"You're still that baby I Know"

We're 9 years apart, she witnessed my growth and small steps of progress and also failures.

I've already shared before that we are 5 siblings all girls and I am the youngest. We are indeed a big family. Differences and similarities. We make our parents proud and worry at the same time. We unintentionally make our parents sad but try our best to make them happy.

Growing up as the youngest, I gained a really strong support system- my parents and my older siblings. They always got my back even at the simplest thing. Knowing someone will help you stand up whenever you fall is such a blessing. However, at some point it made me dependent to them and find it hard to be on my own. I am not spoiled brat because we're poor and their love didn't turn me to be like that. But, I was a baby for a long time. I mean, I matured so slow and still on the process of it.

I don't like going out, going to market, groceries, etc because I am afraid to get lost. I'm bad at memorizing directions. My dad find it hard before to ask me in running some errands at the centro. I often asked them first about stuffs to do and if I can go here and there. I find it hard to detached with them. That's why I am also thankful I studied far from them as I entered college because I learned how to be independent hmm maybe 40%?? Hahaha

My 2nd sister came home last July 13 and she'll go back to Manila later this evening. We conducted Bible Seminar in our house that's why she come home after a really long time. She told me "you're still that baby I know". As much as I want to ensure her I grew up and mature a little, my childish nature seems to be noticeable and really evident haha. She even told our pastor that she feels like I am still that 15 year old girl lol (ate mag 23 na kuu huhu)

Maybe, that's really how it is, when you're away from your family you feel like your time stops but theirs run real fast. When you leave the house the kids there are kids and stays like that in your thoughts while you are away but when you return, that's when you realized that they are growing and you're getting older. Both of your time never stopped.

Ate, I am not that baby anymore. Marunong na ko sa centro (kahit papano hahaha)

Thanks for the support 💓☺️