Don't Like The Word Goodbye, But Now, Been Using And Saying It

Good afternoon to all, how are you? Me, trying to be okay, to feel okay here now, lol, things been happening and it's out of my hands and out of my control, lol, sometimes, i can't help but wonder, bakit halos sabay-sabay, buwan lang talaga ang pagitan then another thing happened again, did my family and my relatives had done something wrong that's why things like this been happening to us? Can't help but asked myself and God Above, why, what did we do to deserved and experienced this kind of thing? Parang sobra na yata, hindi pa gaanong nakakarecover at nakakapagmoveon, ito na naman ulit, lol.

https://read.cash/@bheng620/had-lost-a-cousin-e00bd108, this is the link 'bout My 2nd Cousin, Ronel John C. Eliseo, the one who died 'coz he was killed, only one had surrendered, he's on jail now, still seeking for justice for his death, hoping that his accomplice will also surrender, soon, he left 6 young kids, he's a good man, a good cousin, a good husband and a good father to his wife and kids but all of the sudden, his life was taken away from him by someone else's hand and gun, too sad for that but like they say, hindi natutulog ang batas at ang Diyos, this was last December 2020.

https://read.cash/@bheng620/another-sad-news-5e84f074, this is the link 'bout My Halfsister who died this February 2021 by a heart attack, couldn't see her for the last time as she's on Manila, in Las Pinas, Alabang and My Mother and I are here on Boracay, My Brother-in-law had decided to have her be cremated 'coz it's Pandemic and he just want to be safe, he and their son with his wife and son, he told My Mother that it's best if she will be cremated for their safety, especially for the baby or his grandson, My Mother said yes 'coz we can't do anything 'bout it, even though how much we wanted to go there, there's a protocol to be done and followed and there's no means of transportation to take us to their place, was really sad but there's nothing we can do 'bout it.

https://read.cash/@bheng620/2232021-the-day-you-said-goodbye-c2b85d1a, while this one's the link 'bout My Cousin Alliah who died 'coz of Lupus, last month, March 2021, again, was sad 'coz My Mother and I can't see her for the last time 'coz of the Pandemic, lol. As you can see or noticed, last December 2020, My 2nd Cousin died 'coz he got killed, then My Halfsister died last February 2021 'coz of heart attack, while My Cousin Alliah died 'coz of Lupus last month, March 2021, all of them had only had a month differences 'bout their deaths, lol, then yesterday, My Mother's Cousin here, He's My Uncle, by the way, died kasi wala na siyang baga, the Doctor said na kahit ano pa ang gawin nila, wala ng mangyayari at magagastusan lang sila kaya the Doctor advised them na iuwi at sa bahay nalang daw at hintayin nalang daw ang oras niya and it was yesterday, lol, again, had lost a relative here, ang saya, diba, lol, halos wala pang isang buwan ng mawala ang pinsan ko, ngayon naman ang tiyuhin ko dito, though his place just near my house here so puwede kami magpunta dun sa kanila anytime though right now, we are under lockdown but i guess, we are exempted to it dahil may patay kami kaya baka pagbigyan kami dito.

Now, had lost 4 people, a family member and a relative, with only month differences 'bout their deaths, couldn't helped but wondered 'bout that, lol. But then again, things happens for a reason, right? It's just that it's kinda sad and painful at the same time dahil magkakasunod lang sila, buwan lang talaga ang pagitan ng kamatayan nila. Like my article's title for today, don't like the word goodbye, but now, been using and saying it, before, i never really liked using or saying it, used to say before, see you soon or see you later, but now, kind of using it since this things been happening all over again, or for the 4th time now, don't know what to think or feel anymore, this kinda too much already, lol, if you can see our hearts out here now, you will see some fresh bandages on it and another new wound again, lol, guess, it's just okay to ask and question God why and what we did to deserve and experience this for the 4th time now? But i think, it's wrong to ask God 'bout that, just need to accept this one again even if it's really hard, lol, just wondering now, what will happen next? But they say, let it go, move on, accept it, pray to God, so that's we are going to do here now even though it's really hard but that's life and that's how life works, right? Good afternoon to all once again, stay safe, have a good day, going to have my afternoon nap or siesta here now, lol, God bless to all.