Having faith or believe sounds like an easy task to do. It is not like that for me. It was in the beginning but it's not now as I currently am.
Believing that there will be sun tomorrow because it always does.
Believing that there are stars and moon on the night sky because I have already seen it a lot.
Believing that there is God...
God is not someone that I can see. A few people in the Bible have seen God and they believe. I never saw God but I am raised as a person who believes in God. A belief that is called faith. Believing in something that I cannot see.
It is said in the Bible that those who keep on believing even though they are not seeing will earn happiness. Well, I do believe but then I am not happy all the time. There will be the time that I wonder, "God, are you really there? Did you hear my prayer?"
There times that I think my prayer is fulfilled and there are times that I think I am ignored. Yet, I still believe. I do not know why I kept on believing but it does make me feel happy just by believing.
Believing that I will always have someone to talk too even though I never had a reply.
Some will say that having faith is easy but I believe it is not as easy as it looks, especially when one experience more than just happiness and good life. Those who have suffered and felt like God did not listen, those who are starving but the one who goes to church did not even spare them the extra food they have, those who prayed every day but watching the one who taught them to pray to do stuff that is worse and not as what it is supposed to be.
Everything is blame to the devil. That is the easiest excuse there ever was. As a friend said, the choice is in her hand. I believe her. The choice is indeed in my hand.
God only gave me two rules to follow and the other is created by us human. The first and second commandments, as I recall.
This is merely my own thoughts written as a sharing of my feelings and experiences.
Thus why it's so hard to have faith. What's easy is blind obedience which is now what i think is mistaken for faith. But then that's from an agnostic's point of view