Inactivity

I have been trying to cheer up. Eveyday when I woke up in the morning, I always expect for a brighter tomorrow.

I disregard my worries. I kept telling myself, "All is well" and do my usual chores at home. I smile, I laugh with my loved ones.

But just this afternoon, I feel like my world has just shut down. My strength left me. My heart aches. My mind started over thinking. And my tears overflowed.

My man's co-worker to whom he was working with everyday. The man who sits beside him, assembling the two seater drone they are working on at work.

That man just tests postive for Covid and he still went to work for more than a week after having the symptoms. My man along with their other workmates were exposed to him for more than a week already before he decided to tell the management he was having the symptoms and go for the swab test.

I was now worried as hell for all of us at home. We have a 4-year old girl at home that we used to play with. We also have 2 senior citizens with home we interact with at home everyday.

My man and I sometimes drinks on the same glass when we're at home. We even sleep in the same bed.

Now, my whole being is shaken. We are of a high chance og being infected too. My man might be assymptomatic because he is really a strong one. He rarely gets sick.

Now everyone in our household needs to go for the swab test to make sure we are safe. This will be the toughest battle we're gonna face our whole life.

This is worse than battling my leukemia 4 years ago. This is worse than having to tame care of my bed ridden grandmother who died of brain malfunction 11 years ago.

I know that Prayer is the only most powerful sword we have right now, but my heart is still broken.

Everyone of us at home has done the safety health messures at home and even when anyone of us went outside but still, shits do really happen.

I wanted to blame his co-worker for not being honest to what he feels.I wanted to blame him for telling the truth later. I wanted to blame him for putting us in this tough times in our lives.

But the sad truth is I can't...

He is just also a victim of this evil disease...