I end this with a number ten.

9:53 PM

I told myself not to write for now but ending up typing here. It seems that writing an article everyday has been part of my life. My article that was so simple because it was always a personal experience on the past or just sharing some random stories of my life.

See? I am on my second paragraph and I didn't share anything to the readers. It seems that I am good in adding flowery words just to make my article long or I just let my hands type what my mind commands? Honestly I really don't know. It's just that I want to open my read.cash account and click the write an article button and start creating a topic that I thought before I went here or when I heard something that makes my brain think of an idea.

Third paragraph. This article is getting nonsense. A simple article turns to a nonsense article real quick and end up receiving a decent vote. It's unfair right? But can you blame me for doing it if the real reason why I am doing it is because I love what did? Maybe yes or maybe no. We didn't now at all. But to be honest, I am happy because I feel so loved when Rusty visited me and reminding me to continue what I started.

I am now on my fourth paragraph. Still don't have any idea on what topic I will going to write. Should I end this here or should I keep on writing? This is getting more nonsense but how can I stop this thumb who's typing when I know in the first place that she really enjoyed it. I don't have the right to do that, even if I am in headache now and my other eye was closed. I am not into the position to tell my thumb to stop because she's happy on doing that.

Fifth paragraph. Maybe I can start to share something here. Maybe I can breath in here and tell you that I am in heavy feeling now. Been so anxious since last month. I no longer recognize myself because of too much stress that cause me. I want to be a robot who never felt anything. Continue with the life without overthinking. I know , you are so used in reading this kind of article written by me but can you blame me if I will tell you that this is the only way to make me feel better?

Six paragraph. I want to escape for a bit. I want to live my life without worries. I want to be alone and just stare to nothing. I want to tell the problems to please stop for a bit because I can no longer manage them and I am so scared to face everyday life and end up sicked like I experienced two weeks ago. Is that okay if I make some drama here? Forgive me if I choose to share it rather than to hide it as I am not good at it.

Seven. It is the last number of the day. It is when the Lord rest after he created everything. They said Sunday is rest day but it seems not true to me. Can you tell me what the meaning of rest day please? Is that when you sleep without any distraction? Is that going to place and free you mind from worries? Or is that your love ones lets you rest and they will be in charge on everything in house? What's the meaning of rest day to you?

Eight. We went to a place earlier. It the place where I can see the sun setting down. The place that gives me a calm pace and fresh air to breath. Everytime I feel so anxious I will ask my husband to take me there. As I look at the sunset , it feels like I am so comfort. Each hues I see gives me a satisfaction that life is still beautiful. As we leave that place , my tears started to fall because I want to stay in that place for more longer but we couldn't because we have kids with us.

Nine. I received a call from my friend who is Jehovah's witnesses and we talk about the Bible over the phone. Its a big relief to me when I recieved a call to her because she always reminding me on how God really loves me. Our conversation lasted for about an hour talking about how to be a good parent. Honestly I am not a good parent but I am always trying to raise my son to be a good person.

Ten. I will end this article by leaving this message to all of you. Every sunset is a new opportunity to reset. Even the sun needs some rest so you should rest also. Free your mind from worries of today and start something on the next day. I will going to sleep now and remembering the sunset and the reset 🌞

Good night everyone 💚 No proofread. I just want write before going to sleep.

10:22 PM