A letter to my Ex
I've always looked up on you. I admired you so much that it tore my heart into pieces knowing your love for me has finally come to it's end. It's disappearance. It has finally turned into specks fading and wafting through the winds. Bidding it's farewell. I thought it would never come because no matter how our relationship had its flaws, we were so in love. Well I guess that's what I thought.
All the time, I had always been ecstatic waking up for another day. A new day means a day that I could be in your arms. A day spent with you meant so much to me. You meant like the constellation in the galaxy, you were my art that I would cherish and appreciate so bad.
The setting of the sun has never scared me until now, until now that you are gone from my embrace. I'm scared that once the sun has set, another day will come beckoned with the rising sun I wouldn't know how to live like before. I wouldn't smile the same way anymore. Because you were mainly the reason why I had those glint of joy inside me and through my curved lips. Now I'm stuck questioning my self. My worth.
Last month before this heartbreak, before all of this. I really wanted to surprise you in your great day, I wanted you to be happy. So sold some pre-loved clothes in order to gain money for my plan for you but as I was so enthusiastic,I was devastated and was badly in pain after I found out something that felt like a punch in my chest. I cried and was kneeling in the corner of the road because my nose was also bleeding Due to the scorching heat of the sun and from meeting up and changing different venues to sell my items. I cried my heart out Because I realized that my efforts Will go into waste.
From all the kaleidoscopic colours of the rainbow around my perspective it was exchanged with sorrowful monochromatic Black and white hues. The rainbow has came and has finally passed. Your love for me has ceased. Leaving my chest cracked, wounded and defeated but I still took the risk. I made my promise and I will pursue that.
I know some may think that I'm such a fool For exerting efforts when in fact we are not in a relationship anymore. It is because I want to fulfill my promise for you. To surprise you On your birthday. I know we are long gone, so this will be my gift for you.
I want you to know that before I let you go, I took the risk so that I won't have regrets in the end.
But don't worry, I'll be okay. I'll be fine, I'll find my true path, in God's time. Soon.
Good one