PS: This is the second and last part of this article. If you missed the first part, please read it here
Fast forward 15 years, I've become an adult myself. At my current age, I'm now able to understand life way better than before. With that being said, I have a little confession to make: As a grown up person, being happy isn't impossible, but it's far from being easy. Finding your own happiness can't be a simple mission considering all of the duties and responsabilities thrown on your neck. Also living in this complicated world doesn't make things less complicated if you ask me.
But on the other side, and despite being an adult, I still don't understand why people are linking the happy bright future only with how good their jobs and positions are. This doesn't make any sense to me. Even my personal experience made me convinced that happiness and your position aren't necessarily related.
Let me tell you briefly my story so you are able to know what i'm talking about precisely: My previous job was like a dream for most people in my age and city. The company i worked for is more or less famous where I live, my position there was quite good, even the paycheck was high comparing to other companies. Yet I decided to leave!
Surprising right? I know what you're thinking already and I will save you the effort of saying it: "I'm the biggest idiot on planet earth and I'm going to regret that decision sooner or later." You have no idea how many times I heard that and still do until now, and you are probably not different than the people around me. But believe it or not, I literally have no regret!
Why would I regret leaving when I had neither passion nor interest in what am I doing? I hated my workplace and I was counting every second in my shift waiting for my solvation. It also was took most of my time so I couldn't find time for my own hobbies and doing what I enjoy. Yet, that's not the only reason why I left. In that company, I felt just like a modern slave, someone who is working day and night to satisfy his "boss" and help him make his company bigger.
But what about me and my dreams then? Should I take a shovel, dig a grave and burry my own dreams with my bare hands? And for what? Just a fixed salary which is considered by others as a good one? So you are trying to tell me that my life goal should be a "good salary" and that's it? Please don't get the wrong impression. I have nothing against workers and salaries. In fact, I highly respect them and wish them all the best. But it's just me. I couldn't accept that situation let alone living it for a while.
In other words, let me ask you this: Why would I accept being the servent of someone else when I have the passion and the willing to be my own master? I'm not sure what you answer is. But keep in mind that so far I've never get a satisfaying replay. when I ask people the same question, all I get is sarcasm or a disgusted looks.
But wait! isn't this the same reaction I got 15 years ago when I said I just want to be happy? It's very obvious now. We are humans and when we deal with something we don't like or we don't understand most of us tend to make fun of it without even giving it a chance. However, I can't care less about that. This is my life, not a single person has the right to tell me what to do or what to avoid. When I get older, I don't want to regret my life choices which were made by others. This life is like a journey, your journey, and all you have to do is playing your cards right.