Who knows us best in this life? Who knows all the roads you've passed? Witnessing all the emotions you have felt? Are you left naked and not hiding anything? A lifetime that you can stand as you are next to?
There is no such person for me. I sometimes hid a lot from myself. I was ashamed, I hid it; it didn't work for me, I ignored it; I was disturbed, I silenced my heart in anger. While I am doing all this to myself, how can someone else approach my naked state anyway? When I haven't even seen it.
But all this is a little bit behind for me, thank God. So at least I can finally open myself to myself. No hiding, hiding, no shame; I am much closer to accepting my state of being what I am, compared to previous years. This is a good thing. Is it outside? No, that's still blurry. Anyway, I think no one else can be close to himself or herself; this is a separate matter.
My best friend for a very long time is myself again. I am the closest witness to all the difficult roads, feelings and situations that have been passed. I don't need to say "you don't understand me". Or I don't have to hear "I don't understand you" because I know everything very well. As such, I discovered a new way by myself.
I'm writing notes from me now. I also stick these notes to each corner of the house separately. For example, written on a large cardboard on our refrigerator, "WHAT SHE DO YOU NEED NOW? NOW YOUR BODY IS NOT OPEN. EXACTLY HOW YOU ARE HUNGRY, HOW DOES IT FEEL? " a note stands.
On the billboard in my study, it says, "When you are bored call your tennis instructor and ask if there is a place for the lesson". Right next to it: “When you feel lonely, connect to your root, where you came from. The energy of loneliness is just a reminder to remind you of the one". And below that: "Can you look at this world through the eyes of God?" she asks.
There are a lot of grades that feel good, self-satisfied, satisfied. Because he sees him best, she knows it best, he understands it best. Rather than the outside, he knows what can be good for him when he feels weak, how she likes to be treated at that time, what does she wrap around him. He knows everything best.
She writes notes forward from today, as she tends to forget himself. Because he knows that it can fall and fall again. Because she knows that he may feel weak, lose motivation to life, be very angry with himself. She knows very well because he is himself. They live together. As she knows all these feelings well, she also knows very well how to get out of them. She knows very well because she has always been able to date.
The first note maybe I would make for myself is "If you didn't make it, at least you tried. If you did, I told you, you can."
Our best friend is ourselves before others. indeed true. Thank yoh so much. ♥️