Depression is a serious matter.
I came from a broken family. My mom and dad got separated before my mom gave birth. The reason? Nah! I'm not interested to know at all. I grow up under my grandmother's and grandfather's love and care, on my father's side. My mom just visits me once or twice a month. She'll bring food and toys. Being a child, I am happy with that little support my mom had given me. My dad was busy with his job and rarely comes home. My childhood was happy. I am well-loved by my grandparents and their attention is on me. When I turned five, my dad married another woman. Being so young, it was just fine for me so long as I will still have some of their attention. That's what I thought. My stepmother used to love me so much and I can tell that she's the type of mom I am longing to have. Not until she changed! She would as if blame me whenever she felt exhausted. Don't know if it was because she's stressed out from work or the other. Whenever she's mad at me, she'll throw things and made marks on my skin. I felt unloved. That very day, I started to feel alone, unjust, unloved, worried. Depressed. There were lots of sleepless nights, crying in the four corners of my room, screaming inside. Until I learned to harm myself to ease my pain from deep inside. I started to write notes and have done acts that are very much prohibited by God. But, it always ended up as a failed mission. I just couldn't think of the reason why. Maybe, God has a lot of plans for me. Then, I was right!
College days were one of the best days of my life. I was able to run freely. Out of my comfort zone. Had the chance to mingle with others and talked about life. I opened my mind, heart, and soul to anyone. By that, I was able to easily connect to everyone. I forgot about the pain, sorry, loneliness, and depression. As a teen, my life had changed! I became an easy going person and forgot how terrible life was before. I figured out what's missing! All I need was a friend, a society with whom I can speak. Where I can speak out what I felt freely. Living with freedom!
If you have read this far, thank you for reading my short life overview. If you ever feel depressed, talk to someone whom you trust. Cry, burst it out! I know someone will listen. Most importantly, listen to your heart and I know that the love of God is in there! Cheer up and keep going. Whenever things are not in favor of you, kneel and shout the name of God. He will listen and guide you for the betterment of your life. You'll find peace, happiness, and greatness whenever you'll glorify His name. Glory be to God!
You know we are the same, just like you I am frustrated teen as well and had been into constant series of depression