The Talk and Burdens

May 27, 2022

I did not know what happened to me yesterday because I was ranting here haha. I am so sorry for that, after my sister read those rants yesterday, she talked to me sincerely, she let me understand everything and that calmed me, that is why it is better to have an older sister.

She never saw me lonely or sad because I never let her saw me that way, but I know she understands because sometimes I caught her staring at me ( Peace sister Caught'ya)

Ooh I just want to let you know that my topic today is not all about what happened yesterday haha, I know I was a bit emotional but thanks to her, the woman that I love the most except to my mother because I love them both (My sister), I got calmed and I felt that my heart was not in burden anymore.

I have been here for almost one month, and all this time I am almost showing myself haha. I am a bit shy because I don't usually do this, like ranting somewhere haha, and I am a shy type of person.

I am two months here in my sister's place but I don't have a friend hehe, ayaw ko din maglabas labas kasi nahihiya ako.

Yesterday when I had my afternoon nap, I woke up because my sister woked me up. I did not know that she called our mother, my mother has no cell phone and there are no cellphones in her neighbor's also, that is why It's a bit hard for us to contact her or check her up.

But my sisters said that "If there's a will, there's a way" she called the owner of the store there, one of her friends and asked a favor that she wanted to talk to our mother.

That friend of hers was far from our mother but she was willing to go to our mother's house in order for us to communicate, so I am really indebted to her.

When I saw my mother on the screen I almost burst into tears, I know I was such a baby haha, but seeing her for almost two months made me miss her more.

The first thing she said was " Peb? Are you not going home? " I smiled at her and said that I will go home of course, but she asked me when? and said sorry for what she said before I left.

"Your uncle ( stepfather) said sorry also, he was drunk that time" She said.

The truth is, I didn't want to go home because even though he was drunk that time I knew that it would happen again.

But seeing her face made me want to go home.

We ended the call after a lot of talking, and my sister asked me but she said to just take my time.

I know that it was hard being my mother because she can't choose between her husband and her children, her happiness is our happiness also, as long as he is not hurting our mother it is okay with us.

Maybe I will go home after a week more.

Thank you so much for reading.

I would like to thank @BCH_LOVER for her sponsorship. I am very excited because this is my first time being sponsored. Thank you so much for trusting me ate, God bless you po.