lingering emotions

Hey to the person whom I loved the most, It's been so long, but the pain is still close. Two years have passed, or maybe it's three, Lost in the memories, I can't seem to break free.

Do you still hold onto the words I once said, About how my love for you will never fade? I wonder if you still feel it somewhere, Or if our love has vanished into thin air.

Every day, I think about what could have been, Drawn back to you, trapped in this bittersweet dream. The tears still flow, I can't help but wonder, If you miss me too, as my heart continues to plunder.

Part of me wishes you'd reach out once more, But I'm afraid of what my reaction would be, for sure. I fear I might give in, or push you away, Silence might be the only words I can say.

I know it's pathetic, I can hear you laugh, At how I'm still suffering, trapped in the past. I don't want to burden my friends anymore, So here I am, sharing my pain, feeling so unsure.

I just want to express what's in my heart, To shake off this feeling, tear myself apart. But even as I type, tears stream down my face, I promised myself I wouldn't cry, but life is a cruel chase.

And you know what's funny in this despair? Meeting friends who still remember and care. They ask about you, casually say your name, Each mention brings back the pain, igniting the flame.

I fake a smile, deny my broken heart, Pretend I'm unaffected, change the subject, play the part. Fake it till you make it they say with a grin, But deep down, I'm still haunted by you within.

Hey, why do you still linger in my dreams, A ghost from the past, tearing at the seams? I long to move on, to find peace and rest, But your memory refuses to let me forget.