The meeting in the office as usual ran late into the night. It was 9 PM already and I was clearing my desk as I had to rush to home. It is a 1 hour drive. The weather was particularly bad and was snowing for the last 2 hours. Anyway I rushed to the car park and was on my way home. The snow did not make things easy and I was driving slower than usual. Meanwhile my wife called me and I said I am on my way and will be back in another 40 minutes. I hung up and again concentrated on my journey, but my mind was still thinking about the meeting. It went good and my presentation was appreciated by all. With the yearly appraisals coming I was expecting a promotion. I was feeling happy.
Suddenly I saw a truck coming from opposite direction and it was skidding on the snow. With its light on high beam I was almost getting blinded. I parked my car on the road side to let it pass but it seemed to be out of control and hit my car. My car was pushed down the gorge and I killed in the accident.
Me: what happened, where am I, what place is this?
God: You died
Me: there was a truck coming at me and it was skidding...
God: Yes, it killed you. But don’t feel bad about it, everyone dies someday.
I looked around but it was all like nothingness, only me and it. It was dark but at the same time bright also.
Me: Where am I now and is this the afterlife?
God: You mat say so.
Me: Are you the god?
God: Yes I am what you call on earth as God.
Me: What about my wife and kids, will they be alright?
God: You just died and your main concern is your family. That is nice. Don’t worry, they will be fine, everyone left behind ultimately manages to move forward. Your son will remember you as a perfect father; he didn’t have time to be contemptuous of you. Your wife will cry but will be secretly relieved as your marriage was already falling apart.
Me: So what happens now? Where will you send me – to heaven or hell?
God: No heaven or hell, you will be going back for a new life.
Me: So I will be reincarnated, what the religions say is correct.
God: All religions have their own way of saying this.
Me: what is the point if I get reincarnated as a baby; all my past experiences and memories are gone and won’t matter anymore.
God: not so, all the experiences and knowledge of your past lives will always be within you. It’s just that you don’t remember them. Your soul is so magnificent and gigantic, but your mind can only contain a tiny part of it. It’s like testing if the water is hot or cold by putting a finger into it. You put a small part of you into the consciousness and when you come out, you have all the experiences gained by that small part of you. You lived for 50 years so you haven’t fully experienced your full consciousness. If you hang on to your consciousness for a long time then you will remember all your past lives and experiences.
Me: Then how many births did I have?
God: lots and lots of times and this time you will go back as a Japanese peasant girl in 600AD.
Me: what!! You will be sending me back in time?
God: Technically yes as per you understand time. But it is different from where I come from.
Me: wait, where do you come from?
God: I come from somewhere else, and there are others like me too. You must be curious about what it is like there from where I come, but you will not understand it.
Me: If you are sending me back in time then at some point of time I would have interacted with me also.
God: Yes and it happens all the time, but you won’t know it as you have only your current lives memory.
Me: then why do you do it?
God: the reason I made you and the meaning of this universe is for you to mature.
Me: by you, you mean mankind?
God: no, just you. With each life you grow your intellect and mature a some more.
Me: why only me, what about others?
God: There is no one else but you in this universe, well just you and me.
Me: That means I am everyone in different reincarnations.
God: yes, you are every human being who ever lived and will ever live. You are George Washington, you are Hitler and you are Jesus and you are Buddha. You are the one who did the best and the worst for mankind. You gave sermons as Buddha and it was you who listened to those sermons as the follower. Every time you fought with someone, you fought with yourself. Every time you helped someone, you were helping yourself. It is only you and no one else
Me: why do you do all this, which we don’t understand?
God: That’s because someday you are also destined to be something like me, because we are my kind.
Me: you mean I am god?
God: You have a long way to go before you become me. Once you have lived all the lives through all the time then you will be grown enough to be born. Now you are just like a fetus.
Me: So the whole universe is just like an egg and we are still the unborn.
God: Now it’s time for you to move on for you next life, we will meet again but you won’t remember this meeting. We have been having this conversation every time and will have it again so many times.
Me: but wait, I have so much to ask, the people down there are so much confused.
God: In time you will have all the answers. It will come from within you.
is that a bad dream of your to be crushed by a truck?