Retracing steps back to the past

Sometimes, we just needed some reminding that we were once dreamers. Aspiring for this and that. Having dreams that could take as far into the moon. Wanting to go as near as the star

Losing interest in things I once loved was somewhat debilitating. Why? I ask myself. Have I really lost it?

I then think back about the past. When I was in elementary, in high school, in tertiary.

In elementary I believe I have dreamed of becoming someone. In highschool, I guess I just wanted to take a course that wouldn't be so much of a hassle. In tertiary I just wanted to land a job that would sustain my living yet I aspired of becoming someone still.

Security may just be my top priority. But it can't be hidden that I did have a lot of aspirations no matter how seemingly safe playing those dreams were.

Now I want to retrace those steps I took that brought me to where I am now. Not taking things for granted. That shouldn't be a thing.

Whenever I sit down and think about the past, I feel like I want to sigh and close my eyes which I just can't do sometimes just because I am busy gaming.

I make an effort to put down my mobile phone, go to some fresh place and rest my weary mind.

When the soul remembers, I try to start with those times I was very young, still starting out to explore, where I sit and try to look for things that I can do.

I like drawing before. As long as I had something to emulate, I would be fine. Before, concentrating was not a problem at all unlike now that we have so many gadgets to use.

I like playing by myself and I wasn't like those other kids who could tumble and run fast. But I also had a way of enjoying myself. It was dreaming that I loved the most. Or imagining, going to my fantasies. Those were so very wonderful I could go entirely into a different world.

When I feel an inexplicable loneliness, I think about those times and I recreate those moments.

When things go wrong and I feel drawn out of life, I always try to retrace my steps back to the past. And I would feel a surge of fresh emotions swarming my soul. And that is what I will be doing.

Let's dive into the line connecting our present and traces of the past. Where to trace back, not sure yet.