This is my entry for art contest by @Jane, hope I will write it till deadline. :)
Link to the contest: https://read.cash/@Jane/art-contest-ea4aba29
Sticky Thoughts
A girl wakes up after long, productive, night, older kid already watching TV, younger one still sleeping in his bed.
She reaches kitchen just to see her everyday routine is stil there, washing dishes, cleaning the floor, making a breakfast, after that she can finally sit down with a cup of coffee and starts to think how she would fill up her day, to not be emotionaly, creatively empty. She knows, she has no time, two kids are demanding their space, attention, basic needs.... But even despite that something goes wrong in her head...
She starts to question herself:
Is this journey of art worth it?
What if I am just daydreamer and never make living from it?
What if I am not imaginative enough?
Why others got it while me is still sitting here, feeling that I do not moving forward, increasing my skills, not even getting noticed...?
Is my art good enough? What a great art means?
If I had to apply for ordinary job, just for financies, in future it will be the start of my death!
This sticky thoughts are casting on her head and she is powerless, it is like when you accidentally soak your fingers into the honey and cannot get rid of that stickiness, only by washing them thoroughly.
She raises her eyes hopelessly to the ceiling trying to get that ideas down, wash it... but there are emerging new one every time, and when she finds a answer to one, another question is there, ready to makes her disbelieve in what her heart is loving.
She cannot really imagine, what other she should do, if not art, any kind of art...
And then her mood changes, after she ended the cup of coffee, and she is ready to every situation and problem that life brings...Feels strong.
But that doubts are not gone, they are just awaiting for her weak time. To appear. Maybe they are back in an hour, or next morning, but surely they are gonna get back.
This my artwork is not very fresh, but I panted it in 2020, it is done by aquarelle and ink.
Hope I joined in time, and now I have time to read all the entry posts of other artists. :)
Check your critics here https://docs.google.com/document/d/13l8f3_mMornm4CTJGJcJbCTY_WM84Flq-cSVAXgFXuA/edit?usp=drivesdk