Senti Sunday

Have you felt wherein a certain quote, message or conversation is somehow pertaining you? The last time I have felt this was again during the time when I was healing my broken heart. LOL. Back then I felt like every quote, message or even a joke was about how things didn't work between the 2 of us. Or if someone in giving advice to the people but you feel like he or she is talking to you? I do not know if you are familiar with R.H Shin but I follow him on Instagram. His words hit me like he knows my past flirtationship. I used to like every post that he uploaded on Instagram until I became inactive on any social media.

So what's up with the Senti Sunday? I woke up as early as 5AM because my dad wanted to watch NBA. He doesn't know how to operate or connect his cellphone or NBA app to the TV. NBA Playoffs started last weekend and I have had little sleep or I try to catch some sleep when he is watching the game. But then I would hear him say that the game was lost and it was because of our internet connection. Before I would go back to my room to continue my sleep but the past few days he told me to sleep in the living room ao he doesn't need to shout for me. But there's still no connection with me having Senti Sunday. Or probably because I have few hours of sleep that I feel so not me.

I wasn't able to check my Messenger the past few days and I opened the group chat of my college girl friends. To my surprise i
I did a lot of backreads and their topic was none other than investments. It was just the other day when I was talking about how I wanted to have financial freedom and by having financial freedom means one must have financial investments. I know I have already said this many times before on some of my articles that I wanted to have a life and health insurance or even a burial plan. I was able to learn something about these insurances because one of my friends is also a financial advisor in Canada. Almost all of them have their own investments. The other one doesn't have any health investment but she invested on stocks. And then they all talked about that it's really a wise decision to invest especially on life and/or health investments. Majority of my college girl friends are all working overseas but they have actually thought about their future once they will come back to the Philippines.

Health is wealth right? We all know that we couldn't get the proper healthcare services that we want here if we do not have the money. Yes we can really on some government agencies for financial assistance but still that is not enough because it will still require some money.

Then this evening my aunt from Canada told us that we should all take care of ourselves since it is very costly to be sick here in the Philippines. She even compared the Philippines to Canada and I must say that they really do have a lot of great benefits such as free hospitalization, free medicines and even free education except for college. I forgot what other benefits they have but it is so hard not to envy them. Imagine my aunt and uncle are already in their senior years and are still working and on top of that they do not need to worry about hospitalization and their maintenance medicines because it's already free. Imagine how much they get to save for their medicines. My parents' maintenance medicines costs Php10,000 (around $200) and they actually drink some of their medicines every other day and even cut some into half.

And also just this evening as I was hoping to get a topic when I opened my Facebook, I saw my former work.ate who had a Youtube cooking channel. I have already talked about him here before. He already reached 100,000 subscribers. Yahoo. Achievement unlocked for him. I am really so happy for him but when I was browsing his account, he told his story again on how he started. That it was never his intention to have a cooking channel but a mukbang channel. Things take its turn when I think he got sick that he is not suppose to eat a lot of foods (that's how I interpreted his post). He even said that how can he make cooming videos if he cannot eat red meat? So his channel have a lot of Vegan friendly videos. He even asked himself if someone will watch his videos but he didn't care as he uploaded videos every week. Then he even said in one of his posts that if you do not have a budget for a cooking video, then take a video of what your meal would be. Honestly I actually thought of that however we only cook the usual dishes like sinigang na baboy, nilagang baboy, adobong baboy, tinolang manok, adobong kangkong, adobong sitaw, talbos ng kamote, ginisang pechay, pinakbet, bistek, ginataang langka, tortang giniling, tortang dulong, tortang talong, ensaladang talong, and the usual fried fish and chicken. That is what we usually eat that we get to eat most of them twice a month.

My dad is not that picky but he only wants to eat the foods that he is familiar with. One time I tried to make chicken binakol and he was not that happy. It was our first time to taste it and I followed how it was from the recipe that I saw online. He opted for a canned sardines than the chicken dish. Ouch. That was before I had a Youtube channel. So I do not want him to see me cooking in the kitchen because he will only say that I am wasting his gas and his food. That's why if I were to make videos for my channel, I want to buy the ingredients out of my own pocket. So whether he likes it or not, or whether it is a winner or a disaster, he won't say that I wasted his money.

I know my life is full of drama with a dash of pity. I hope I can shrug this off tonight so I will be ok tomorrow. I know I have a lot of things that I want to accomplish after I pay off my debt and that I shouldn't hurry with it. I know that we are not in a race and that it is ok to grow slow. Do you think it is really ok to grow slow? In my opinion I am ok to grow slow as long as I know that I am making progress. I think I should think things first before I make my move. I have to plan it carefully so that I wouldn't bury myself in debts in the future. I still don't know how but I know I can achieve it and have the kind of life that I really want. This day I have felt like the messages I received regarding investments and hospitalization as well as the Facebook post of my former workmate were intended for me. I felt like the world was telling me that I really have to think of my future. I still do not know how but I know I have or I must do something.

Anyhow, I hope tomorrow I wouldn't have this heavy feeling on my chest.

P.S. lead image was the photo I took few days ago.