Just a random thoughts on the first day of October.

Hello guys. Good evening. Still don't have power supply here. It's been 6 days since we lost our power supply here. Some of the areas in our town has already an electricity but few of the place still under repair including our baranggay.

Time flies so fast and it's October already. Because of anxious and depressive September for me I am not able to perform my routines and even being motivated with my life. Though I still continue my online hustle and our little business I can't feel anything about it.

We had some family issues and problems facing since last month and that's the reason why I am anxious. I want to cherish my remaining days here in our house but the typhoon came and I became so busy with the cleaning and fixing the damages happened in our house.

Earlier I'm still not believing that it's October already like last September 1 I was very positive embracing the new month but now naaahhh I don't know. 2 days from now will be my son's 4th birthday and that's also the date the we are going to move on my in-laws house and stay there for good.

My mind cant process whats happening on my life now as this is not according to our plan. I have so many questions on my mind but I don't want to question God about it as I know He knows what's the best for me and for us. Sometimes it feels like he wants to make me realize something about this life happening but I choose not to share it here as its confidential.

A little story about our plans that didn't happened.

When I got pregnant our plan is when I gave birth I will be back to my job and my mother was the one who will take good care of my son but it didn't happened. My son don't want to feed by formula milk and he only wants my breast milk. I resigned to my job and told myself that once I wean my son I will going back to work.

2 years later my parents separated and I am the one who take good care of my niece. After a year my son was weaned already but I can't back to work as we don't have anyone who will take good care of the kids.

Then I told myself once my father retired I can go back to work but this happened. We will be moving on my in-laws house to take good care of my mother inlaw.

Just a random thoughts on the first day of October.