Yourself
All my teenage life I have never had the peek of a beautiful moment.
I walk alone when they walk in peers .
No one to build my courage with.
In lonely moments I cry myself to sleep.
And I say I've loved once yet it didn't last like I imagined.
I hit my lit,I can't hear the word sorry from a soul.
Not even a kiss on my forehead.
Now I'm alone I cry again all by myself.
I've no one but myself to love.
So I tell myself I'll always be here for you.
I love you more than you love me (myself).
Us again
Will there ever be a time you'll look at me again .
Will there ever be a time you'll call me your own.
My actions are now my regrets .
Why didn't I listened!!!
Now I'm hunted my the guilt of the past.
I thought it was just a white lie never knew it was the lie that beautify our break-up.
I can't find the promises you made to me.
Your words of praises, admiration sounds empty to me now .
How comes you were my blessing last year, today you're my worst mistake.
While does your tears which always melted my heart looks so fake now .
I messed up seven times but you messed up seventy seven times.
Was I just a tomato to you ?.
Purpose
You take my breath away but you're the purpose of my existence.
The love I've for you can make the devil shed tears .
You make every day a happy ever after .
Unknowingly you hold my world .
We're connected in all shades .
Because we live for each other .
There won't be a me without you .
You're my lifesaver,my oxygen,my purpose
I'll never get enough of you,every inch of you is a work framed perfectly.
I made promises .
Our journey we made in this race called life was completed because it was me and you
My greatest wish is to die slowly in your arms.
Taking my last breath looking at your heavenly face .
We're forever.
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Cold State
I am cold from the inside.
I've cried my eyes out.
Yet you cut me to pieces with your words.
Mine don't seem right.
I shot you dead out and I shot the world out.
I can't tell what is and what is not.
I taste my tears can't help but continue to cry .
Seems the only crime I know how to commit best is to myself.
I am looked away by my thoughts.
So I'm at the top screaming my out my heart.
Hoping I don't fall with no one to catch me .
Till next life I'll be cold .
Broken
One minute you want me the next I disgust you .
What exactly do you want from me.
You say I'm your beauty goddess then you say I'm as ugly as a frog .
What exactly do you want from me.
You want me to ease your sexual pleasures but never wondered how I felt mentally .
What exactly do you want from me.
You adorned my body when you're bored or less busy but never want to hear my feelings .
I don't want to feel if I'm just a tool to you cause you once told me you loved me .
Love me again like you did before.
I make sure you are satisfied with everything I offer but you never asked why I always frown .
You never speak to me unless I'm useful for a certain time for you .
I'm I stupid to be in love ?
Was I really made for love ?
Did you ever loved me like you once said?
You broke me .
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She's short , petite, funny so full of life my number one hyper , she's beautiful in and out
She's seyi ,I love you
Sins of the father's
Do we have to Walk this far .
With hagged clothes and thirsty throats.
To taste freedom,to taste freedom we were told we had years ago .
Were are the fights our fathers told us they fought .
Where are the deserts they said they walked through .
Why do we have to suffer ?
Dining with mistakes of our fathers.
Are we cursed ? Is the melody that rings in our head daily.
Our tears flows downs like waves from the boundless river in our eyes.
Our pains turns to hate .
To strive turns to suffocation.
We've no choice but to lick the dirty floor our fathers refused to sweep.
We've none but to pay the price cause we're our fathers children sadly.
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Depressed?
My pains are my companions.
I'm intimidated by the phrases of my peers .
I'm a product of the society i live reticence vivenan .
Or maybe I just want to be left alone while combing my inner demons.
Knowing that I've failed again today.
While I stare at those who fate just seem to cherish and bless leaving me in the darkness of depression.
Depressed? Yes .
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Ache
You told me I don't belong there , went home to fill a bucket of my tears .
I watched you go like I don't care .
My chest feels like there's a blade in it ,who put it there .
You look pitiful but I'm miserable inside .
You threw away the pictures ,but I've got the memories of us .
All the lies you told me and the time you stole from me .
I don't regret tho ,I learned from it .
Broke a leg so I changed my direction.
I'll learn to love myself now .
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Him
He had this tall ,authoritative figure .his eyes were dark brown,framed by graceful brows ,his appearance was seductive his handsome from his eyes to the gentle expression of his voice.
He had the face that stops you in your tracks ,he had tousled dark brown hair which was thick and lustrous his nose slender and rounded ,he had a Roman nose a prominent jaw curved gracefully around the strength of his neck showed in the twining cords of muscles that shaped his entire body obscured by his fuzzy thin Beard's .
He had a flawless skin ,his cologne swept me away ,his a private guy he called me his mermaid .
To my sad soul
My heart's is wary about the next big mistake you will make .
About the deepest sea we're yet to swim , might as well drown in it .
About the thickest Forest we are yet to walk through, might as well be strong for that .
Everyone has their own battle .
How we relate and let it define us matters .
The fish you eat without anyone seeing,gives you a breath now everyone knows.
Those you feel best comfortable with don't be too sure.
They're snake venoms you'll have in your veins tomorrow.
You ever wondered why it seems you're alone ?
Cause many other people feel the same way .
Don't let your situation consume you .
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Dark side
With my head looking down at the ground I know you're embarrassed for me.
Everybody has a dark side but I feel ashamed when they see mine .
You talk down on me that's your best quality.
My heart bleeds like a blade in it anytime I look at the mirror.
Will I ever find heaven ?
You lecture me of how of a disappointment I'm to you.
I feel so miserable, I've to hide
Have you ever wondered how I survive ?
I feel so exposed .
You never hear my words , you only know my hurt .
I mean you find joy in seeing me sad at least you're happy.
Locked myself with insecurities when I'm scared.
I spent my life in your lies where I can't escape .
Why don't you accept,you just want perfection !!!
How do I look in God's eyes ?
I only have one life and anytime I look at mine I feel like it's a waste .
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Prison
How long do I wait ?
How long do I wait for a saviour .
I fight with 77 demons daily
How do I escape from the pains,aches, the anger ,the suffocation
I was with friends and family but felt invisible
Missed all the teenage fun , still waiting for a prison breaker.
I speak but I don't hear my voice.
I live but die slowly .
I never knew only me got me .
I lived in a world I imaginarily made dark and it became real !!!!
The world I lived in was a process of my thoughts.
I waited for thousands of years !!! , Thousands of years to find out I was in a prison of myself .
I need to find happiness again .
I need to smell success
As a child growing up all I knew were mistakes
I made sure my life won't have a scratch cause of lessons learned by my elders .
I had to leave by example
In the process not knowing myself
Trap in my mind
Lived in my imagination
Died in my fantasy
Now it's hard to let go , it's hard to see the world differently.
Am my own saviour but am not ready to be a hero yet
Prison isn't were I wish to be ,but the solitude found there is a different explanation .
What's wrong with me? , Has always been my question
Felt I was a mistake right from the start ,felt I wasn't worthy
It won't be long my spirit won't accept the dark my mind is entertaining now.
I need to know what is it to love ,to feel protected , and cared for .
I need to be freed from this prison ( myself)
I have heard of stories of victory from fortune tellers
I have been told miracles
I have seen wonders
But I am the greatest accomplishment I can be for myself
I am my success story
In sad times being alone has never been new
I have always been my cheerleader,my competitor
I cry myself to sleep most times
I give myself hope for a dawn
I am the best me of me
Seeing through the mirror seeing physically I'm free but mentally prisoned
I feel I can make my freedom a reality
I will break the chains up
I will be freed soon
It's time to breath again
It's time to live again
I need to be alive
Fixed love
From the pages of my past.
I recall my love for you was too hot for others to handle.
You burnt our bridge, made us swim the oceans of cold waves.
You put out our fire and made us walk the dark .
With you here I'd commit the crime for the sake of my sanity.
You made us out of season,now you want me back .
You poured ice on our hearts,we were out of season now you want me back .
You killed the reason to vibe and shine bright,we are out of season,now you want me back?
You no longer hold my ropes
You are no longer my hope
Fight with the grief of the past,
That's what left for you.
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