may not be able to come on a Sunday. I could go an a Sunday but I went on a Saturday. What they do in our…
I always thought... I always thought that life was like that, like when I was younger, when I was a youth. I took for granted those times I should be marveling about. I felt a little bored, though I was and is not one who is easily bored. It is a luxury for me to get bored, because life is so busy. There really is no time for me to be bored. If I am not doing something, I simply enjoy my life. I am the type who would wish that if possible, there is a lot of idle time. So…
But I... I still love you. In the night, during the day. When everyone's gone, and no one's looking. I've stalked the net for your updates and new pictures. I like your provincial orientation. You went home to the province to live a basic life. To our province... We both hail from the same place, and I know how it is to live there. And I love you more for your choice. I'm stuck here at the city, forever bound to pay my dues and to live the life I've chosen. Have you asked? I…
Lamentations What do you do when you long for someone? But that someone is someone you have taken for granted before. You suddenly realized what has happened. And what was that? What have I done? You tell yourself. I would like to write this for my sake. So I might be able to come up with some idea on how to manage my longing for someone. Why should I long for someone whom I have taken for granted? That very thing, taking someone for granted, I was too blind not to be able…
What will you do when you find money? I was walking along the sidewalk, eyes straight ahead. When suddenly someone almost bumped against me. It was the thing just before me that he ran to pick up. It was money, roughly worth 12 dollars when converted to the USD currency. I wondered for a moment whether I should have regrets not being the one who picked the money. Then I thought again, well, it is not mine. I did not sweat for it. It's just but a better thing it didn't go…
Forever Doomed but Saved thru His Grace They say that we have to balance the heart and mind. We have to use the mind in order to guide the heart. Likewise we have to listen to our heart. If not, we will be forever doomed. If we then chose the wrong path, are we then unhappy forever? That may be true. Or if you become happy once in a while you will still go back to your unhappiness. Choosing the wrong person, living with someone your heart is not with will contribute to one's…
Go on… I will go on. I will go on with my life. I will put my past behind and smile through it. You were my past, and I am putting you behind. But the #you, complicatedly, is a variable, not a constant. So many past… Not sure who is who… But one thing is clear to me now, that He is the one who can help me despite what happened in the past. In my past. In the history of my life. So I will go on with my life because He is there, ever ready to guide and speak His truths to me.…
In search for truth When you come in conflict with the things that your church leader is telling you, what should you do? First, pray first that you will be guided by the Holy Ghost. I don't mean to be so simplistic but we are ready gathered in His name, can't we first ask His guidance? I think that should come first. Second, evaluate first the truth value of the said thing. Even if it will take you time as long as you reflect upon it. If not, why not clarify your side?…
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