I lied
with all those enormous words ;
That I can do it all alone,
Without the help of anybody.
That I can live without being loved ;
That I don't care at all.
I'm a little girl trapped in this aging vessel.
I couldn't control my words.
I curse,
I yell
I get angry.
I feel the spinning world ,
And I am to fragile to handle things by myself.
I want to feel the slow motion.
I want to feel the butterflies in my stomach.
I want to see the colors of the rain.
I want to hear the music of someone's voice.
I want to be in love--- I want to be loved.
The body that I'm in started giving up.
My mind stopped on thinking,
But this little thing in my chest,
I don't know yet .
I think it has no plan to stop its own beating.
It keeps me alive ;
But my lungs can't handle air.
And I can't even remember when was the last time I breathe.
I am afraid to admit that I am wrong.
When all I need is a comfort.
I want to feel safe in an unsafe world.
I want to feel like I am protected.
I want to be loved.
I know it takes time. But;
I need it now.
Before I forgot that I am wanting this for a very long time.
Let me feel the feeling in a safe haven.
Because I am tired of dealing with a feeling of not having feelings.
quick 1am poetry . Just untangling words inside my head 