@dziefem 15 April 2022

Thank you for saving me. My head hurts and I felt like I slept for a long time. I slowly opened my eyes, feeling as if I were in the dark and it was my first time to see a light. It hurts my eyes. When my eyes are fully opened, everything I see is white. It's too bright. I asked myself in my mind and even joked, "**am I in heaven? Am I even allowed here? Haha.**" But then I heard noises, it wasn't clear, I can't understand but it seems they are rushing. I'm trying to remember things. What happened to me? Where am I? But it gives me more headache so I complain with the pain I'm in right now with a loud cry. Now I heard voices clearly, asking, "**hey, Jaira, what's happening? Doc, is she okay? What's going on? Maybe she is thinking too hard, which causes a severe headache. We will examine her, please stay outside for a moment.**"  Definitely two people are talking, my mother and a doctor. Other voices must be the nurses preparing and now I'm sure, obviously, that I am in the hospital. I am about to try to remember again when suddenly my head aching. Then I felt somebody hold me, injected something and lost my consciousness.  A few hours later... I felt someone holding my hand. I slowly opened my eyes and I saw mom. She was crying. I called her "**mom**'' to the best of my strength. She immediately stand and asked me, " **how are you, Jaira? Does anything hurt? Do you want to eat?**" "**No, ma. I'm fine. What happened? How long am I lying here?**" *I asked while having trouble breathing.* "**You don't remember?**" *She asked with confusion on her face.* "**It gives me a headache every time I try to remember. Is Dynel visiting me here, mom?**" *I stare at mom while waiting for her answer.* "**Jaira, it's better for you to get a rest first. Don't think too much**." *She responded.* "**But mom. I want to see him right now. Can you call him for me?**" *I pleaded.*  "**It feels like we haven't seen each other for so long. The last time I remember that we were together was when we were happy traveling and...**" I didn't finish what I'm about to say because I recall what happened, the reason why I'm here. Dynel and I got into an accident.  "**Mooom, where is Dynel? Is he okay? Answer me, mom. Please!**" *Then I cried even more.* "**Jairaaa, calm down. You should rest.**" *Said mom while patting my back.* A lot of things are running through my head, I can't stop thinking about all the negatives and worst scenarios. I don't want it. I prayed and prayed and hoped that I thought wrong. "**Mom, tell me honestly where is he?**" *I bravely asked.* "**Jaira...**" *She hugged me*. "**He's gone.**" *She said with a sad tone.* "**Nooooo! Please tell me that is not true, mom! Pleaseee.**" I cried out loud. I don't want to believe it. I attempted to stand but my body is so weak and my head is getting so much pain.  "**According to the police, Dynel saved you. They said if he didn't get a chance to cover you, you are both dead now. They found him hugging you and both of you rushed to the hospital but Dynel didn't make it.**" Mom stated while crying. I can't stop crying. He did save me. He hugged me so tight and covered my head before we hit the big truck.  "**Mom, what should I do? I don't want another man in my life. I want him to be my last but he's gone now.**" *I continuously cried.* "**I know how you feel, Jaira. But be strong for me, for us, your family. I'm so thankful that he saved you.**" Then she hugged me. Mom is right, what is gone is gone. Though it hurts, I need to accept it and think of what I still have - my family. I asked mom to at least discharge me to the hospital as soon as possible so I can attend to Dynel's funeral.  **Thank you for saving me, my man. I will always love you and cherish all the memories we had together. Rest in paradise.** Thank you for reading!