It was such a nice feeling when you saw in social media that the one who makes you smile and once made you special among others is so happy in his life.
Did you ever hear someone saying he/or she is the one the got away?
What does it mean?
What is the feeling that someone whom you wish to be part of your life will say goodbye and you never meet again?
Way back in college, I remembered him as a sweetheart in our class, he is very close in most of the girls. I was very shy at that time and we become close when we are together in a group. Everyone likes him he is smart, full of energy, and very sweet, as the days past we become close because most of the time we are group mate but then there is a strange mix of emotion every time he is close to me, a feeling that slowly I fall for him everything he does is beautiful. We often review each other in our free time. Our relationship is no level but everyone who surrounds us knows that we have a very special relationship. He always appreciates everything that I did especially when I excel in class. He is my inspiration why I am so excited to be in class earlier so we can chat more before the class start. He is the first man I got close enough because my mother is very strict at that time she never allowed me to be with boys and want me to focus on my study.
I will never forget the time when I asked him to sing a song for me, we both love music, then he sang with this unfamiliar song I must say an old song, with the first lyrics of the song until now I fell goosebumps because the song is so romantic, and he used a stethoscope and for me, it is one of the most romantic songs I have ever heard wanna know that song?
Wise men say only fools rush in
But I can't help falling in love with you....
My heart is beating so fast at that time, but I was so amazed by how he has sung that song that it almost made me cry, in my mind I was whispering is it true that he falling in love with me. My world just stops at that moment I feel that we are the only one in our classroom. I know he had a feeling forme the way he talked and made me special but honestly, I pushed him away before he confessed his feeling for me. That time I really want to be focused on my studies because I don't want my mother to be disappointed with me, she said that I must graduate first before having a relationship. That's why the time that he told me that they are performing with his band in our acquaintance party and the song he will sing is dedicated to me, he also told me that he has a very important thing to tell me. But I did not attend our party at that time because my mother is so ill at that time and I was the only one who will take care of her. I am so sad that time then he called me and asked me why I did not attend and I told him the reason why and he said that he will just sing the song over the telephone my heart beat so fast when he started to sing...
The song?
Till I found you
That night I really can't sleep I remember the lyrics of the song and It feels like I am on a cloud but realization strike again that I must be focused in my studies, and I made a decision to push him away I know it will break my heart.
I really tried my best to be with my girlfriends and not with him I know he noticed that I am pushing him away from me. Most of the time I observed him in silence and stare at me and I know he wants to tell me something. Every day my heart is in pain most of the time when I am alone I cried so hard so that the pain will ease.
One day he talked to me and told me that his parents want him to transfer to another school my tears fall and embrace me so tight. After that moment we often saw each other until his last day in school. He gave me a lot of stationery paper with the lyrics of the song I love that time my world just stopped when he told me that he loves me but time will tell if we are really meant to each other. He said goodbye and I was speechless and the rest is history, we never meet again but until notification in the friend request came and I accepted it and to my surprise, he is happily married. He asked me how's my life and I told him that I was happily married too.then he said it's good to know
He was the man who I let go, the man that made me feel special and how to be loved with no label at all.