This is one of the reason why my mother and I was not in good terms. Its not because she's not a good mother to us but because I knew her secret and that is "she's meeting someone secretly and that someone is his ex boyfriend " before he met my father. I am the only one who knows about it. Until now I keep it as a secret and I choose to keep as a secret as long as I can.
I love my father so much. For me he's the best father that any child could have. I also see how he loves my mother, how he cares for the family that's why I cant tell him what my mother did because I cant afford to see him in pain 😭😭😭 He didnt deserved it. I love him so much, I dont want to tell him that my mother secretly meeting her ex boyfriend.
It all started in a gossip.
Way back 2016. There's a gossip spreading in our street and my grandmother told me that its all about my mother who caught back riding with a guy every night. I was in Manila that time. I dont know if the said gossip was true because I didn't witnessed it until someone chatted me in Messenger. It was the daughter of the ex boyfriend of my mother. The daughter of that guy was my classmate during elementary and we were closed. She told me the same thing , the theres a gossip spreading and she told me that her mother was so stressed so she advice me to talked to my mom regarding that matter. Without a word I went home to the province. I talked to my mother but she denied all of the said accusations. I told her that I am hoping that's all her explanations are true. I also added the he's so blessed because we have Papa. And I cant imagined why she need to do cheating because I know my father has no shortcomings to us. She defend herself and said that its not true and dont listen to those who spread gossips. I believed her and go back to Manila.
After I gave birth
Year 2018. After I gave birth to my son, I stayed at our house because I already resigned on my job. That time, I saw the everyday routine of my mother. She always keep her phone. Every other hour shes talking to someone on phone. I ignored those act of my mother even if I already felt something. Until Valentine's day came. I check her phone. There's a text in her inbox saying " Happy Valentines Day " and the number of the sender was not saved to his contact. I also checked her sent messages and there's a mesaage there saying " Happy Valentines " and the reciever of that message was not saved to her contact too. I also checked if she already greeted my father but there's no message there. From that moment, I know she's hiding something from us.
I planned to caught her in act.
Her phone was just a keypad phone. I thought of inserting a memory card to her phone and record all the voice calls there. She not a techy person so she didnt noticed the I inserted a memory card there. I let the memory card stayed on her phone for 3 days.
After 3 days I get the memory card from her phone and listen to the recording of his past voice calls.
As I listening to a familiar voice. My body start to shakened because of anger and my tear started to fall. All these years, the gossip is all true. I found out that she's secretly meeting his ex boyfriend . I also checked her call history. She called the guy more often than my father.
I confronted her without saying that I have the evidence. As usual she denied it and asked me where did I get those news. I cried when I showed her the phone and start to play the recording. She was shocked and there's no words coming from her mouth.
I shouted to her, asking her why she did that. And you know what's her response to me?
Go ahead , tell your father about it.
Like what duh! What did she just say! I told her that I will not tell my father about this. Like what I said in the first paragraph, I dont want to see my father be depressed. He faced a lot of problems before and I witnessed all his pain because of my mothers debt before. I dont want to happened that again so I choose to keep it as a secret.
Its been 1 year since that incident happened. The recording is still on my laptop. I stopped checking my mothers phone. I just said to myself that she's already grown up and she knew whats right and what's wrong. I always prayed to God that one day she will changed and she will loved my father genuinely.
It is right to keep this secret or should I tell it to my father? I dont want my family to be broke.
Im still blessed to have a good mother that won't so such thing...if there's a third party issue between my parents, it's my father's fault.. it was our problem before.. but thankfully, he chose to stay at home..i never wanted to have a broken family despite of my father's attitude