@ideallife 22 September 2021 more from that month

Lamentations

What do you do when you long for someone? But that someone is someone you have taken for granted before. You suddenly realized what has happened. And what was that? What have I done? You tell yourself. I would like to write this for my sake. So I might be able to come up with some idea on how to manage my longing for someone. Why should I long for someone whom I have taken for granted? That very thing, taking someone for granted, I was too blind not to be able to see it. But yes, I realized that I have taken that special someone for granted. Now I regret not considering better options before. But that is life. We are doomed forever if we stick to such thoughts. Then again, it's how life is. We regret our actions. It's the only consolation, in some way, of those whom we have taken for granted. The best way for me to feel better is to communicate with that someone and ask for some forgiveness. Or simply bring out the past, mention it a little and just try to tell him how fool I was. But I still don't believe that is the best thing to do. You know what's best? Move on. Forget the past. Practice delaying gratification and it's not on you that things moved that way before. Don't feel as if you could have done anything more. That might have been the case but it's the past. MOVE ON. Hold your head high, do what's right and keep firm with what you have chosen. There might be things in the past for why you have chosen either way. What's important is we live our lives the way it should be lived. Let go of the past. Let it go. It's gone. The present is here. Deal with it first. Look ahead, look back only if you wanted to be thankful how far ahead you have gone. Go ahead and live life. Longing is good. But live happily and be patient with the passage of time. Life is a life to be lived. Long for someone but still you live life. Advise to self. How do you live your life? When this happens, how? How? How? Let me just express once and for all... To you my dear, I miss you all of a sudden. I miss you, I miss you, I miss you. Why did I not realize? Why did I let it pass? Why was the life before so playful for me? Why has it come to this? Why are we apart? Why are we not together? Too many why's. Now I am letting you go. Another part of my life is now being taken away from me. For my own good. The would will heal. I will live life. You will live yours. Now I'm good. Let's go on living.