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December 20, 2021 20:09
Monday

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Oh I Remember This is about talking about #Myinsecurities inspired by @Theblackdoll she talked about her insecurities in her latest article and she also said if we could talk about our insecurities so I decided to write on it and here I am the one and only.

Before you get to know my insecurities and stab on my insecurities ahahah lol don't get serious, I want to flex my honourable sponsors.

Actually right now I do not think that I have any insecurity but if you want to go back into the past then there is something which I can mention and that thing was upsetting me verryyyy verryyy muchhhh.
I was in class ninth and I don't know from where this thought came into my mind at that time that every time I sit on my bed facing my cupboard I always get indulge in the very upsetting thought of what will happen to me in the future whether I will get settled in some respectable place and earn well or I just have to compromise or will have to even manage the day to day livelihoods. At that time I was in military school and I actually get to join this school after an entrance exam and then an interview, a physical test, a medical test, and then a final merit list of selected candidates this all for getting admission into class 7th and therefore from this one thing was clear that everyone who is part of this institution has actually something in their intelligence and we were a batch of 55 candidates but even after all this I still had thought that whether I will settle peacefully or not in my life.

To add more I also was the academic topper in my whole batch and when I get free time I et this random thought but then once I settled myself with the tranquility that why I am thinking on all these things I know I am smarter I am intelligent I outperform in things I do and after all, I have so much support of my seniors, juniors, my family, my school which is actually the greatest motivation behind doing anything means anything even the impossible thing. All the cadets of this institution actually worship it from the depth of their heart and with all this I stooped being insecure about it.

Well, I was insecure about one more thing while in the military school itself was that nonetheless all 55 were my batchmates and we are bonded to each other like brother but I realise somehow that all my batchmates were at least close to someone who are like their best friend you can say and I was thinking all are my good brothers here but as I get into senior classes the batchmates of mine started spending time with their another small circle within the batch and I was getting insecure that I didn't make any friend like that from my batchmates with whom my small circle is defined and then I try to make a smaller circle of mine too but my bedmate was always actually with me though we were like a frenemy, a brother from another mother, best friend, and everything hahaha we talk very less like even if someone from outside they see us they will end up saying are you two not much into talking to each other. But we always cared about each other from the beginning and today he is in the National defense academy and I am pursuing graduation our bond still goes.

At last in my closing thoughts I must say that right now I do not have any insecurities and I don't think I will be able to cultivate any of them because I am past all these things with my understandings and one more thing with insecurities comes the negative emotions and those negative emotions are just a call to do something about your insecurity and so I take action even before I get a call.

Thank you all I am signing off here.