Why did I end up having a tattoo?

Blog :104-7th
Date :June 10,2022
Time :4:18pm

As for watching internet videos about how Zeinab Harake and Moira Dela Torre handle breakups. I tend to realize, that we face each heartbreak, pain, and struggle in life differently. I admire Moira on how she handles and face her recent breakup but I have to admit that I am like Zeinab in how she handles breakups.

This time I want to talk about how did I handle all the heartbreaks, pains, and struggles in my life before. Well to those who still didn't know, I was a single mom for 13 years before I got married. I've been into different failed relationships.

As I remember, last January 2018 I was heartbroken at that time because of my ex-Canadian boyfriend. We had a misunderstanding. It was both our fault because we both believe the story without confirming it or asking each other if it was true. Well, the story is, that Nick(my ex-Canadian boyfriend) was out of the country for a month for work so basically, if he is out of the country I can't communicate with him, not even a single chat. But there is this girl with who he had a relationship before who is his workmates, started to make a story. This girl is madly in love with Nick. She's pretty and looks like a model but she is so insecure about me because she doesn't understand why Nick still chooses me over her. She started to make a story by chatting with me on Facebook telling me that Nick doesn't want me anymore and that they are spending time together. That Nick doesn't want to hear from me anymore.

When I received that message I felt devastated, it's like I was so in love with Nick that I believe and trust him. Since I can't talk to him I just believe everything that girl said. As part of my revenge, I take a picture with a friend of mine, yes just a friend of mine but he was a boy and I posted it on my Facebook account. Of course, when that girl sees that picture He told Nick that I already had a new boyfriend.

She showed the photo to Nick. Nick believes that I have a new boyfriend. So everything was a mess. That day I feel so helpless because I don't know how to talk to Nick, I was literally in pain at that time and I wanted to have someone to talk to, I tried to contact a friend of mine, another friend, a boy-friend. But he is not available. I just wanted to have a drink. All I wanted at that time is to go to a place where I can shout out all the pain and my frustrations in life but I have no one to go to.

However, I had this friend (girl one) not sure though if she's really a girl it's like she's a Lesbian. We got the chance to have a small talk at my workplace and I saw her tattoo on her arm so I ask her where did she get it, she told me that She got it done from someone she knows who lives nearby our place. Since one of my bucket lists is to have a tattoo and I already had designs that I want I told her if she can accompany me to that tattoo artist, just so perfect timing because she also wants to have another tattoo session with that said artist.

We had a tattoo session a day after we talk. It was the best time for me to have a tattoo since that's how handle pains and heartbreaks, I wanted to hurt myself, not in a bad way though like killing myself but having a tattoo is one way of trying to ease the pain I've through.

Moreover, when I was in high school, I tend to hurt myself by having a lot of ear piercings, I do it on my own. I usually do it when I am hurt or heartbroken.

Ending thoughts

Now I understand, it's how we handle the struggles in our life. I am not into the suicidal part though, but I guess I experience depression before, I tend to blame myself before if someone hurts me. If I am broken, I break myself more. I got to the point of disrespecting myself. But of course, I am not that way anymore.

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