Growing up feels very tough, especially when you had a lot to envy from others.

Yes, as I was growing up with the feeling of being constantly jealous over certain things. I was weak, not really confident about myself because I felt inferior among others and then became pessimistic in life. I always get the thoughts that I am supposed to be like this, supposed to be like that. I want to be like him, I want to to look like them. I want to be smart, I wanted to have good grades like them smart ones.

This went on from early high school, until I reached a certain point in junior high school years. Now that when I met certain people and friends, they make me wanna embrace myself even more.

Back then I had this feeling of being insecure on how others looked stunning when they wear their clothes and I'm looking like a total weirdo, because I really don't know how to match and when to appropriately wear such clothes.

I do get insecure about others facial qualities, because I don't have like a normal one. To think I have a longer chin than most of my friends and this has been a big reason why I am not really confident growing up as I was getting teased way to often. I only had the courage to even put my FB Profile photo with my full face on when I am starting in college. Yes, it took me a lot more than encouragement to slowly embrace myself, and I am thankful that my college environment was not as hostile as I was in HS. People were more accepting as to who you are and how you look. And that's a part where my confidence in myself started to grow, little by little.

As I became a bit more confident in myself, that's when all of the wonder started crashing into me. I just chose to be unfazed and be not bothered about how I look. Because there weren't people who would tell me to dress better. Yes, I'd look weird to often when I was still in college and I have been a huge fan of wearing uniforms or any university T-shirts because those were the only clothes that make me feel comfort. I really did not have the talent of choosing attires and gaining great results in looks. Although I am getting a hang of it now for a bit. But that habit did not go away as the last time I had work, uniforms were optional but I'd still chose to wear them because they feel formal and I don't any worries on how I would look. Haha.

And last, among all, I was not a social butterfly when I was younger than who I am today. I don't really have that much of friends as I think I don't look good to even become a friend of someone. I am really happy that when I became classmates again with my Childhood friends in Junior HS years, they are the ones who helped awaken the love that I should have for myself, as they were great and the very people that didn't tease me for how I look. I owe them a lot because they helped become a friendlier person in college. Even when I was not confident with myself because of many things that kept bugging me in the past, I just then started to realize that not everyone will always judge for how you would look, oftentimes they will not like for the kind of attitude that you show them.

And that progress in my life, really helped me achieve in life, little by little.

As I realized, we get to indulged into wishing we were someone else, and forget that we can be magnificent just as they are.