I need advice: Self-control issues

Hello, read.cash friends. Ive been through a lot of trials for today, and it seems that, I am not Victorious. So, as of now I am trying to make myself calm, relax and feel the nature. I am really in a state of overthink. Specifically on what I had done last night. Jeezz.

I know none of us are perfect. And I thanked read.cash a lot, for this is the only the platform where you can express your feelings and emotions without informing your guardians lol. I really don't want to let my parents know what I had done. Though it's not that huge mistake but still, we're educated so we should be careful of those words we're going to speak out.

Honestly, I lose my self control which is an essential part of our attitude. (Sighs) If I can just reset back the time and change the bad into good. Maybe, I'm not going to tell you the whole story because it might reflect a lot to myself.

But, today I really wanted to refresh, and let the time heal everything. Because, whatever thing you have done, it'll not last forever. There'll be time for reconciliation and forgiveness.

The thing is, I lose against "MY GREATEST ENEMY" which is my own self. Specifically, self-control. And badly, I've done it in public. I yelled to someone, for a very shallow reason. It's too superficial! But what I did was totally idiotic. We're just playing a game but, I didn't like it. It's my first time to react to a childish game like that. I just don't want boys and girls to play games like something touchy. Especially when you're girlfriend is joining the game. I really walked out and quit. Leaving my girlfriend behind.

Well, what do you think? I really did something wrong I know. It's only a game for lil kids. But, I just don't want clingy games.

If you were in my situation what would you do? I admit that I commited a mistake. I should not show any aggressive attitude towards everyone though we're just all friends.

But, I have a strength too. I can easily forgive people and sometimes I'm the one asking for forgiveness if I see it as my fault. Well, today! I lose... And, my thoughts and feelings are dragging me to be prideful.

Well, I guess I only need few days to purify myself again. I'm gonna ask everyone for forgiveness. Whatever and whoever they are. Even they aren't educated, poor or rich. I don't care, I will still force my self to go and ask forgiveness.

I guess that's all! I'm refreshed! Thank you read.cash. This platform is truely great! It could sometimes enlighten your heart and soul. Through writing! What's the abundance of heart will prevail.

I'm not bragging about this but I guess, hmmm I'm a forgiving person and I don't keep an abhor to someone. Anyways! Do you have any advice for me? I would gladly appreciate and apply it on my inner-self. I really love to listen through words that enlightens me. Shalom.

Thank you for reading this article! Vincent21 here again. Hehe, I hope this post will catch an attention to someone. Even, if it's not informative. But, a helpful one for myself and hopely to you too! Who have same temperament like me.