Chat moderator job

My anxiety attacked last June. It is because my Aunt asked me why I didnt applied for a job online. I know she's asked that because of our financial status. I told her that I am not ready to work yet and also even if I have a laptop , we dont have an internet connection. Honestly even if I want to work now, my mind and my body didnt want to.

Freelance job was not that easy. Every one said, its easy because you have at your own comfort because you're working from home but they didnt know its hard to focus. Let take it as an example. I am writing an article and then I heard my son crying. I already lost my attention and forgot the idea of what I am doing. Also, if you're planning to work as freelance you need to take a course or a seminar because other companies required it especially when you have no experienced in freelancing.

Back to the topic. I explained my side to my Aunt, she said why not give it a try. So on that night I browsed some homebased job and also signed up to Upwork and Fiver. I also joined the facebook group of Upwork Philippines and from there I saw a post. In the comment section of that post I saw a job description which is Chat Moderator. The users give the details on how to apply and the list of the companies offering the job.

I searched it on Google and I found the website named Cloudwork. I opened it and apply. I dont have any idea what is the task of Chat Moderator , I thought it like a non voice job. Well, its a non voice job but there's a twist. It is a fantasy based website so your task as a Chat Moderator is replying to someone in the US and the topic has some erotic mesaages.

I continue to apply even the inner me said that just ignore that because it's not good, though it's not illegal but somehow in a conservative country like Philippines, its like below the belt. I answered all the questions on the assessment and I passed. They emailed me that I need to pass all the requirement and signed the contract. They also discussed the salary and where can I withdraw it. I started telling my husband about that but I hide the true description of the job because he will not like it and he will stopped me from that. I just say that its like replying someone on the US, something like that. Days passed and I didnt signed the contract yet because I am not sure if I can do it. So the ending. I didnt grab it.

Months passed. Just this September. That Chat Moderator post appeared again on my timeline but now its a new company and it's like a Filipino Agency because I talked to the Team Leader on Skype when I inquire on that position. I tried to apply again. I completed the assessment and I passed again.

I waited for almost 1 month until they message me on Skype telling that Im in and I need to signed the contract and then I can start immediately.

Now I dont know what to do. Should I grabbed that job even if the description is like that? Do I take it on professional way? I mean trabaho lang. After all my identity is hidden on the client whom I will talked too. Or should I ignored it because it is not a right thing to glorify God. I know we are facing financial problems now but do I need to grabbed it and swallow my beliefs and faith as a Born Again Christian 😐

As of now. I have no reply on the Team Leader message for me.