Back here again reminiscing. I used to share my daily life here i think ill redo it agin since there will be no one to read my post and judge my grammar. I'm supposed to be graduating this year but things doesn't always turn the way you always want it to be,i blame myself for that. I/ll do what i can now to pass this year its only one subject i need to retake. i aslo need to conduct my thesis this year aghhh need to raise 50 broiler chickens but where the hell i can get the money to start i just hope the student loan in our university will approve us.
I dont know what im feeeling lately i dont feel stress or anything, i just dont know. When i see my collegue stories how stress they are about school works i dont understand because i should also be feeling that way but theres nothing. But im worried about something that is not happening yet.
i dont know what will my life be, i feel theres nothing about life either no purpose im just a dust in a world and not important.
It's been months or year now I think since my last post here HAHAH a lot of things happened. This year I met the most broken and happiest type of me. Ay nice ga English English parin.
Finally a second year graduate, June 18 2024 will be our graduation, certificate graduate in agriculture. Muntik pa hindi maka graduate because of my laziness but thanks to everyone that help me get through that phase. I've been feeling drain and loss because I'm not sure where this course will lead me or will I ever be someone that I want to be in the future. I don't know anymore I still feel I can't handle the pressure of adulting basta ganon tapos yong expectation pa ng parents since ako lang maasahan nila pag sobrang weak na nila, I don't know if I'll be able to take care of them Hindi ko lang talaga alam gagawin ko now. I'm lack of experience and feeling ko diko kayang mag trabaho cause I feel so stupid.
Aghhhhh
Christmas day is really coming into town, New municipality hall and new style of putting up decorations. I had fun celebrating the opening of light's in our little town. A lot of happenings such as : caroling, dancing, cosplay, singing. And exactly 8 pm fireworks started. Gosh what a perfect night, I wish my girlfriend was with me though, we could have a perfect night together, but I'm contented with just my parents and befriend 🥰
Waiting for Christmas day ( ◜‿◝ )♡
What a good morning 🌞
Few more days..... graduating na sa senior high
Mag ka college ng walang alam 😭👍
Fully drained.... Mentally and financially unstable 😭👍
Then sabak agad this year! Gusto ko nalang mawala sa earth 🥺👍
Btw pogi na ako 😩👍
Got 160 Joy 🥰
I top the 2 game on smart.joystick.club
Sadly wala pa akong 2 Joybot para maka earn ng marami pang Joy
Pero soon makaka bili din ako🤩
Ggamitin ko nalang itong 500 pesos na napanalunan ko para maging top sa leaderboard !
Game on!
Mint Joybot nft now and earn more $Joy in every game 💸🕹️🕹️
Me na nag-aantay maka bili ng 500 Joy at nakakuha ng joybot NFT!
Gusto Kona maka laro sa smart.joystick.club at maka ipon pa ng maraming token! Need kona maka earn pa college na ako 😭huhu
Btw good noon everyone!
Kung gusto nyorin maka earn.. mint joybot na sa oasis.cash it's a #P2E #sBCHGAMING
This is how crazy ....me and my friend haha
She's literally beside me.. noong chinat ko sya haha! Kami Lang ba ganito or nangyayari din sa iba😆
We had fun today! We talk about nonsense stuff haha! Kumain sa streetfood! At sinamahan ko sya bumili ng gift para sa jowa nya..Sana all ma effort!
Ka swerte naman ng boy nayon sa kanya!
Nakakatuwa Yong mga reaction ng mga taong nakakasalamuha namin pinagkakamalan kaming mag jowa 😌
Btw it's such a relaxing day for me! Dahil na pass ko almost ng module ko may naiwan dalawa. Ang hirap pag aralan ng "research" kung self thought Lang! Hay naku bahala nayan....maging Bobo nalang ako pag dating ng college haha
The best thing having a faithful friend!
Yong ipaparamdam nya sayo yong mga bagay na Hindi Mo ene-expect!
Punong puno ako ng insecurity pero lagi nyang pinapakita lahat ng good sides na Hindi ko nakikiita sa sarili ko!
This guy likes me pero I don't feel the same way..nakaka sad Lang kase Wala talaga kahit sya lang yong tini treat ako ng ganyang way!
I have gf now tho! But still lagi parin sya naka support at lagi nyang Pina pa alala na importante parin ako!
Thanks sa life mo bespren♥️
Lagi nalang every morning...first thing I do is look at myself in the mirror and always wish I wasn't me!
Do you know the song "dear insecurity" ? The lyrics goes
(Dear insecurity
When you gonna take your hands off me?
When you ever gonna let me be
Proud of who I am?
Oh insecurity
When you gonna take your hands off me?
When you ever gonna let me be
Just the way I am?
Dear insecurity
I hate the way you make me feel
I hate the things you make me think
You make me sick to my stomach
I wish that I wasn't me
Some days, when I wake up I see myself in the mirror
I feel like what shouldn't be couldn't be clearer
My nose to my clothes, from my chin to my skin
I'll never be good enough ever again)
Ang hirap mag move kapag punong puno ng insecurity. I always felt that I will never enough for somebody and I'm not deserving of any love! I always hate myself thinking that way! Yes ako din dahilan Kung bakit nasasaktan ako! 🙂
Just waiting for the perfect time na maging confident!
Tiis mona sa bangs! One day magkakaroon din ako ng prosthetic eye.
Still waiting dumating ang araw nayon!
Maybe mas lalong mag boost confidence when that day comes! For now stick nalang muna ako sa mga totoong tumatanggap sakin🙂
Gusto korinn makabuo ng circle of friends yong parang barkada at all out lalo na pag dating sa picturan haha!
#save4operation 😉
Picture now stress later😌
I was so dumb! I thought yong 8 modules is good for 2 weeks and then biglang nag chat si ma'am! " Ngayon Ang pasahan ng modules"
🙂 Ako na walang gawa kahit isa!
Then I reread the update and I found out it was only pe and health modules...the rest subject must be pass within 1 week😀
Mababa na talaga Ang reading comprehension ko!
Btw it's been a while since my last update😅
Guys if you still haven't played in smart.joystick.club then you're really missing out the fun.
My 1 week income just by playing 😁
My $4 really gained a lot.
Explore Joystick now you won't regret it. 💚💚💚
Why does Monday morning feels tiring (•‿•)
Anyway Gm to everyone.
What are your plans for today. Monday is surely a busy day..and a fresh start.
Before everything else....let me take a sip of coffee for a moment ☕
Now ready to start my day active ang look for a positive perspective. I hope everyone does.
I'mma cry right now 😭 i can't believe i finished all of my modules in just a couple of hours. Iba talaga ang nagagawa kapag pasahan bukas.
But still di pa pwede mag relax dahil meron pang walong exam hahaha.
Meron pa naman ako ng 4 hours left para gawin lahat so maybe 30 minutes each test paper.
But i don't think that would be enough. I usually spent about two hours in just 1 exam.
I'm so exhausted but i'll keep doing it cause i have no choice.
#moduleslyp
Dinner time!.
Good evening.
No rice for tonight. Umiiwas na ako sa pag consume ng maraming carbs
Cabbage with egg and grilled eggplant 💗
This past few weeks I lost about 6kl of weight. I was 56 kl before and now I'm at 50 kl ..That's impressive. I do exercise but not that quit often.
I want to lose 5 more kl.
45 kl is enough hehe.
I want to focus on reducing my thighs fat.
Another week coming up 👉
💪 Fight!
Yong may friend kang ganito hahah!
I don't usually say this but you're beautiful the way u r bespren. I keep saying you look bad.. cause I feel insecure about myself...kaya damay damay na'to haha.
I'm jealous but I appreciate your beauty!
Sana all maganda.
Kung gusto mo magbawas ng timbang doit for your own benefits.
Here I am again at this place.. alone.. overthinking... looking back.
Just thinking... How long I have been doing the same thing over and over again. I'm aging but I don't feel like I'm growing up.
Maybe I'm just tired.
#moodyafteenoon
Snapping face close up hahah. without them knowing. This is one I liked to do when I'm in a mood. Capturing their faces makes my vacation fun haha.
Weird behavior of mine eyy haha!
What a big family I have.. I mean literally big haha.
My mom, sister, and aunt. They all look like the same hahqh
Isn't she lovely! Isn't she wonderful!
My little beautiful cousin. She will surely grow to be a beautiful girl in the future.
A good afternoon greeting from my lovely cousin.
Hope everyone is doing great 😊
Breakfast time 🥞
I would love to put some chocolatesyrup on it but we don't have any...so it's on nextime!
Better feed my tummy before starting a good day. I wanted to drink some milk...but we've run out. It's ok, I claim that it's gonna be a beautiful day 🌻❤️
11th day of December. 14 more days to go till it's Christmas.
Good morning 🌻
Before that I must finish all my school works. Bago ko mae enjoy ang pasko. Kkkk😆
Starting my day active. Jog for a couple of minutes. My body is now cover with sweats. This is the sweat I like...im feeling a bit dizzy though.
Need my brain to work properly today hahah
#newstart
I just received my 8 exams for the first quarter.
More in written and solving. I'm almost out of data I only got a day to finish all of this. My data subscription will expire soon.
I need miracle 🤧
Brain please cooperate with me.
I need full concentration tommorow. Must take my sleep now.
Goodnight noisers and specially to my fav. person 🤧
The day is almost over!
We had a lot of fun.
Once again happy birthday tita
#hpbd
More success and birthday to come 😹❤️
I ate a lot today medz blowted haha. Tiring day kaya need ko ma rest ng maaga. Fun today.... Bagsak bukas. Mahirap mag enjoy kapag may iniisip na school works 🙄
Late upload 🤧
My bff's 18th birthday
The night of her life. I hope she had fun that night.
One of the emotional moment.
Sana ako din may ganito pag 18 ko hahah charot ayuko nga mag gown.
I didn't have the chance to greet her.. she was too busy. Anyway belated happy birthday bestie ❤️
After this naligo kami kinaunagahan...just the 4 of us. Dahil sobrang daming bisita no'ng gabi nito. Kaya nga medyo iwas ako doon baka ma quarantine ako ulit hahah
Anyway congratulations you're now at your legal age. Pero under kaparin sa parents mo dai haha.
Malapit narin tayo mag college 🤧
Can't wait mag rent na tayo ng sariling room pag punta natin sa Puerto! Hehe
#18bday
Party is almost starting!
Our celebrant is just getting her makeup done 💄.
3 hours din ang pag makeup at pag suot ng gown. Nakakapagod mag antay ah.
Hawaiian theme "Aloha"
Pool party mamaya. Nandito sa crush hehehehe.
Oo na one of the reason kung bakit gusto ko maka attend!
Later!
There's no such thing as too much cheeze squeeze. If you're having a bad day...a spread of cheese will take that away
#cheeseforlife
I'm in trouble I'm an addict
I'm addicted to this cheeze
She's got my heart tied in a knot
And my stomach in a whirl…🎶
Afternoon meryenda 🤧
At Milmags resta.
Treat ni lola. Burger lang sakin ayaw ko mag chaolong. Ang init kaya.
Pag tapos mag shopping diretso dito. Sana all diba may money pang lakwatsa!
#payday
So today ang practice para sa mga kasali sa 18 roses and candles. I'm not part of it dahil nag blackout ako. Sorry diko talaga kaya mag suot ng dress. Pero pwede naman ako sa 18 roses lalo na kung yong partner ko is yong pinsan nya..hahah charot!
Pupunta ako ng practice..manonood lang ganon.
Tomorrow na ang big Day. My friend is turning 18 🥺🤧
#paraparaan
#18bday
Watermelon 🍉😺🤧
Good morning again noisemates!
Watermelon perfect for this hot condition!
It's really watery...hahahah
Sweet but not to sweet and it's cold.
Yellow is much better than red....it has much flavor.
#hotday
#bored
So this is the place where the party will be held.
Hawaiian theme. (Aloha)
Polo shirt and white short for the boys and flower dress for the girls!
I'm a girl but sorry... I'm gonna wear the polo kkkk.
I can't believe she list me to be part of the 18 candles. And expect me to wear a dress and dance with a boy 🤧
I got a last minute to back out. Even her mother wants me to wear a dress.... I'm sorry but I really can't!
Night pool party for my friends 18th bday 🥳🎂
So cool!
@Unhidden
