A Day In My Life (Husband's POV)
***May 1, 2021***
***6:00 AM***
I woke up with my phone alarm ringing, I'm kind of feeling a bit dizzy for having not enough sleep. My son, Ban Ryu, will wake up so early and I need to prepare a bottled milk for him that's why my sleep is always interrupted. I don't mind it though.
My wife was so tired because she had washed our clothes yesterday so I didn't bother waking her to make me breakfast. Anyways, It's not always like this. Just this day I need to make my own breakfast.
**6:12 AM**
I cooked sunny side up eggs. There's a left over adobo (A marinated cooked meat mixed with potatoes) last night so I just preheat it. I crashed the left over rice and slice some garlic to make sinangag. After some cooking, my breakfast is ready!
After eating my breakfast, I need to take a bath and prepare my clothes for a long day of work. I wore a black longsleeves to protect my skin from the harsh rays of the hot sun. I brought my welding mask so the smoke coming from the steel that I'm welding.
**7:05 AM**
I kissed my wife goodbye, she poured but I have no time to greet her a good morning because I will going to be late to work.
I roared the engine of my motorcycle then drove off to our work. The destination of our work is at Sir Ruba's house. Upon arriving at our work place, my father greeted me and told me we need to fix the railings of the stairs.
**7:26 AM**
I went inside the house and fix the stairs. The level of the floor is not accurate with the railings that we made so it would't fit the stairs so we need to fix it.
I shook off my head when I saw what happened to the stairs. My father and I cut the railings off the stairs then measured another one. Our Engineer noticed what we did so obviously he would get mad and growl at us. Though it's not intended because my father have a poor eyesight so he didn't saw the measrement clearly. Instead of reasoning out, we just shut our mouth and let him scold us.
Fortunately, we can be able to fix it fast. We still have more time left. I'm thinking of anything that I could do to use our time.
**1:40 PM**
Our forechaser, Erickson, went to the site to tell us if we want to be a labor in another project of our engineer. I stood up and told him I'll go there so I'll get extra wages. My father let me go there so I came with Erickson.
The sun is high and the heat was so harsh on my bared skin. I took a deep breath while looking at the busy men shouting for sack of cement and materials to bring. These people here looks more tired than what we are on the other site. They didn't mind the sweat and the hot weather.
Erickson motioned me to go on the third floor of the scaffold to help them put the cements of the third floor of the building. The man below me will throw a bag of cement and I will catch it to throw again on the next floor of scaffold.
**2:34 PM**
I am feeling so energetic the first hours, but when the tiredness hit me, I almost drop a bag of cement. But despite of it, I still push myself to carry more cement. Not minding body pain it's giving me. My mind always goes to my son and wife's face.
I was so eager to carry more but my body won't cooperate. I was about to catch another bag of cement when suddenly the muscles on my arms began to cramps. I drop the cement then held my arms tight. My co workers saw me so they try to reach out for me. When I'm already feeling good again, they told that I should just go down to shovel the mixed cement. I did what they told me to do. This is much more easier than catching bags of cement.
**6:20 PM**
I didn't notice the time. I just saw that the sky is turned dark. I forgot to inform my wife that I'll going to go over time at work. When it's time to take our break, I message my wife that I will go home late. She was so worried because this is the first time that I'm at this kind of work. But I assured her that I'm fine even though I'm already feeling so tired.
The work continued. I went back to catch some cement because we need to hurry up. After two more hours, we're already done.
**8:18 PM**
I took a deep breath then sat down. This is a long day. My hands are shaking and I can feel my body aching.
We fix the materials before going home. Upon arriving at home, my wife hurriedly ask me if I'm okay. I gave her reassuring smile then nodded my head. I went to the bathroom then washed my face and body. I took a quick bath before heading to our dining table. There's my wife preparing our dinner. She cooked my favorite dish, pork sinigang with lots of repolyo.
**9:12 PM**
I could feel my body aching but I couldn't tell my wife. I don't want her to get worried.
After eating our dinner, we went to bed after. It was a tiring day, we did a lot today. I kissed my wife goodnight before sleeping.
That how my day went. Tomorrow is another day to look forward to.
Sharing Is Caring.
Noise.cash and read.cash was introduced to me by my friend @charmingcherry08 .(Thanks swis!) She had taught me how this platform works and how will it benefit me. She had been in this for I think almost a year now. She had accumulated a lot of her personal needs because of noise.cash and read.cash (Where she wrote an article about it also. Might as well read it to get more motivation!).
It all started when I went to our one day jamming in a river side. We were all there. At first they were all talking about school stuffs. But since I drop out of school there's nothing I could say with their topic.
They were still talking and I was just there listening to them. Until our friend Jaera (@Kringkring) started up the topic about how BCH reached it's highest peak that time.
It got my attention. They talked about how he got his first pay out on noise cash. Finally I spoke.
"How does it work?"
Cherry glanced at me then smiled. She went near me then told me all about noise.cash and read cash. It amazed me how she manage to stay on that platform despite of having a hard time earning from it the first time. She told me that diligence and perseverance is the key. She told me that it's not that easy the first time. Her first pay out was just, I guess, $17 (800 pesos).
I am so motivated by her words and achievements. I thought of doing it also.
Yes, I did noise.cash and read.cash. But I admit that at first I was hesitant because I have no trust in myself. I thought that I have no enough ability to write an interesting article like what Cherry does.
But she became so patient upon teaching me. Indeed, she's a blessing in disguise. She even went to our house to teach me how i'll start and how to do it.
Finally! I wrote my first article on readcash. But something's wrong about it. I knew it. Until Cherry personal messaged me on facebook. She suggested that I must put on somethings to make it more interesting. I don't know how I'll send my gratitude to her. She has been so helpful to me.
Finally! I had made an article that had noticed by one of the most generous and kind hearted tipper here on read cash, It is @TheRandomRewarder. I am so happy with the tip I got even if for others it is just a small amount of money. For me, it is such a big tip. My ever supportive friend, Cherry, also gave me a tip for starting. I was so happy with what happened. I'm slowly getting more interested about readcash.
One day, while thinking about an article, I've thought of sharing this platforms to my church mates and cousins. I am so excited to tell them about it. I thought that they will not going to do it and just play their all time favorite mobile games. But to my surprise, they were even more interested to it.
I gladly taught them how it works and everything they must know about it. I looked so happy seeing them so interested about it and even paying much more attention to it than mobile games.
When someone ask you if you could give them a fish, give them a fishing rod so they could fish on their own. What life taught me was if you wanna help someone on something, help them by giving what they need in able for them to accomplish it.
MIGHT WANNA READ SOME OF MY PUBLISHED ARTICLES :
INEVITABLE - https://read.cash/@banj./inevitable-dec03828
LIFE STRUCK ME LIKE A THUNDER - https://read.cash/@banj./life-struck-me-like-a-thunder-51f31aed
Advantage and disadvantage - https://read.cash/@banj./advantage-and-disadvantage-cb622f5c
Three Types of Men - https://read.cash/@banj./three-types-of-men-0a741c96
Keep Going - https://read.cash/@banj./keep-going-fa4ccd34
Keep Going!
Did you know that there is another term for a person wants to who give up? It isn't suicide and isn't related to depression, it's called ***Psychogenic death***. It is first used as a term by a US medical army for the men that held prisoners in south Korea.
Psychogenic death have 5 stages. Where an individual will experience first those stages before the last stage which is the psychogenic death.
Here are the 5 stages:
1. **Social withdrawal.**
It is a lack of interacting with friends and family. An individual may distance himself by the people and likes to be just on his own. He tends to avoid the people that may speak with him. This individual also avoids social gatherings, event and even important happenings.
2. **Apathy.**
This term reffers to lack of motivation. An individual's interest to something may not interest him anymore. It could affect an individual's job, relation to his family and even enjoy life.
3. **Aboulia.**
Aboulia or aboulic is an individual who's not capable to make decisions or even decide for himself. It is a conditon where it could also lead to self negleting. Where an individual will just let himself and can't take care of himself.
4. **Psychic akinesia.**
This is a stage where an individual can no longer pain. An individual who has this can no longer feel anything. Just for example, a girl who has this condition is walking on a wood with fire, she doesn't seem bothered about it because she can no longer feel any pain, even if her skin's already burnt.
5. **Psychogenic death.**
And the last and final stage, the *Psychogenic death***.** It is the condition where no one could plead, couldn't warn and even beating wouldn't do to make him continue his life. This person already give up.
I know most of us here experienced a lot of struggles that almost make us gave up. Like for example, here on readcash. We can't think of any topic for our article and there comes a time that we just wanted to stop. Because we don't wanna do this anymore. You just felt like giving up because you thought that it is the only way. That's one example of giving up.
But I have read something in a book where it says, "If there's still 1% chance, go for it. Because it's still a chance."
That saying save my life.
I have thought so many times of giving up. My fate won't just go on it's way. I don't know if it's just me feeling so depressed or because of my situation. Ofcourse, if you don't have a mother anymore, your father is in other country, your brother is in jail, why not give up? What will keep you going? Your life's a wreck.
But life doesn't go with that. This is a survival world. When you give up, you lose. So keep going! Keep walking! We never know what will happen to us.
Think of it, when you stumbled on a rock and you fell, your knees have bruises and your hands too, would you just sit there crying like a baby and do nothing? Ofcourse not! Get up! Don't let youself laying on the ground doing nothing. If no one will help you, then help yourself!
Because life is like a turning wheel. Sometimes we're at our peak, sometimes we're on our down side. It's just like that. Don't get carried away by your emotions because sometimes our enemy is just our minds.
Just like me, I've encountered so many battles in my life. Did I end my life? No, maybe there was a time where I just want to end all the pain. But guess what, I've fought it. I won against the darkness that's keep invading my mind.
Remember, He won't give us trials that we can't overcome. He is giving that to us to prepare us for something big that may happen to us. He's giving us problems to make us strong. And giving up is not an option to escape it.
MIGHT WANNA READ SOME OF MY PUBLISHED ARTICLES :
INEVITABLE - https://read.cash/@banj./inevitable-dec03828
LIFE STRUCK ME LIKE A THUNDER - https://read.cash/@banj./life-struck-me-like-a-thunder-51f31aed
Advantage and disadvantage - https://read.cash/@banj./advantage-and-disadvantage-cb622f5c
Three Types of Men - https://read.cash/@banj./three-types-of-men-0a741c96
Advantage And Disadvantage
Marriage is not like a hot rice that you can puke when you get scald by it. It is a legally and socially sanctioned union mostly between a man a woman. But I think generation now-a-days doesn't take marriage seriously. But what are some reasons behind a failed marriage?
I remember the story of our Pastor during our seminar for preparation of our marriage. He told us the story of young girl and a boy that married each other at a young age.
There was a girl named Talia who lived next to our pastor's house. They were also member of the church. He witnessed how Talia grew as a woman until marrying a guy who has the same age by her. By the way Talia is just 19 years old when she entered the life of marraige. Our Pastor knew that that marriage will last because he could see the love both in their eyes. But we couldn't really tell it just by looking at them.
One morning, our pastor met Talia on the way to park. He was so happy to see her again. He asked how is their marriage going. Talia slightly bowed her head and smile painfully. Our pastor was confused by her reaction. The only thing that came into his mind was they have a problem. And indeed, after speaking about it, our pastor finally pin point that there was a problem. A big.. big problem.
The pained Talia told him that their marriage didn't worked. The pastor was shookt and asked her why. She just answered "We're too young for marriage. He acts like a teenage guy and everytime he's out with his friends, he forgets that he is a married man.
That sadden our pastor. Uppon hearing what she said, he realized that maybe they're still too young for marriage. The young guy is still not over his teenage self. That's why he's still acting like that. The guy isn't ready for it becaise if so, he should've respect Talia's feelings.
After that encounter with her, our pastor had been so consistent talking with her to make her cope up from their failed marriage.
That story made me scared. A lot of "what if's" entered my mind. What if were too young for marriage? What if we didn't really want this? What if we're just in a hurry? I shookt off the thought.
I noticed our pastor was looking at me. He reassuringly looked at me and smiled.
"I'm not saying this to you to make you feel worried. I'm saying this because I want the two of you to learn from this."
"Look, being married at a young a age is not a problem. The problem is that they can't both handle the pressure of being married. Actually, not the pressure. But the obligations of being a married man and a woman."
That made me think that our pastor was right. It depend on us, on how we'll handle our relationship, our married life.
It's true, there are advantage of being married at young age. They will be able to test the real adult life at a young age. They will know what is needed from what is not. They will learn to appreciate things they bought together.
There are also a lot of disadvantage like, tendency to make compromises, lack of understanding, financial security issues, etc.
But that still depend on the both of them. They can be married at a young age without encountering such problems. The only key to a succesful marriage is understanding, patience, commitment, love and most especially, let God be the center of your marriage. Because a marriage that has Him will last a long time.
In some fairytale, when the lead male marry the lead female, it's a happy ending already. But life doesn't go with that. For me, being married is just the beginning of the story where you can encounter a lot of sufferings, struggles and arguing. It is just up to us. When we know how to handle each other then surely it will be a successful marriage.
Actually there should be no disadvantage on marriage. Because disadvantage on marriage is just something that we can't just do on ourselves. Lack of understanding? Then be matured enough. It's not that hard to understand the person you truelly love. Financial security issues? Then go find work. Support each other. In every problem, there is a solution. Don't be a hindrance to your own succesful marriage.
MIGHT WANNA READ SOME OF MY PUBLISHED ARTICLES :
INEVITABLE - https://read.cash/@banj./inevitable-dec03828
LIFE STRUCK ME LIKE A THUNDER - https://read.cash/@banj./life-struck-me-like-a-thunder-51f31aed
Inevitable..
Imagine living all by myself. My brothers living in Manila. My oldest brother's in jail. My mother died. My father's in California. I didn't knEw what I was doing that time. My life was so messy. A lot haD already happened to me. Indeed, life was tough but so did I. Coping up from depression is not that easy but I overcome it.
When my mother died, I was so clueless on how things will work. Losing my mother is like losing my eyes, I couldn't see anything else other than darkness around me. It's hard groping in the dark without anyone beside to guide me. My brother was in jail when my mother was still sick. My two younger brothers was in Manila with my grandmother. While my father is in California working hard to support us for our financial needs.
That moment I could only run to my friends. Getting drunk was my only escape from this cruel world. What was always on my mind was "If I am drunk, I wouldn't feel anything. I wouldn't think about my f*ckd up life." I would drink a lot, going home wasted, so messed up. There also comes a time where I want to be in a relationship with someone just to cope up with the loneliness I felt that time. Now that that I've mention it, I thought that maybe what I felt for them was bereavement for someone. Someone who can fill the hole in my heart. But above all, I am still grateful for having my friends by my side. They may not exactly fill the hole from it but somehow they made me feel that I am not alone on that battle.
In the middle of finding myself, I saw a light. A light who thought me the real purpose of my life. I am not forlon by Him. He gave me reason to change my chosen life.
I could remember it clearly, I was with some of my friends (Whom I allowed to settle in our house for the mean time) that afternoon, we just ate our lunch under the mango tree, we were laughing until I stop because someone caught my attention. It was a guy from the vacant lot. This was the guy who is working on the house infront of us. I remember him because my friend told me once that he is her cousin. That time, he was laying on a hammock. Earphones in his ears, watching something on his phone that's making him laugh. I frowned. What's with his phone that making him smile like that. The next day, I saw him again there laying on a hammock, smiling like crazy. But that was a different day because I already want him to notice me. So what I did was unexpected. I ask his cousin, who was my friend, and asked his name. She told me his name and that triggered her. She asked why I'm asking about his name. That where it started. I was so shocked when I saw my friend talking to his "so called cousin". I'm doomed! The only thing that came into my mind was "She told him about it already!" I hurriedly went inside our house and hid myself there feeling so embarassed.
The next day, after going to the market, I came to walk pass the vacant lot where they are there. I walked quickly but the teasing didn't passed. When I was at home already, my friend told me that the guy wants to know my name so she told him. Feeling more embarassed, I just shut my eyes tightly. And that how it all started..
We've got to know each other. We've been into many fights but here we are. Still together and making the best of our lives with our own little one that we named Ban Ryu.
What God made me realize is that He always has His own way and plans. He's not going to let you walk barefoot. And when He plan it, trust me it's ***inevitable.***
I've run into some interesting topics. Maybe i'll post something about it later. Maybe..
Life struck me like a thunder
At an early age.. I've lost my mom due to breast cancer. She had been diagnosed stage 2 breast cancer last 2013. I was so young that time. I didn't knew what to do. I've been so reckless with my actions that I didn't even consider my mom's situation.
There was a time when she called me while she's taking a shower. She let me in the bathroom. For a while we stared at each other unkowingly and confussion was written all over my face. She called me by my name and told me "Don't be shock" she gestured my hands through her bared breast and there she let me touch that part of her breast where I could feel the lump. My mouth drop open upon touching it. "What's that mama?" the only thing I could say. "I need an operation. This needs to be remove." Her voice shakes. That day I was so dumbfounded. I couldn't say anything. The only thing that came into my mind was "Of all people, why my mother?! There's a lot of bad people in this effin world! Why does it should be her?"
She fought cancer for almost 4 years. But last October 18, 2017, she already died. What a cruel world it is. Just when I was about to make her feel how important she is to me that was when He get her from me. It's so unfair. But this is life. There's no constant thing on earth. The only constant is "change", and that is what we'll embrace till our last breath. Because everything in this earth is just our borrowed moments.
My Remarkable Nightmare (Revised Version)
Maybe a lot of us has been experiencing a lot of nightmare everyday that might even happen in an unexpected moment.
It was a tiring day and I feel so exhausted from school. I went to bed, laid myself and went to take a nap. It was a good sleep and I’m having a very light feeling when suddenly I woke up, opened my eyes and attempted to move my body. But to my surprsie my body didn’t even move an inch. I already knew this feeling. I knew what it was. Sleeping paralysis. Imagine, feeling yourself but coudn’t even make it move. It was so terrifying. The feeling of not being able to move your body but you could see your surroundings. The urge of crying out loud came to my mind but no word or sound came out of it. I wanted to yell but I couldn’t open my mouth. The second thing that came out in my mind is I needed to move my finger toes. Luckily, I could be able to move it. I push so hard to move all my finger toes. I’m so relieved when I already made it to move. Next was my hands. But there was something that’s making me feel so sleepy that it want to made me fell into asleep more. But the urge of fighting it, was so strong. Finally, I was able to sat up. I took a deep sighed and slapped my forehead. All I could say was “What was that?” And confusion was written all over my face.
@banj.
