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@dropout · 2 years ago

The life I have let go... I am living it now. In dreams, in fantasies. I have no qualms. I have let it go when it was real. Now I just have an option--to dream and be content with it. Like a butterfl...

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@dropout · 2 years ago

Why do we enter relationships?

What is love to you? What is romance? Why do we enter relationships? Why do we go the length of marrying even if we are not ready? My friend and I have an eventual reunion yesterday. It was my in-law...

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@dropout · 2 years ago

I will keep my head on the goal

Goal, no matter what that is, I am gonna keep my head onto it. No reason to look around. I am done and I should keep my essentials. I will let you on a little... What I mean with the opening paragra...

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@dropout · 2 years ago

I should bury my anguish deep down, down at the bottom of my depth

I rooted for the belief that I am gonna transcend the first half of my century. Little did I know, I am lying in disbelief. Lying or lying. I can't say which is which. I now come to see what I can do...

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@dropout · 2 years ago

May I join you?

A random someone asked if she could join me in a table. I reluctantly said yes. She sat down across me. I had no choice. The table can accommodate at most five people. I started to look down while ea...

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@dropout · 2 years ago

Early retirement thoughts in the early morn

I am typing. Yes, in an early morning! I got the feeling as if I wanted to write. It is a pleasure always to once in a while get back to this feeling. What are my thoughts today? I was yet again bei...

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@dropout · 2 years ago

Amazing Kangkong

I really could not imagine how kangkong can be more savory than it already is. Because even without special cooking procedure, kangkong is already delicious. I was served with crispy leaves that I th...

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@dropout · 2 years ago

Constraints on wanting to be a hermit

For years, this poor soul has thought of wanting to isolate. To travel from place to place. Unseen. Invisible from the crowd. While silently contemplating about the reasons of living life. It has bee...

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@dropout · 2 years ago

I will let the world go round as I stand up and pound

It has been a while, it has been a while. I slept through the sunshine of the world of others. And I rested in the dark promising myself not to show up ever again. Showing up but not really showing t...

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@dropout · 2 years ago

The aroma I'm so used to

The aroma of you, my sweet little cup of coffee. It makes me go. Not to mention, makes me p**p. Is that so gross, I wonder. My mornings with you is such a sweet tasty moment. I will savor you while...

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@dropout · 2 years ago

Words come flowing back

I have written over a week ago that I will not be writing for a few weeks. And indeed, I went into writing hiatus because I lost content to post. It feels as if I was dragging myself into it. Fortuna...

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@dropout · 2 years ago

Writing hiatus

I think I will rest for a few weeks. It has been fun writing and creating fictional lamentations. I would want to do it more but it is so taxing. I will try to write again this coming vacation. I wi...

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@dropout · 2 years ago

Go with the flow

Go with the flow. There is something that I see that is wrong with how we perceive this statement. Go with the flow--meaning that we should go along the demands of nature. We should not resist. Other...

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@dropout · 2 years ago

My only bliss for now

You may not know but you are my only bliss for now. Am I hopelessly romantic? Maybe yes. Maybe not. But in the very first place, I am not romantic at all. I choose to hide. Behind rainbows and clouds...

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@dropout · 2 years ago

I hear your voice and I melt away, I hide to save the day

How many times have I tried to get you off my life? How many times have I told myself that there will never be the same page for us? I am pathetic, beyond help. I can't get enough of this trying and...

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@dropout · 2 years ago

When it is Saturday and you're feeling Sunday

I got up with a smile on my face. I have to journal this on my small notebook. It is not every waking hour that I smile. However, today is Saturday but I feel like it is a Sunday. A rest day. But it...

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@dropout · 2 years ago

Why we need to log pains and aches

I just found myself standing at the door of a laboratory facility. I had to have my urine checked. It is foamy and bubbly and I feel pain that radiates through my hips and abdomen. I obtained the res...

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@dropout · 2 years ago

Worrying is good but not too much

It is Sunday today. Yet I am plagued with worries and anxieties. Instead of relaxing on a Sunday, I am instead anxious for the upcoming Monday. This isn't good. Worry is never a vitamin. I should sel...

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@dropout · 2 years ago

Ramblings

It was blinking at me. I couldn't estimate how many milliseconds with each blink of the thing. And I couldn't write. Last night, I didn't force myself anymore. I was exhausted. I was tired and I was...

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@dropout · 2 years ago

Look ahead and charge forward

We can't shake off completely the sticky worries and negativities that accompany us always. No matter how positive we deem ourselves to be, no matter how positive we seem to be, there will always be...

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@dropout · 2 years ago

Yesterday was a rest day

Come to think of it. I've been typing words and composing articles almost everyday in the past. Even those days I wasn't publishing, I was still snooping for ideas to write about. But yesterday, asid...

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@dropout · 2 years ago

No other way but to open the eyes

I used to dread looking at a budget plan especially if it includes payment schedule for bills. This afternoon, I opened my heart and I opened a spreadsheet. I knew how simple it is yet it was only t...

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@dropout · 2 years ago

Just to be listened to

I go tell my friends that I have problems. I tell them I am going through tough times. I pour my heart out to people, but then, all they do is hurt me more. Unfortunately, they aren’t aware of them hu...

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@dropout · 2 years ago

Get some sleep

Get some sleep. Leave all others for the next day. Tomorrow is another day. I had a very long day. After spending time with kids in the morning till noon, I had to play with them at home until the ev...

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@dropout · 2 years ago

'Just one more episode' is seriously afflicting me

It is alarming, I am afflicted by this popular disease. I do not know if I should medicate or let it go away on its own. Just let it go away, silly! There is no way a medication can be encapsulated f...

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@dropout · 2 years ago

My life is torn between black and white

I woke up in the middle of the night. Thought I'd write this one. No, sleep in the night. I thought. But it is more romantic at night. Think about your health, your eyes will itch tomorrow. I relucta...

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@dropout · 2 years ago

Persistency is the key

You heard me. Persistency is the key. I have read from blogs that I could actually apply online about something. I went to the authorized department to confirm what I have read. Sadly, they seem to...

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@dropout · 2 years ago

Just in case

Just in case you change your mind... Just in case you'll shift your head... Just in case you'll think of me... Just in case you'll come to the same page as me... But here is my question, just in c...

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@dropout · 2 years ago

Utilizing whatever space there is for sports activities

On my way to town, I saw that the lot I usually notice vacant was being used as a basketball court for people in that area. The space was usually empty whenever I pass there but a while ago I saw tha...

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@dropout · 2 years ago

Imagining in broad daylight

I wouldn't fancy a nice meal in a restaurant. I have no money. How poor of me. But it doesn't mean I am poor in all aspects of my being. I can imagine. Not just a little imagination but a grand one a...

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