Trying to change
Lately, I've been feeling guilty about my exaggeration. I don't know what happened to me, it's been since I broke up. I get restless easily, anxiety always surrounds my mind. Why I was fired, I don't know myself. Maybe it's because my workplace is not as busy as it used to be. I can only think positively for a moment, the rest I ask myself again. Where else is my life going? Where else are the obstacles that I have to go again, for some reason I am always loved by various problems that come without permission.
In this article, it is not my intention to invite the reader to get involved with the story that has happened to me recently. I tell you a little about how to view life, even though I myself do not understand this life. The most disappointing thing in this world is breaking up. Yes, how can I not, I've been working diligently for 10 months, but I have to end with the bitter opinion I received from the boss.
Losing a job makes me feel like I've lost everything, I've lost my co-workers' friends, I've lost the things that hold a lot of memories in my workplace, and the last point that irritates me the most is, losing the "flow" of salaries that always drop at the end. months, plus the loss of a job that I consider a "place of sustenance".
"There's still a lot of work out there."
Yeah, my friend is right, it is easy to say something like that, when I have distributed dozens of job application letters to every available vacancy, but none of them until now I have not been called to work. Huhh, as an ordinary human being, sometimes I easily complain, which is usually motivating, so I'm easily sensitive.
This condition makes me worse in terms of communication, I become easily annoyed with the people around me. I like sassy status updates, no matter what my friends comment on social media. Some say that I suddenly became a temper.
I also don't know with my character like this, maybe my anger is still hidden in my heart, maybe my heart doesn't accept the boss's decision to fire me. I also do not know how to decipher this problem.
Losing my job, seems to have made me a strange person all of a sudden. Even so, it seems Ilham greeted me in the bandage of the problems that resided in my mind. I had a little self-enlightenment at that time, thousands of motivations and advice suddenly appeared and filled my empty memory, until finally it was filled with positive things.
It reminded me, it was inappropriate for me to treat myself like this, I tried to ask for good solutions for my self-development, I realized that I should not be down by this situation. I have to get up, I don't want to make serious problems lower my spirits. Learning to understand the things that must be understood, I started from scratch.
Trying to continue in this change in myself, until I found the bright spot, a spark of inspiration came rushing into my mind. That's when I again gave advice and motivation to friends, even though I still didn't get a job.
Towards a change for the better, and also waiting for every opportunity that comes.
