To carve a smile.

I thought that I am having a happy marriage. I realized too late that it is already broken a long time ago and we are only clinging to our daughter while we move on day by day.

He broke the glue when he stopped caring for our daughter. He became irresponsible, ignorant, and had too many changes that he no longer considers me as a wife. He only wants me to listen to him and be the king of me. If his suggestion is agreeable perhaps I will consider it but he started talking nonsense, stopped appreciating life, and doing things unreasonably.

As a human only listening to the sentence, "I love you" was never enough. It needs to be accompanied by the act of love but it is also quite difficult to be done especially when two people have a different point of view regarding 'the act'.

One would say that providing money for the family by focusing too much on work, is an act of love but all the other party wants were a time to be spent together on the weekend. It makes spending time an act of love because it needs sacrifice. To take a holiday from work and leave the unfinished job or could spend all the time working on weekdays so there will be free time on the weekends.

A perfect family does not exist in reality. Families are just a bunch of people that have the capabilities to sustain a relationship with great efforts. The ability to forgive, compromise, back off, sincerity, and unconditional love.

Sounds like most people can do but a family is capable of doing all of those repetitively no matter the pain or sadness they have been through. Life is always fair to everyone if we think the other way around. It is made specifically for each of us.

What made it seem worst? It is our decision.

If we can assure that each decision will not be a regretful one, I think that we might be able to achieve happiness for ourselves instead of being envious of others.

People said that those who can smile while they grieve are people with strong hearts. Perhaps they have already cried a river in the dark just to be able to carve a smile for the whole day.